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Groo: I sit cross legged, my feet and legs still throbbing. I pull Julie to my lap and hold her gently. "My girl," I say softly.

Julie: I lay there in his arms, lost in the feeling of heaven. "Thank you."

Groo: I lean down and kiss her deeply. "Thank you for accepting my gift, my love, my commitment."

Julie: "Anything for you" I whisper as I kiss him back.

Groo: I smile broadly, "And anything for you." I look down at her. "I would like to do something for you now."

Julie: "W..What?"

Groo: "You trust me, yes?" I ask tenderly.

Julie: "Yes" I whisper

Groo: "Good," I say, kissing her again. I move her off my lap and stand, pulling her up with me. I walk over to the table with several strips of cloth, holding one up and tying it gently around her eyes. I pick her up once she is blindfolded and carry her to the dining room where the remainder of the food it.

Julie: I was nervous my whole body shaking.

Groo: I sit down, holding her on my lap. "I am going to feed you. You do not need to see the food, nor ingest it on your own. However, you will eat it and not spit it on me, understand?" I explain gently.

Julie: I nod "I..I will try sir" I whisper shaking.

Groo: I kiss her gently. "I know you will succeed, my love." I hold up a taco to her mouth, "Take a bite please."

Julie: "I...I don't..I..Its.." he presses it into my mouth and I bite down chewing

Groo: "Excellent," I say waiting till she has swallowed the bite and then offer another. "Again."

Julie: "Not yet please." I plead

Groo: "Very well," I say gently. I do not wish to push her too hard too fast. I offer her a drink of water instead.

Julie: I drink the water slowly and rest my head against his chest.

Groo: I kiss her forehead above the cloth covering her eyes. "I love you."

Julie: "I love you too" I whisper unmoving.

Groo: "I know you do, my girl," I say, picking up a forkful of rice. "Open please," I say holding it to her mouth.

Julie: I shake my head

Groo: "I am not asking," I say softly but firmly.

Julie: I shake my head again. I did one bite, that was good right?

Groo: I gently touch the collar on her neck. "By accepting this, you also accepted to give me the ability and the right to do what is best for you, even if you do not always agree. By me giving it to you, I am committing to always do what is best for you and never harm you."

Julie: I pull back "Its scary." I admit and close my mouth before he can shove it in.

Groo: I nod, "I know it is, my love, but you must trust me."

Julie: "I'm scared." I repeat again. I don't know how to express my fear to him.

Groo: "Tell me what you are afraid of," I order gently.

Julie: "It coming back to hurt me later."

Groo: "The food? Or the collar?" I ask gently.

Julie: "Food" I whisper.

Groo: "I will not make you ill, I swear. And no one and no thing can harm you for eating it."

Julie: "You say that, and I know you will keep that promise as best you can, but it doesn't stop the fear."

Groo: "I know it doesn't. But what I've learned about fear is that the only way you can move past it is to face it."

Julie: "I'm not that brave."

Groo: "Yes you are, my love. And if you do not feel as if you are, use my bravery."

Julie: "How?" I asked as a tear fell.

Groo: "Believe me when I tell you no harm will come to you, trust me, know I love you."

Julie: "I want to." I whisper "but....I am so scared....I know I am a failure...I'm sorry"

Groo: "You are only a failure if you fail to trust me, my love," I explain gently.

Julie: "I trust you, but then I remember what happened and...it scares me."

Groo: "Do you think I could ever do that to you or allow anyone else to harm you?"

Julie: "You can't watch me all the time." I whisper

Groo: "I can watch you while you eat," I say honestly.

Julie: "That’s great, but what happens when i am alone and I am punished for eating."

Groo: "Simple. You will not eat without me, agreed? I will never be away from you for more than a few hours if it can be prevented."

Julie: "No offense, but I don't need a babysitter, and what if you have to be gone for days....do I not eat then?"

Groo: "If I am gone for several days you will be with me. And I know you do not need a babysitter."

Julie: "You can't always be with me though...." i whisper

Groo: "Julie," I say firmly, "The collar, the ring, they tell you I will be with you always."

