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Julie: "I will tell you anything, but you are being mean." I say honestly
Groo "How am I being mean?" I ask. "I am truly baffled by what is going on."
Julie: "You won't hear me out, you tell me to get to it, you snap at me, you break cell phones..."
Groo "You are asking questions you already know the answers to. I do not understand what this accomplishes other than to make me feel foolish."
Julie: "Trying to get you to see what I see." I say "Its all I know how to do" I say honestly
Groo "Why do you not just tell me what you see?" I ask.
Julie: "I did and you don't see it, so I am trying to explain."
Groo "You stated we are together all the time. It is simply not true. If we are together more often than you would like, we can speak on this."
Julie: "I can only name 3 times that we havent been together since i got here....Thats my point."
Groo I look down. "You do not desire to be with me?" I ask softly.
Julie: "I do want to be with you, but not 24 hours a day."
Groo "I am confused. You asked me not to leave you alone, and now you ask me to leave you alone. I do not understand what you want and need."
Julie: "I don't know...I just...I don't want you to leave me forever, but I do enjoy some time alone." I say softly
Groo "I can understand this. I truly can. I just feel as if my feelings have been considered unimportant of late," I say softly, ashamed to admit it
Julie: "what do you mean?" i ask nervous. "I didn't intend to..." I now felt like utter shit.
Groo I swallow against the lump in my throat. "I am trying so hard to do what is right for you, what you need, what you desire. I feel as if I have failed you, I do not deserve your trust."
Julie: I move closer to him, kneeling on the bed in front of him. "I wouldn't dream of trusting anyone else...." I say "You deserve it, we just...we need to talk, about each other's needs and so on."
Groo I nod, feeling as if I can say nothing more, I do not know how to express myself. "Please, let us speak about this."
Julie: "I think you should start..." I say softly
Groo I look at you. "I honestly do not know where to start. Could you please begin?"
Julie: "I am not important right now...Please, just tell me, from your heart how you feel."
Groo I look down. "I do not know how."
Julie: I reach up and touch your cheek. "How do you feel I have neglected you?" I ask
Groo "I did not say you have neglected me, my love," I say softly.
Julie: "Oh dear, I mean how i have neglected your feelings."
Groo I shrug gently. "I only mean that I have needs as well. I love you, I want to do everything I can for you. I feel as if I am unimportant at times compared to the other things that have happened in your life and the things that you need and want now." I cover my eyes with my hand, leaning against it. I do not wish to cry.
Julie: I move your hand and make you look at me. "You know you can tell me this when it happens...we won't work if you don't talk to me."
Groo I attempt to blink the tears from my eyes, taking a deep, shuddering breath. "I do not wish to make your life more difficult," I explain softly.
Julie: "You do that by not talking to me....do you think the fighting is easy for me?" I ask. I know it isn't for you."
Groo I shake my head. "I do not know. It seems as if you simply desired to leave instead of stay to try work through it. It hurt me that you were so angry that I wanted to assist you when I thought you were in trouble. It hurt me when you left, that you would rather be with anyone else but me. I did not know if you would return or if the last words I would ever say to you would be ones of frustration," I say, tears pouring down my face.
Julie: I look deep into your ocean blue eyes. "I couldn't sleep last night because I hurt you..because I ran from you. I told mom today that I had to come back because I had to stop running...I totally understand." I say softly "I didn't want to hurt you..I just needed time, time to realize I was being a bitch."
Groo "I could not sleep either," I admit. "Are you still angry with me?"
Julie: "I was never really angry" I admit. "I was more like scared, overwhelmed, lost, and confused." I look away trying to hide my own tears.
Groo I turn your face gently, looking into your eyes. "Tell me what you mean, please. I need to know."
Julie: "Its all moving so fast." I say softly "I met you two weeks ago, you have saved me, made love to me, fucked me, made me yours, gave me a ring, told me you want to one day marry me...its only been two weeks." I say scared he would be mad.
Groo I nod, looking down. "I believe I understand. I will accept your collar back if you wish," I whisper.
Julie: My eyes widen "God no!" I sat clinging to the collar on my neck. "I...I just want you to know how I feel."
Groo I look up, confused. "What do you desire from me at this point then? If things are moving too quickly for you, I can be patient. I just do not understand what you need."
Julie: "We need to talk more, less sex....and just get to know each other..."
Groo I nod. "That is acceptable to me," I say softly.
Julie: "Or more talk, same amount of sex..." I say with a smile.
Groo I chuckle and look up at you. "I am willing to be what it is that you need, no matter how much or how little it may be."
