liana is four months old

a really great day today.words cant describe it i feel happy. i just hope this isnt temporary. i hope i will get to feel like this every day now and that im not just setting myself up for another fall. lets just see what happens

that guy on the wedding singer when he was like i wish someone would just hold me and tell me everything is going to be ok and that old guy grabshim and says everything is going to be ok and he was like thats not really what i was talking about. i feel like that every day

i feel so lonely

i wanna kick some ass right about now

i was just thinking about my senior year of high school. in english we had to do our book talk thingy and when i got up to talk just what i thought would happen. people start snickering and saying shit beneath their breath. i didnt even want to do my presentation because i knew exactly that would happen. since everyone hated me for shit that didnt ( Read more... )

yesterday was an ok day. i met andrews parents and everything and they met her and all that stuff. and andrew bought her something. and then today had to happen. i found out something i needed to know that hurt me soo much. im almost used to this shit. being denied or whatever. im soo fucking hurt or pissed idk both. and i feel like i cant say shit ( Read more... )

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i cant trust anyone anymore. i feel sometimes like if i dont have any real friends.because whenever i do a year later they can be like yea we werent really friends i dont remember. we just kind of know eachother. and im like ok i thought we were pretty close.does anyone really consider me a part of their life?idk maybe im just being overly ( Read more... )

noone can ever either take a joke or accept a little bit of criticism without snapping back with something really cruel or mean. fuck everybody bye