Julie: "But..not physically with with..." I say softly trying to help him understand he couldn't be with me all the time.

Groo: "Are you saying that I will not see you at least twice a day every day for the rest of your life?" I ask.

Julie: "Sometimes you might not. Things happen Groo."

Groo: I pull the blindfold from her eyes. "Are you unwilling to even try?" I ask, frustrated. I had hoped if she did not see the food it would make it a bit easier. I was obviously mistaken.

Julie: "NO put it back" I say panicked clinging to him.

Groo: I slide the cloth back over her eyes, confused.

Julie: I relaxed again against him. "S..Sorry"

Groo: "I am very confused," I say gently.

Julie: "I want to try...I..I am just scared."

Groo: I sigh. "I know it has only been a few days, but I have done everything that I can to show you that you will not be harmed. Everyone here has tried to show you. I do not know what else I can do to assist you," I say softly. I greatly dislike feeling helpless.

Julie: "And you have done amazing, its just..." I sit up "12 years Groo. I spent 12 years in that hell."

Groo: "I know. And I do not expect you to just get over it. I just do not know what to do."

Julie: "I want to be good for you." I say "I just...I am scared."

Groo: "I know you do and I know you are. I am merely asking you to trust me, my love.”

Julie: "I do." I whisper as I rest against him again.

Groo: I smile. "I know you do." I pick the fork up with the rice on it again, holding it to her mouth. "Take a bite, my love."

Julie: "Yes Sir." I said as I opened my mouth again then started to panic as he slid the fork in.

Groo: "You are all right, it is just you and I here," I reassure as I slide the fork out of her mouth.

Julie: My heart was racing, my body shaking as I ate the bite. Obviously the blindfold wasn't working. I slid it off and look at him "I...I'm sorry."

Groo: I smile kindly at her. "It is all right to be afraid. As I said before, it is not the fear that is bad, it is understandable. But the only way to overcome it is to face it. I will assist you in facing it."

Julie: I still hadn't fully swallowed the rice, I would start and it was like my throat would close up.

Groo: "You must swallow," I instruct gently.

Julie: "Trying" I say through the rice.

Groo: "I know you are, my sweet Julie. Just relax," I say soothingly. "You know I will never harm you."

Julie: I managed to finally get the bite down. Why was this so hard?

Groo: "Good girl," I say softly, offering her the water.

Julie: I take some and look at him. "Can we be done?" I ask

Groo: I shake my head but give her a sympathetic look. "I am afraid not, my love. You need more nutrition than you have been ingesting," I explain gently.

Julie: "I..I can try again later. I..I just feel like I am going to throw up."

Groo: I nod. "We shall wait for half an hour."

Julie: I look at him pleadingly "longer please."

Groo: "We shall wait for half an hour," I repeat. "Why do we not go rest on the couch for a while? We do not need to remain near the food."

Julie: "May I go upstairs." I ask

Groo: "We can go upstairs," I say, standing with her in my arms.

Julie: "M..May I go alone?" I asked needing a moment

Groo: "As long as you promise me you will not vomit up your lunch," I say softly.

Julie: "As long as I can control it." I say honestly "I am not going to force it."

Groo: "That is acceptable. I will come get you in thirty minutes."

Julie: "Ok" I say as I walk up the stairs to our room.

Groo: I watch her walk up the stairs then go to the living room, turning on the television. I do not know what I watched but it made the time pass more quickly. After the situation comedy is over, I go upstairs and knock softly on the bedroom door.

Julie: I had fallen asleep on the bed, the emotions of the day wearing me out.

Groo: I do not hear her answer so I walk in, seeing her asleep on the bed. I climb in beside her, shaking her gently. "Julie, you must wake."

Julie: I shake my head "noo" I groan "So tired."

Groo: "Yes, you must. If you do not eat I will be forced to take you to the hospital where they will force a feeding tube into you. I do not wish this to happen."

Julie: "Later please. I am just so tired."

Groo: "No. You are tired because your body needs more nutrients," I say firmly. I have seen this before. I know it has been difficult emotionally for her, but her body is not surviving.