Julie: I smile "C..can I have some days where I just have time by myself?" I ask "I love spending time with you, I just feel so smothered when its all the time."
Groo "You can have whatever you like," I say softly. "I do not wish to smother you."
Julie: "You don't hate me? I can handle whatever if you promise you don't hate me....please promise me..." I say in a panicked manner cause i fear you hate me.
Groo I take your hands in mine. "How could I ever hate you? Even if you threw the collar and ring back in my face and told me you never wanted to see me again, I still could not hate you."
Julie: "I wouldn't do that...ever" I whisper as I remain still, my hands in yours.
Groo I shake my head. "Please, Julie, do not promise me this," I say softly. I am afraid she is only saying it out of fear.
Julie: "I mean it Groo..You think I am going to leave one day, I am not. I only want you, I only want to spend the rest of my life with you...." i look into your eyes. "You are forever my Master."
Groo I look into your eyes, searching for any deception there. I nod after a moment, "And you are forever my girl. Can I ask you a question?"
Julie: "You can ask me anything." I say honestly
Groo "If you are certain you want this, can you explain why you are afraid things are moving too quickly?"
Julie: "I don't know." I whisper "I just freaked out." I say "I am so used to things going wrong..."
Groo "Was it more of a reflex than what you truly feel? Or are the feelings still there?" I ask gently.
Julie: I don't know how to explain, all I know how to do is show you. I lean in and kiss you deeply, all my feelings pouring into this one kiss, tears falling as well.
Groo I wrap my arms around you, pulling you closely to me as I return your passionate kiss. "You know I love you, correct?" I ask softly, once we pull slightly away.
Julie: "Yes, I know this...I never doubted your love for me...more like waiting for the other shoe to fall."
Groo "I know how you feel."
Julie: "I'm so sorry" I whisper
Groo "Sorry for what?" I ask, honestly not knowing what you mean.
Julie: "for the last 24 hours."
Groo "We have both made mistakes, my sweet Julie."
Julie: "I...I'm still yours?" I ask nervously
Groo "Oh yes, you are mine, always. I do not say such things flipantly."
Julie: "I love you so much..." I say as tears fall.
Groo "I love you as well, so much it frightens me."
Julie: "Why does it scare you?" I ask
Groo I look down. "Because I fear you may not love me the same," I say honestly.
Julie: "What do you mean?" I ask
Groo "Only that I am afraid that you may discover someone else that..." I shake my head and trail off.
Julie: "You are the only man for me..and my love for Faith..nothing compared to you and I." i say honestly "I want to have your children, spend the rest of my life with you, spend all your money" the last was a joke and included a smile.
Groo I smile and chuckle. "I do not feel threatened by Faith, I believe you need each other. Do you truly wish to have my children?" I ask in wonder. I know it is what I want, but I did not know you wanted it as well.
Julie: "Yes..." I say softly "I am thinking atleast 10" I joke.
Groo I laugh, kissing you again. "You are a brave woman, then."
Julie: "Why?" I ask softly
Groo "If you desire to give life to ten offspring, that makes you very brave indeed," I say with a smile.
Julie: "Why would that make me brave?"
Groo "I understand it is quite painfull," I say with a shrug. "I was only teasing, I am sorry if I have offended you, I am not a lifegiver."
Julie: "You didn't offend me." I say softly "I just didn't understand."
Groo "I thought you were teasing me about the number of children you desired, I was only trying to tease you as well. I would love to have many offspring with you," I say softly, kissing you tenderly.
Julie: "I was teasing, I was trying to find out how it made me brave." I said honestly as I kiss you back.
Groo "My love, everything about you is brave," I say, pulling you onto my lap. "I love you so much."
Julie: "W..Will you do me a favor then?" I ask softly
Groo "You may ask," I say gently.
Julie: "Two things..." I say softly "Will you open that?" I ask as I point to the box "And wait right here..I have something else." I say and quickly run from the room to get the other box.
Groo I look puzzled as you leave the room, but open the box you gave me. I smile and chuckle as I see it is a new cellular phone, a much nicer on than I had before.
Julie: I come back in the room and hand you another box. "This is also for you, and the cell...all you have to do is put your old sim card in and it will work."
Groo "Julie, you did not have to do this," I say softly. "I was being unreasonable when I broke it. I will need to check the training room to see if my SIM card is intact," I say with a slight blush.
Julie: "Let me go look...just open your other gift..It goes with my seconf request." I say and leave the room again going to get your sim card.
Groo I smile and open the box, smiling as my fingertips trail over the soft leather cuffs.
Julie: I return with the shattered pieces of his phone and the sim card, I take his new phone and put it in like the lady told me and all should work now.
