Decisions in gifs.
I am taking a leaf out of Lytton's book and using the comical format of gif posting to express my view/opinion/message.
After some thought, probably about three hours' worth - although not all at once but split through the past two weeks... or maybe three weeks... was it two? ... never mind. Moving on to my main point - I have come to several decisions.
These decisions are not exactly as serious business-y as most, but I felt the need to write them all down on LJ.
Over the past few months it has just been one lousy thing after another, I am sure I am not alone in this sentiment, I know everyone has been feeling like one of these at some point in recently:
Like this, for example.
Or this:
Or even this:
Mainly, I have been feeling like this: (don't look too long at the gif, you might start to get dizzy like I did...)
Just like Wonder Woman there, I feel like for the past 6 months I have been pointlessly spinning around in circles. Unlike Wonder Woman there, I will never be able to pull off wearing a starry diaper.
I have had loads of support from family and friends (you are all classed in those categories, by the way), which has prevented me from going bat-shit crazy:
But now it's getting to the point where if I don't start getting my backside into gear, I will be truly and royally screwed. I am just so behind, and I have so many things to do that everything is being done half-assed. And I hate half-assed. Since this is LJ, my LJ-related half assed-ness includes still not sending Kate's card, delayed/non-existent chapters of fics, unfulfilled promises of reviews and not replying to comments. There are other non-internet things, like lack of exercise or the fact that I have not touched my PhD since November 2011, to name a few.
So I say:
I have now made a long and detailed plan (that's a lie, I haven't really made it long or detailed, it's on a scrap of paper that accidentally got thrown in the bin), and while I thought about cutting out fandom completely for a bit, I just couldn't do it. I have poor impulse control, like those kids with the marshmallows in that behavioural experiment. So instead I will limit myself, and be more organised.
The part of that plan which concerns this area of my life (i.e. rabid fangirling and attempts at writing) is as follows:
1. Hush and Serenity are on hold until Hooligans is complete. I barely have enough time to work on Hooligans and the one-shots for special fic-events like AA, ficathon etc. So I am cutting it down to one story at a time. I suppose what prompted this is the fact that I re-read my AA fic and could not believe (actually, I could) how many spelling, grammar and annoying little mistakes I made. I HATE that, those things are one of my biggest pet peeves, and yet I do it all the time because I'm always in such a rush. The problem is, these little mistakes are creeping into proper work, which is VERY BAD. So no more Hush or Serenity until there is no more Hooligans.
2. I have a list of fic-authors, put into alphabetical order. I intend to go down this list and basically give proper reviews to anything/everything they have written. This will mean I will catch up and be a good reviewer. It will take an excessive amount of time, so I apologise in advance to people like Warrior of Ice and V if it takes me ages to get to you.
3. Well... that's it really. Ok, so this post is incredibly long winded and there wasn't much said, really, but for some reason I do feel much better.
After some thought, probably about three hours' worth - although not all at once but split through the past two weeks... or maybe three weeks... was it two? ... never mind. Moving on to my main point - I have come to several decisions.
These decisions are not exactly as serious business-y as most, but I felt the need to write them all down on LJ.
Over the past few months it has just been one lousy thing after another, I am sure I am not alone in this sentiment, I know everyone has been feeling like one of these at some point in recently:
Like this, for example.
Or this:
Or even this:
Mainly, I have been feeling like this: (don't look too long at the gif, you might start to get dizzy like I did...)
Just like Wonder Woman there, I feel like for the past 6 months I have been pointlessly spinning around in circles. Unlike Wonder Woman there, I will never be able to pull off wearing a starry diaper.
I have had loads of support from family and friends (you are all classed in those categories, by the way), which has prevented me from going bat-shit crazy:
But now it's getting to the point where if I don't start getting my backside into gear, I will be truly and royally screwed. I am just so behind, and I have so many things to do that everything is being done half-assed. And I hate half-assed. Since this is LJ, my LJ-related half assed-ness includes still not sending Kate's card, delayed/non-existent chapters of fics, unfulfilled promises of reviews and not replying to comments. There are other non-internet things, like lack of exercise or the fact that I have not touched my PhD since November 2011, to name a few.
So I say:
I have now made a long and detailed plan (that's a lie, I haven't really made it long or detailed, it's on a scrap of paper that accidentally got thrown in the bin), and while I thought about cutting out fandom completely for a bit, I just couldn't do it. I have poor impulse control, like those kids with the marshmallows in that behavioural experiment. So instead I will limit myself, and be more organised.
The part of that plan which concerns this area of my life (i.e. rabid fangirling and attempts at writing) is as follows:
1. Hush and Serenity are on hold until Hooligans is complete. I barely have enough time to work on Hooligans and the one-shots for special fic-events like AA, ficathon etc. So I am cutting it down to one story at a time. I suppose what prompted this is the fact that I re-read my AA fic and could not believe (actually, I could) how many spelling, grammar and annoying little mistakes I made. I HATE that, those things are one of my biggest pet peeves, and yet I do it all the time because I'm always in such a rush. The problem is, these little mistakes are creeping into proper work, which is VERY BAD. So no more Hush or Serenity until there is no more Hooligans.
2. I have a list of fic-authors, put into alphabetical order. I intend to go down this list and basically give proper reviews to anything/everything they have written. This will mean I will catch up and be a good reviewer. It will take an excessive amount of time, so I apologise in advance to people like Warrior of Ice and V if it takes me ages to get to you.
3. Well... that's it really. Ok, so this post is incredibly long winded and there wasn't much said, really, but for some reason I do feel much better.