Julie: "Please" I fight him "Just an hour, maybe two."

Groo: "No. That is not acceptable. Now." I say, pulling her up to sit with me.

Julie: "Groo, please" I plead a tear falling. "Just an hour."

Groo: "No."

Julie: "Please"

Groo: "Julie, this is not a negotiation."

Julie: "No, its me pleading with you for two more hours."

Groo: "I have already told you no. This discussion is over. Come with me now to eat or I shall take you to the hospital in the morning to be force fed."

Julie: "Why can't you just let me sleep for two hours. I will eat then."

Groo: I touch her collar and look into her eyes, not saying anything further.

Julie: I don't move, but I don’t fight him anymore. "Can you at least bring it here?"

Groo: I nod. "That is acceptable. I shall return in a moment. Would you like something more simple than the tacos? I could prepare you some soup or cereal?"

Julie: "Soup" I whisper "Its easier to swallow."

Groo: I lean over and kiss her gently, "I shall return," I say, walking downstairs. I quickly heat up a can of what is labeled chicken and stars, though when I prepare it, it appears to be mostly broth. I carry it carefully up the stairs on a tray with some fruit, she seems to enjoy it.

Julie: I was sound asleep again, didn't even hear him come in.

Groo: I sit the tray on the small table and go to wake her up again. "Julie, I have returned," I say gently, stroking her arm.

Julie: "tired" I whisper again

Groo: "I know, but this will make you feel better, my love," I explain.

Julie: "So tired" I whisper as he pulls me up to sit.

Groo: I carry her to the table, sitting with her on my lap. "You have to eat, this is not negotiable. I do not wish to take you to the hospital."

Julie: "I will try." I whisper as I rest against him.

Groo: "I know you will, my girl," I say softly as I lift a spoonful of broth to her mouth. "It is not too hot, it is just right, take it."

Julie: I keep my eyes closed as I take the bite nearly choking on it. A tear falls as I feel like I am failing him.

Groo: "You're doing well, my love," I reassure as she slowly swallows the broth after holding it in her mouth. "I love you."

Julie: "not too much please" I plead. This was almost too much for me.

Groo: "I know, sweet girl, I promise not to force too much," I say softly, offering her another bite. "Just a few more, your stomach will become accustomed to food. We simply need to remind it."

Julie: tears fall as I try to take another bite which I choke on and it ends up all over me.

Groo: I use my shirt to gently wipe the soup from her mouth and chest, stroking her back softly. "It's okay, just relax, we'll go slow."

Julie: "Thank you." I said softly tears falling.

Groo: I kiss her gently, "You are welcome." I lift the spoon again, holding it to her mouth. "Just take it easy. It is only liquid, just like water," I say softly.

Julie: I take a bite but its only upsetting my stomach. "I think I am going to be sick.

Groo: "No you're not, it's okay, we can stop there, my love," I say gently, putting the spoon down. "Just breathe, relax, okay?"

Julie: "I'm sorry"

Groo: I shake my head and smile kindly at her. "There is nothing to be sorry for, my love."

Julie: "I'm scared."

Groo: "It is all right to be scared, my sweet Julie. I am here, I will never leave you."

Julie: I hug him my body shaking.

Groo: I hug her tightly to me, rocking her gently. "I love you, sweet girl. You are mine now, I am yours."

Julie: "I'm going to die aren't I?"

Groo: I shake my head. "You are not going to die, why would you think such a thing, my sweet Julie."

Julie: "I can't eat." I whisper "I can't make myself eat, it only makes me sick."

Groo: "You will not die. I will not allow you to die," I say firmly. "I will take you to the hospital and get you treatment, do whatever it takes. You will not die, I swear it."

Julie: I look at him terrified. "Make me eat, make me better."

Groo: I look into her eyes and nod. "Perhaps a straw would be easier than the spoon?" I ask. It would be more like drinking.

Julie: I shake my head "The soup is upsetting my stomach...is there something else less....soupy?"

Groo: "I brought you some fruit as well, you seemed to enjoy it before," I say.