Groo I smile as you sets my phone up, leaning over to kiss you. "Thank you. What is your second request?"
Julie: I kiss you back and hand you the phone. I take a deep breath as you ask that. "Punish me for doubting you." I whisper
Groo I shudder softly. I am uncertain how to go about punishing you properly.
Julie: I kiss you and look into your eyes. "I trust you...I understand I deserve this, and I am willing to accept anything. I am yours."
Groo I touch your face softly. "I do not wish to punish you for your feelings. I will punish you, however, for not staying to discuss it," I say honestly.
Julie: I nod "Yes Master" I say my eyes locked on yours.
Groo I place my new phone on the table beside the bed, placing the boxes with it as well. "Is there anything else we should discuss before your punishment?"
Julie: "I will discuss anything you want Master." I say honestly "I don't know what you want to know."
Groo I shake my head. "I just wanted to ensure there was nothing more on your mind, my love."
Julie: I nod "No Master, there is nothing more." I look away from you. I know I deserve this, I still don't have to like it though.
Groo I nod. "Very well," I say softly. "Please remove your clothing," I say, taking the leather cuffs from the box.
Julie: "Yes Master" I say as I take my clothes off and place them in the laundry basket, then return to you.
Groo I pull you to me and kiss you gently. "Please understand that I only do this because I love you," I say, fastening the cuffs around your wrists.
Julie: "I know Master...and I trust you to teach me how to properly obey you." I say honestly.
Groo "Very good." I lay you down on the bed, face up, locking the cuffs together around a portion of the headboard.
Julie: I don't say another word, I just lay here waiting for you to do what you wish.
Groo I remove my shirt and straddle your hips, my hands caressing your arms, sides, and stomach, but avoiding your breasts.
Julie: I am shocked by this...this doesn't seem like punishment. I just watch.
Groo I lean over, kissing each side of your neck and collar bones, my hands trailing over your strong arms, lightly massaging the muscles there.
Julie: I have to ask...and this may get me in trouble. "Master..." I whisper as I feel myself warming to this.
Groo I continue to kiss over your body, my hands sliding over your smooth skin, but still avoiding your breasts. "Yes Julie?"
Julie: "Umm...Not that I am complaining, this feels amazing...but isn't this supposed to be punishment?"
Groo "Who said it is not?" I ask simply, continuing my actions, sliding down your body a bit, traling light kisses over your abdomen.
Julie: "But ummm...I like this." I say softly "I didn't think Punishment was to be enjoyable."
Groo "Julie, you stated you would accept what I choose to give you, did you not?"
Julie: "I did...I just don't want to get into trouble for enjoying your touch...well more trouble...cause, this feels amazing."
Groo I shake my head and smile. "I desire you to enjoy it," I say honestly.
Julie: "B...But you were going to punish me." I say softly
Groo "Julie, be silent. I will punish you in the way I see fit," I say gently, my hands moving down to massage your thighs, my mouth sucking and licking gently over your navel.
Julie: "B...But...." I got a look and understood. "Shutting up now."
Groo I chuckle and move lower, my mouth placing gentle kisses on your smooth hips, my hands moving beneath you, softly squeezing your bottom.
Julie: even a simple touch sets me on fire. I let out a small moan as you continue to touch....even if you are avoiding vital areas.
Groo I caress your bottom before moving a bit lower, sliding my hands up over your smooth, flat stomach. I can feel your flesh tremble beneath my fingers and I smile. I move my mouth lower, kissing over your thighs, nipping gently at the sensitive skin.
Julie: My eyes close and I let out a moan, I fan feel myself getting wet as you move your lips over me. "Master" I moan out to you.
Groo "Mmm," I moan softly in reply as I nudge your legs open with my chin, sliding my tongue along your inner thighs, almost up to your soft curls. My hands move you, my fingertips only centimeters away from your pert breasts.
Julie: I whimper in need. "Master" I moan "Please"
Groo I nip softly at your thigh before looking up at you. "Please what?"
Julie: "Please don't tease" I begged. I knew full well that you wouldn't give into me, but I still had to beg.
Groo "But you're so beautiful when you plead," I say softly, continuing my slow torment.
Julie: I moan "Yes Master" I don't continue, I just writhe beneath your touch, wishing I could press up against you.
Groo I move my mouth down further, kissing and licking every inch of your legs, moving down to kiss the tip of each toe before working my way back up. My hands massage your strong thighs, my thumbs moving achingly close to your center, but not touching.
Julie: I could almost feel tears as I attempted to writhe just so, so you would have to touch me. I let out a loud whimper, one that was almost pleading for you to give in and take me.
