Comments | charmedcreek: A fear that has overwhelmed me this past week...

charmedcreek

A fear that has overwhelmed me this past week...

Dec 01, 2005 21:25

What if I died and no one even noticed? I am so wrapped up in my school work, preparing to student teach, preparing to take my certification exams, work, and nothing else that I doubt anyone would notice. I have put friendships and important relationships on the back burner for a career. Is that too selfish? At time I think no way. But as of right ( Read more... )

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zoisitedevalois December 2 2005, 03:47:54 UTC

Babydoll, that's not something to joke about...

I just got a call from one of the girls in my department at work... A kid we worked with died today... He went to lunch, and didn't come back... an hour after he should have been back, they sent his supervisor looking for him 9the supervisor's name is Josh) -- a few hours later, Josh came back, shaken up, said that Jason had passed away, and Josh said that he himself couldn't handle the situation, and wouldn't be at work for the next week or so...

Honey, it doesn't matter how small of a role you play in someone's life -- if you're gone, they'll notice... You might not even think it, but they'll notice....

charmedcreek December 2 2005, 18:47:57 UTC

These feelings are normally not like me, but it's been what's shadowing over me. What scares me even more is the fact like I'm being prepared to die.

fallenangel8553 December 2 2005, 06:01:31 UTC

i'd notice

charmedcreek December 2 2005, 18:48:11 UTC

Thanx, JoJo

shellbell2002 December 2 2005, 10:03:04 UTC

Awww Melissa....dont feel selfish your going to finish school early.....thats something to be proud of
And I am positive that people would notice if you were here...
Your friends love you and you know that
Cheer up babe!

charmedcreek December 2 2005, 18:49:23 UTC

I am proud of myself for finishing school early, but is it worth it? Is it worth not being there for some people? I can never feel like I am doing enough...

shellbell2002 December 2 2005, 22:45:47 UTC

Yes it is worth it with economy these days Mel, you will have a career and shit before me....
You are here for poeple all the time maybe not when you want to or feel you should be but you are doing enough
Yeah your friends miss you, and wish you were around more
See I went though something like this before I dropped lots of friends because of Adam, and look where I am now, I have nothing going for me... no education, not very many friends and No job.....Call me A.S.A.P

theunderboss86 December 3 2005, 03:09:03 UTC

Melissa, If something like this happened to any one of my friends even if I have known them for a short time I would be shaken up...Not to mention if this happened to the "Love of my life" (reference to Lauren), I would be sooooooooooo devastated I would not know what to do.

like it has been said b4, That aint somethan to throw around as a j/k. If anyone I know said there was something life threatening wrong with them, I shift my life into crisi mode out of love and caring for that person...I better not have to do that for you any time soon.