Julie: "I..I can try." I say softly

Edward:: I hear what is going on as I am passing by and peek my head in. "Groo" I say "Not that I think it is proper all the time..." I say softly as I approach him and whisper in his ear. "I suggest an injection small amount of sedation, it might help."

Groo: I look up at him. "I am unfamiliar with how to perform such a task," I say, frowning a bit.

Edward:: I nod "Allow me?" I ask

Groo: "Only if she is aware of what is occurring," I say firmly.

Julie: "It is your decision" I say hearing parts.

Groo: "He is proposing to give you a small amount of sedation to make eating easier. I am agreeable to this idea as long as you are aware of it," I say to her.

Julie: "You are in charge" I repeat.

Groo: I smile at her, kissing her gently. "Thank you," I say softly. I look up at Mr. Lawrence. "I believe your idea is sound. Can you do this?"

Edward:: "I can." I say softly "Let me retrieve the supplies."

Groo: I nod. "Thank you."

Edward:: I leave the room to locate my supplies. I do hope this works.

Groo: I look down at her, "This will work, my love, I am confident."

Edward:: I return moments later with the supplies and sat next to Julie. "Julie, darling, there will be a small poke then you will relax. Once the medicine takes effect you should be able to eat something." I prayed this would work.

Groo: "I have you," I say, looking down at her. "You may proceed, Mr. Lawrence."

Julie: "Edward" I whisper "Don't let me die" I was starting to get scared.

Edward:: "Shhh darling, you are not dying, you are going to live to have children. You have made me most proud these last few years..I want to see who you can become." I said this while gently sliding the needle into her arm and injecting the medicine.

Julie: Tears fell, I never knew how he felt.

Groo: I nod in agreement with him. "You are going to live to have my children," I say, looking into her eyes. I smile as the tears stream down her face, understanding them to be ones of emotion, not of pain.

Edward:: "Relax darling." I whispered into her ear as I caressed her arm. "may I?" I asked reaching for the plate.

Groo: I nod, "Of course, my friend," I say softly, holding her gently on my lap.

Edward:: I take the plate taking a piece of cantaloupe in my hand placing it gently against her lips. "Just one small bite darling..." I whispered my hand holding hers.

Julie: my eyes heavy I do as I am told, taking a small bite and swallowing it.

Groo: "Good, good my love," I say softly as she sleepily eats the small piece of fruit.

Edward:: "Wonderful darling, take a moment. Would you like a grape? You like those yes?"

Julie: "Yes" I whisper as I take a breath. "Thank you."

Groo: I smile at her encouragingly, softly stroking the small of her back.

Edward:: I place a small green grape at her lips and she tiredly takes it chewing slowly.

Groo: I look up at him, "Mr. Lawrence, how much more will she be able to ingest? I fear she is falling asleep."

Julie: I look to Groo. "I can do more..I am not asleep." I say as I swallow the grape. "I want you to be happy."

Groo: I smile down at her, "I will be pleased if you can continue," I say gently. I nod at Mr. Lawrence to continue.

Edward:: I smile "Darling, he is happy just having you here, do this for you." I say as I place a strawberry at her lips. "take a small bite."

Groo: I nod in agreement with him. "He is correct, you alone make me happy," I say stroking her cheek gently as she takes the strawberry.

Julie: I take the bite and swallow. "More?" I whisper.

Edward:: "Yes darling, take another bite?"

Julie: "Ok." I say as I take the bite my eyes growing heavy.

Groo: "You must remember to chew, my sweet Julie," I say softly.

Julie: I chew it and swallow. "I did."

Edward:: I smile "Yes, you did." I place another bite of fruit at her lips but she is out cold. I sigh. "I should try a lesser dose next time."

Groo: I chuckle. "Perhaps. She is small and her body is weak," I say. I look up at him. "We are still going to need to take her to the hospital, are we not?"

Edward:: "I fear it may be the only option, I do however wish to try one more time when she awakes."

Groo: "I agree. She did seem more relaxed, without her fear. If you will show me the proper way to administer the injection, I believe I can do it."

Edward:: "I do not wish to fall back on this all the time. I would like to try one more time without it if possible."