Groo I chuckle and kiss back up your thighs, sliding my tongue along the crease between your leg and your wet lips.
Julie: I can't control the convulsion that causes. I let out a yell as I buck my hips to you.
Groo "Tsk tsk, Julie," I say with a chuckle, kissing up over your triangle of curls, before sitting up on my knees between your legs. I move my hands to my pants, unfastening the button, my eyes locked on yours.
Julie: Oh thank god....you are finally going to take me. "Sorry Master....I just want to feel you."
Groo I slide my zipper down slowly, "I know, my girl," I say, sliding my pants down over my hips. I sit on my knees and lick my lips, sliding one hand between my boxers and my skin.
Julie: "Master..." I moan
Groo I curl my hand around my shaft, still shielded from your sight by the thin fabric of my boxers. "Yes, my sweet Julie?"
Julie: "May I please feel you inside me?"
Groo I grin but do not answer. I use my other hand to push my boxers down, letting you see me.
Julie: My eyes widen as I see you fully erect.
Groo I groan softly as I begin to stroke my hand lightly up an down my shaft, my thumb brushing over my slick head.
Julie: "Master" I whisper "please." I moan out
Groo "Please what? I am letting you see me," I say with a grin.
Julie: "I want you inside me." I plead
Groo "Hmm, I thought you might enjoy watching," I tease, my hand moving a bit faster.
Julie: Ok, so I am getting how this is punishment now.
Groo "Do you like what you see, my love?" I ask with a grin.
Julie: "Yes Master." I say honestly "I want it inside me.”
Groo "Hmm, well that depends on what you have learned," I tease.
Julie: "What is this supposed to teach me...." I ask curious.
Groo "How much you want me, how much you want this, that I am worth staying and fighting for," I explain, tugging my phallus more quickly.
Julie: "I came back didn't I? You are worth fighting for Master. Not because I love the way you feel inside me, but because I love you."
Groo "Sarcasm will not get you what you want," I tease, moving my other hand to stroke over your thighs.
Julie: I whimper "That wasn't sarcasm." I plead
Groo I grin and slide my fingertips over your wet lips, but not moving them inside you. "How much do you want me?" I ask.
Julie: "I want you more than my next breath Master."
Groo "As long as you keep breathing," I say softly, my fingers sliding between your lips, easily finding your throbbing clit.
Julie: I moan loudly as I buck against your hand. "Master." I moan loudly.
Groo I move closer to you, rubbing my head againdt your clit insted of my fingers. "I love you," I say softly.
Julie: I moan loudly again. "I love you too Master."
Groo "You promise not to run when things become difficult?" I ask, sliding my head down a bit, almost to your tight opening.
Julie: "I promise to try not to run." I say honestly.
Groo I move back, taking my shaft into my hand again, stroking it.
Julie: "MASTER" I cry out almost a loud beg.
Groo "Yes Julie?" I ask, moving my hand slowly up and down my shaft, my other hand cupping my testicles.
Julie: "Please stop" I plead. "You don't want me making a promise I might break.
Groo "You are correct, but I do not believe you will break a promise you make to me," I say softly.
Julie: "It is not a promise I can make right now Master..Please."
Groo "Thank you," I say, pressing my body to yours as I kiss you deeply.
Julie: I kiss you back deeply. "I love you Master, So much."
Groo "I love you as well," I say with a smile.
Julie: "Please Master." I beg once more.
Groo "Please what, Julie?" I ask, moving my hips against you, my shaft sliding between your thighs but not into you.
Julie: "will you put your hard cock inside me..." I say a bit demanding.
Groo I cannot help but groan at that. "I will, but you must do something for me," I say.
Julie: Oh God! Will you take me already. "Master" I whine.
Groo "You must do something for me," I repeat.
Julie: "What?" I ask desperately
Groo "Do not cum until I give you permission. Can you do this?"
Julie: My eyes shoot wide open. "H..How do I do this? I can't control it."
Groo I grin. "You can control it, you will simply have to concentrate."
Julie: "I want to get lost in you Master...Please.."
Groo "Have it your way," I say with a grin, pressing against her before moving away.
Julie: "MASTER" I beg.
Groo "You have my requirements, Julie," I say, sitting on my knees again, stroking my hand slowly over my shaft, now slicked with your juices.
Julie: tears fall. "Fine...then please untie me."
Groo I shake my head. "I will not."
Julie: "I need a cold shower if you aren't going to let me get lost in you."
Groo "You stated you would accept the punishment I chose for you," I remind you.
Julie: "And you said not to cum, thats the only way I know how not to."
