Fuck it, you win.

I give up.  I'm so sick of playing this little game.  THAT is what's ridiculous.

In other news, I should have my cell phone turned back on tomorrow - but you shouldn't bother to go out of your way to call me.   Actually, I know you won't bother.
I don't care what you want anymore.  I'm through with giving you everything you ask for, ( Read more... )

New journal:

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I feel like imploding.   :(((((((((((((((((((((( fuck.

Leave me numb, leave me jaded.
She's a dream, I just play dead.
I’ve been blessed, I’ve been hated.
She's the constant and I'm her addict.
She's the only peace in this world, uneasy.
While I bite my tongue to keep from breaking the heart that I’ve spent my whole life seeking.
The only heart I’ve ever ( Read more... )

So, I'm in a pretty great fucking mood.  It goes against everything that's been happening the last couple of days, but I guess all of that really doesn't matter to me anymore.   School is too easy.  I thought I'd have trouble in spanish, but I'm doing pretty damn well.  I saw Camillia today at the Wal-Marts.  Cammy, if you're reading this, we need ( Read more... )

I know I probably shouldn't do it as much as I do, but it's hard to help.  I don't know why it's hard for people to break certain habits, especially when they're this bad for you.  Right now I kind of feel like dying, but only for a little while.  Until things smooth themselves out and I don't have to constantly worry anymore.

I don't really want ( Read more... )

Yeah, I need to make some changes.

I can't believe I can be such an idiot sometimes.  I can't believe I act so immature sometimes.  I can't believe I'm so dull sometimes.  I can't believe I keep letting her slip through my fingers.

So, let's talk.

So far I've lost 30 pounds since last semester and I'm pretty happy with myself, kind of.  I actually have today off, it's unbelievable.  I really had no idea until yesterday.  I guess me and a bunch of people are going to hang out at Rocky's and get drunk.  Well, I'll probably just watch them get drunk.  Dad's kind of upset with me ( Read more... )

No fighting on my LJ plz. thxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxu

I'm slowly falling away from all of my friends, and I have no one to blame but myself.

I've been such an asshole lately and I really don't know why.  Well, I didn't realize I was being one until a few days ago.  I used to be such a nice guy and I really don't know why I've changed.  I know I can do better than this.   I guess this could be my New ( Read more... )

I have nothing to complain about, so I don't know why I'm going to post in the LJ.  Well, let me rephrase that:  I have no one to complain about ( Read more... )