Groo: "I agree, I am hopeful she will be less fearful having been able to eat some."

Edward:: "I only pray she will."

Groo: "You and I as well," I say seriously. "I love her. I love her more than my own breath," I say softly. "I gave her these," I say absently, stroking softly over the collar on her neck, then my hand trails down to the ring on her hand.

Edward:: I smile taking her hand in mine looking at the ring. "You are quite a gentleman" I say softly "She is all I have." I say softly

Groo: I blush slightly. "Thank you." I touch his arm softly, "You have me as well. We will be a family," I say. "I will marry her, you will be the closest thing I have ever had to a father, as you are to her."

Edward:: I look down with a sad face. "Thank you."

Groo: "Does this not please you?" I ask him gently.

Edward:: "It does. More than you will ever know." I say softly "I just..."I look up at him "The things he did to her...she will never be a normal healthy girl."

Groo: "I know," I say, holding up my hands to show him the bandages. "I found out by accident, but now I know."

Edward:: I look at him confused "You already knew...you were witness to its final stages."

Groo: I nod. "I did, but I discovered more information and my soul aches for her. I will do whatever is necessary to assist her to heal. She is strong, my friend, I believe it will take time, but she will recover somewhat."

Julie: I heard voices then Groo said he found out more I started to panic. "You promised" I said as I looked to him.

Groo: I look down at her and touch her face softly. "I will never betray you, my sweet Julie. I was simply explaining that I know you are strong," I say, slightly confused. I did not reveal any of what I discovered.

Edward:: I look at the two confused. "What is it Julie?" I asked "Is there something I should know?"

Groo: I shake my head and look at him. "It was merely a discussion we were having earlier when she accepted my gift of the collar."

Edward:: I fear it is far more than that, however I do not wish to upset her. "Julie darling, please calm down. Would you like some more fruit?"

Julie: I look to Groo and he looks at me like he didn't tell Edward so I look back to Edward and simply nod weakly. "I can try."

Groo: I smile and kiss her softly. "I am confident you will succeed," I say gently.

Edward:: I hold the cantaloupe to her lips. "Just a small bite."

Julie: "O..Ok" I whisper as I take a small bite. I chew slowly but find it hard to swallow.

Groo: I stroke her back softly. "You can do it," I say gently. "Take strength in our love."

Edward:: "Julie, you can do this." I said softly "I believe in you."

Julie: I force myself to swallow it down.

Groo: I smile at her. "I knew you would succeed. I am proud of you. Another small bite?" I ask.

Julie: I shake my head "too much...too much."

Groo: I nod and kiss her gently. "It is all right, my love."

Edward:: I lean in and whisper "Just a couple more bites, for me, then I have something for you." She looks at me confused but reluctantly nods.

Julie: He places some more fruit against my lips and I slowly take a bite as he strokes my face. I manage to swallow it down.

Groo: I am pleasantly surprised as she takes another small bite, forcing herself to chew and swallow. "Good girl," I say softly.

Edward:: "I am handing the plate over to Groo, take three more bites, I will be back." I say as I kiss her head then leave the room.

Groo: I nod at him as he hands me the plate. "Only three more, my sweet." I pick up a grape and place it against her lips.

Julie: I take the grape in and chew it before swallowing it.

Groo: "Good!" I say happily. I place a strawberry gently between my teeth and lean over to her, offering it from my own lips.

Julie: I look at him confused but amused. I take the bite meeting his lips with mine.

Groo: I smile and kiss her as she takes the berry from me. "I love you," I say softly.

Julie: I reach over and take the cantaloupe into my shaking hand. I so wanted to try one for myself.

Groo: I hold her wrist in attempt to steady her hand, allowing her to move as she pleases.

Julie: "Let me please" I say softly

Groo: I nod and place my hand on her leg, my thumb smoothing across it in a comforting motion.

Julie: I nervously place the cantaloupe to my lips and bite in not realizing I was tearing into it like it was going to be taken away from me. It was like another side of me had slipped out.

Groo: I do not speak, but continue to caress her, encouraging her to continue as she may. "Slowly, no one will stop you, but you must eat slowly, do not choke," I say gently.

