Really tho... why do you hate yourself? With me, it's pretty much everything. My physical self... I have this eternal hatred with my body and a preoccupation with it, which I also hate. As well as a constant conflict with my mind and all the horrid things it inflicts me with.
It's a damn shame. I thought something weird the other night... What if you could seperate your mind and body and put them in a room together... what would happen?
I think they'd go at it with knives. I wonder which one would get killed and/or die first.
I looked at it. Who's Bert? And your mom thinks your possessed? Oh dear. Well I think you should just ignore what she says. You're going off to college soon enough anyway, right? :)
You got a job? I'm sorry, you probably mentioned it in another post, but I'm behind on posts for everyone. :(
And you know what? I have never seen a cockroach in real life. Just on TV. But they look disgusting. I'm kind of thankful for living up here in cold Canada where the cockroaches can't handle it. :p
You're not pathetic.
I could write about how much I hate myself but I'll just get off...
I am in college, dearest. ^_____^ And I don't have the job yet... LOTS of paperwork.
Bert is the lead singer of The Used. He's quite nasty (as in dirty... drugs... stuff) but I think he has talent. If he cleaned himself up he'd be even better.
HAHHAHA... damn man, these cockroaches are HUGE... like big as your hand huge.
I'm glad you like me enough to think I'm a great person... All my friends keep trying to reassure me in these ways, and it does make me happy but I can't let that override all this self-hate I feel.
I've felt this way for such a long time. I hate myself for liking women. I hate myself for the things I do that I know ruin me (the cutting and the starvation).
I hate my mind for filling me with anxiety and anguish of everyday little things.
Got some news for you... come closer this is a secret that needs to be whispered... Ready?
YOU'RE A TEENAGER! YOU ARE PERFECTLY NORMAL! EVERYONE GOES THROUGH THE SAME THOUGHTS HURTS AND EMOTIONS! YOU ARE IN GOOD COMPANY FOR YOU HAVE MANY FRIENDS (ME INCLUDED) THAT THINK YOU ARE A VERY AWESOME PERSON!!!!!Just wanted to make sure you read that! :) Seriously though you are still going through a lot of teenage agnst and much of that will fade in time. The rest of it has a lot to do with family issues and the fact that you are a sencitive person and when someone speaks ill of you (like a family member) you take it to heart even though they may have said it flipantly and meant nothing by it. I'm the same way, my family says they have to walk on eggshells around me but it's not true. Even knowing how my depression makes me sencitive to things they say they still haven't learned how to be considerate of my feelings. I've just learned to except the fact that they just lack the ability to understand how it is for me so I just try and avoid
( ... )
I know, I know... you tell me this all the time. Everyone does... but I can't help but feel like it's so much more than that. There aren't many depressed people I know who daydream about being raped and hanging themselves in their roomates closet.
See?
And I hurt people. People I'm supposed to love and care about. I mean hurt mentally, emotionally... I confuse them because sometimes I love them sometimes I hate them...
*shakes head* I could go to the therapist here but she scares me. Maybe I will go anyway... just not now.
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I bet I hate myself much more than you...
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Really tho... why do you hate yourself?
With me, it's pretty much everything. My physical self... I have this eternal hatred with my body and a preoccupation with it, which I also hate. As well as a constant conflict with my mind and all the horrid things it inflicts me with.
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It's a damn shame. I thought something weird the other night...
What if you could seperate your mind and body and put them in a room together... what would happen?
I think they'd go at it with knives. I wonder which one would get killed and/or die first.
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You got a job? I'm sorry, you probably mentioned it in another post, but I'm behind on posts for everyone. :(
And you know what? I have never seen a cockroach in real life. Just on TV. But they look disgusting. I'm kind of thankful for living up here in cold Canada where the cockroaches can't handle it. :p
You're not pathetic.
I could write about how much I hate myself but I'll just get off...
Why do you hate yourself? You're a great person.
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And I don't have the job yet... LOTS of paperwork.
Bert is the lead singer of The Used.
He's quite nasty (as in dirty... drugs... stuff) but I think he has talent. If he cleaned himself up he'd be even better.
HAHHAHA... damn man, these cockroaches are HUGE... like big as your hand huge.
I'm glad you like me enough to think I'm a great person...
All my friends keep trying to reassure me in these ways, and it does make me happy but I can't let that override all this self-hate I feel.
I've felt this way for such a long time. I hate myself for liking women. I hate myself for the things I do that I know ruin me (the cutting and the starvation).
I hate my mind for filling me with anxiety and anguish of everyday little things.
There are so many reasons. I don't know...
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YOU'RE A TEENAGER! YOU ARE PERFECTLY NORMAL! EVERYONE GOES THROUGH THE SAME THOUGHTS HURTS AND EMOTIONS! YOU ARE IN GOOD COMPANY FOR YOU HAVE MANY FRIENDS (ME INCLUDED) THAT THINK YOU ARE A VERY AWESOME PERSON!!!!!Just wanted to make sure you read that! :) Seriously though you are still going through a lot of teenage agnst and much of that will fade in time. The rest of it has a lot to do with family issues and the fact that you are a sencitive person and when someone speaks ill of you (like a family member) you take it to heart even though they may have said it flipantly and meant nothing by it. I'm the same way, my family says they have to walk on eggshells around me but it's not true. Even knowing how my depression makes me sencitive to things they say they still haven't learned how to be considerate of my feelings. I've just learned to except the fact that they just lack the ability to understand how it is for me so I just try and avoid ( ... )
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See?
And I hurt people. People I'm supposed to love and care about. I mean hurt mentally, emotionally...
I confuse them because sometimes I love them sometimes I hate them...
*shakes head* I could go to the therapist here but she scares me. Maybe I will go anyway... just not now.
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