Worst. Night. EVER!

[charlottenever]

Last night was positively horrible. Everything just seemed to be going so wrong. I'm getting really sick, but I don't know what to do about it

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[hello_friend51]

man, i hate when that happens. you could be having the best day of your life and then the minute it's nighttime, you start to feel like shit. I think it has something to do with the sun not being out. Crazy as it seems, the sun, makes me feel happier when it's out. and this morning i woke up to the sound of thunder, my dog panicing, and clouds. I was like (pardon my language) "fuck, there's going to be hell today".

Or, do you ever get that, you spend the whole day with your friends but the minute you get home you feel like you're worthless? i get that everytime i come home from a friends house or, they leave my house. I hate that feeling.

Maybe, you're just bored & need to try something new?

Just a suggestion.

♥

[ghanisbuli]

"Or, do you ever get that, you spend the whole day with your friends but the minute you get home you feel like you're worthless? i get that everytime i come home from a friends house or, they leave my house. I hate that feeling."

DUDE, I get that feeling alll the time. It's really odd, because I didn't used to be people dependent at all...

[charlottenever]

I also feel like that all the time!
I thought maybe those feelings of happiness with people were fake but then I realised I just can't stand to be alone.

[hello_friend51]

i was so co-depentant on someone (we aren't friends anymore) that my mom had to yell at me to make me realize how much i was clinging to them. She was like "what's wrong with you? you were NEVER like this. YOU NEVER FOLLOWED ANYONE! This guy, is ruining your life. You never waiting for someone you were always like "fuck this, i'm doing my own thing" ever since you were little" and i was like "shit mom...you're right." it was crazy.

[ghanisbuli]

I'm so sorry! I don't know the rules, is there anywhere you could go for help without your mom? I've noticed that sometimes parents only see what they want to see... they live in quite a fog. And it sucks. Just know that all of the Cure Pack love you dearly, and we're here for you when you need us. I really hope that you feel better soon and have a better night tonight.

[charlottenever]

I'm not sure... I have some phone numbers I guess I could call. I thought about it last night.. but I didn't.

And thanks, I love you all dearly as well. I feel like I might be okay tonight. I just have to brace myself for the night. I'm always worse at night...

[lazatiger]

:( Awww.. That's not good at all. I am le worried about you. I'm glad you're feeling better today, though

[charlottenever]

Thank you so much, Cookie. I'm glad you understand, and I feel the same way about the weather. I just appreciate the rain more... when the sun's out I get worried about skin cancer... -_-;

I haven't mentioned anything to her, but my doctor said she'd help me find a psych down in GA if I want, cos she's worried about the stress of college and the way I might not be able to handle it without help.

Thanks for the offer, it's good to know people are around. Sometimes I just need to be reminded.

*hug*

[culthero666]

Hey you always know I'll be around eventually if you need someone to talk to. Heck I'm not far away if anyone needs an old expert on dealing with depression. I've been dealing with it for over 20 years so I've learned a thing or two. 0_

[charlottenever]

Yeah...I'm pretty sure the stomach crap is brought on by anxiety, cos I used to get sick CONSTANTLY... but sometimes I freak out when I start feeling sick cos I get to thinking, "Why can't I control my body, get better..." Blah blah blah...

True that about getting help without my mom... but I need her money. =\

I'm sure she has problems... she was abused by her first husband, her parents didn't want her... yeah, she has issues.

I so dislike taking medications. But I know you're right, I do have a chemical imbalance. Just sucks.

But anyway, thanks again.