Julie: I swallow not hearing his words I grab the rest shoving it in.

Groo: I take her hands, holding them gently but firmly. "Julie, you must slow. There is plenty of food, I promise you."

Julie: I look at him shamed "Sorry."

Groo: I release her hands. "Do not be sorry, only do not be rushed," I say, handing her another piece of fruit.

Julie: I take it and slowly chew.

Groo: "Good, there is more than enough for you to eat your fill," I say gently, sliding the plate closer to her.

Julie: I push it away. "Full"

Groo: I touch her cheek softly. "You may continue, my love," I say, not wanting her to stop.

Edward:: I walk back in "Did she take three bites?" I ask as I hold a box full of items

Groo: I look up at Mr. Lawrence. "She did," I say proudly.

Julie: "I'm full." I say softly as I look up to Edward "What is it?"

Edward:: I look to her "Why don't you open it." I say softly as I set the box in front of her.

Groo: I look up at Mr. Lawrence, I believe I know what the gift is. "Please, open it, my love."

Julie: "I weakly reach over and open the box revealing a camera and lenses along with a small book of filters. "t...this is too much."

Groo: I shake my head and look down at her. "There is nothing in this world that is too much for you, my sweet Julie."

Edward:: "What he said." I whispered as I kissed her cheek. "see, so now you must eat so you can use these items."

Julie: I nodded "I'm trying, I promise."

Groo: I chuckle at Mr. Lawrence's attempt at bribery. "We know you are, my love."

Edward:: "Yes, I know you are trying darling. I still worry that you need to see a Doctor." I admit

Julie: I panic "You won't let them call Miranda and Craig will you?"

Groo: I shake my head, "No, my sweet Julie. There are many hospitals around, there is no need to go where he works."

Julie: "He works through most of the local ones. Don't let them call them please."

Edward:: "I will do everything in my power to not allow that."

Groo: I touch her cheek softly. "No one will contact them, I promise. You do not even have the same last name, there is nothing that will link you to them, my sweet Julie."

Edward:: "We will see what happens just rest." I look to Groo for permission to assist her in relaxing.

Groo: I nod and stand with her, still cradling her in my arms. "I believe rest would be good for us all," I say.

Edward:: I reach over to the table and prepare another injection, once ready I gently slide it in her vein and press the medicine through.

Groo: I lay her gently on the bed and turn to him. "Thank you for your assistance," I say sincerely, offering him my hand.

Edward:: I shake his hand as I watch her drift off. "This was the last of my supplies, she does need to visit a doctor."

Groo: I nod sadly at him. "I shall take her tomorrow, you are welcome to come as well, if you desire."

Edward:: "I would very much like that."

Groo: "I will notify you when she awakens. Should I attempt to get her to eat in the morning as well? Or merely take her?" I ask, thankful for his advice.

Edward:: "I honestly don't know. Use your own discretion."

Groo: I nod. "I will see how the morning goes. She was going to go shopping with Faith tomorrow, I guess that will have to be postponed."

Edward:: "Perhaps Faith, with some encouragement, could sit with her at the hospital."

Groo: I smile. "I believe she would. I have a feeling they have become friends, I am pleased."

Edward:: "That is quite pleasing."

Groo: "She appears to be a fine young woman," I say confidently. "I believe it was her discussion with Julie that allowed her to accept the collar from me."

Edward:: "Really?" I ask softly "That is interesting."

Groo: I nod. "She appeared confused and scared, but after speaking with Faith, she seemed more clear, if still a bit frightened. "

Edward:: "I suppose that makes sense."

Groo: I nod. "I should be with her," I say. "Thank you again for your help."

Edward:: I pat his shoulder "Yes, you should." I say softly "Call me if you need anything."

Groo: "I will, I assure you," I say, opening the bedroom door for him.

Edward:: I pat his shoulder again and head out.

Groo: I shut the door behind him and walk to the bed, I gently remove her jeans and shirt so she will be more comfortable and disrobe down to my boxers then slide into the bed beside her, curling up beside her as I allow myself to sleep as well. Tomorrow will be a difficult day.