Groo I sigh softly, releasing my shaft. "It is not the only way," I say, turning to sit on the edge of the bed, my back to you.
Julie: "I don't know another way...You inside me...it does things to me. Makes me forget everything around us, the world fades away and all that matters is what is in this room....I don't know how to stop the feelings that brings."
Groo "I meant by not making love to you it will prevent your orgasm," I say softly.
Julie: "What do you want from me?" I ask the mood now ruined and tears falling.
Groo "At this moment, I do not want anything," I say softly, moving to unlock your hands. I really must speak to someone, every time I attempt to punish you, I end up ruining it and we fight.
Julie: "Don't do that" i say trying to stop you from unlocking me. "Leave me this way."
Groo I frown. "Why?"
Julie: "Just leave me here" I say hiding my tears.
Groo "I will not, I have promised you this before," I say.
Julie: "and I am asking you to leave me." I repeat.
Groo "You are not in control here, Julie," I say.
Julie: "You are right, i am not...do with me as you wish." I say defeated.
Groo I lean over and unlock the cuffs, sitting on the edge of the bed. "I am sorry, I obviously do not know how to punish you properly," I say softly, looking at the key in my hand.
Julie: "I think you do..." I say as I look away. "You suceeded."
Groo I scoff. "I succeeded in making you angry."
Julie: "not Angry..." I whisper "Worried."
Groo I look over at you. "Worried about what?"
Julie: "That I am going to fuck up the best thing that has ever happened to me." To put it bluntly
Groo "How could you?" I ask honestly.
Julie: "Have you not been paying attention to the Julie Groo show lately? All we have done is fight. I can't even make love to you because you don't want me to cum and I don't know how not to with you inside me, and oh yeah, all we do is fight." I say rolling off the bed and heading to the bathroom. I needed a cold shower.
Groo "And here you go, running again instead of talking about this," I say in frustration.
Julie: "Not running...but if you don't want me to cum, need a cold shower."
Groo "I honestly do not care at this point, I am no longer in the mood. Do as you wish."
Julie: "Groo..please what do you want from me." I ask softly
Groo "I want you to at least TRY something that I ask of you instead of giving me reasons why you will not succeed," I say loudly.
Julie: "I would think you would be happy that I can't not cum." I say honestly
Groo "You know that is not my point. I ask you to tell me you will not run and you tell me you cannot. I ask you not to orgasm, you tell me you cannot. I feel you do not respect me."
Julie: "If I didn't respect you I would lie, say I could, then do it anyway.. You want me to be honest then I am punished for being honest."
Groo "You are not being punished, Julie. Not now." Perhaps never again, I think to myself.
Julie: "I didn't mean that kind of punishment Groo. I am saying I am fucking damned if I do and fucking damned if I don't. I can't fucking win with you."
Groo "And I cannot fucking win with you! You ask me to punish you, I do it as best I know how and all I succeed in doing is causing a fight between us."
Julie: "Because you get mad when I am honest with you."
Groo "I do not get mad because you are honest with me, I become frustrated because I cannot do anything right."
Julie: "Because I tell you I can't do something doesn't mean you failed."
Groo "It does if you are unwilling to even try," I say softly, pulling my pants back up.
Julie: "I just know how I feel when you just touch me..magnify that by 30....that and I don't want to get my ass beat for not succeeding." did I just say that.
Groo I look up at you, frowning. "Is that what you think will happen? That I will beat you if you are not perfect?"
Julie: "No" I say lying. Well not totally.."Just when I fail you."
Groo "You are lying," I say. "I cannot do this. I am sorry. I should have understood more fully what you need from me."
Julie: "W..What are you saying?" I ask softly
Groo I look down at my hands. "I do not feel I am capable of being what you need. I do not feel I can sufficiently and healthily control you. If you believe I would beat you for ANY reason, it only proves my feelings to be true." I say softly. I hate myself right now, I would rather rip my heart from my chest than hurt you.
Julie: I feel the air leave my body, my heart trying to tear its way out of my chest as you tell me this. "Y...You don't want me?" I ask almost unbelieving and catatonic.
Groo I shake my head. "I want you, I NEED you, Julie. However, it does not mean I am good for you. I have obviously done something that would imply to you that I could harm you. I refuse to make someone I love feel that way, even if it feels as if I am dying from it."
Julie: "You don't though" I whisper. "I don't think you will hurt me."I pull some clothes on and I reach up removing the collar and then take off the ring. "If this is what you want...then it is what you want." I say and run from the room sobbing. Leaving the collar and ring in his hands.
Groo I cannot even comprehend what just occured. I look into my hands and do not believe what I see. What has just happened? What have I done? I do not deserve to even live.