The life of Kim Jaejoong: His Smile, My life
Title: The life of Kim Jaejoong (One-shots all the way)
Author: Joongieh
Genre: Angst, Fluff, Romance, Crack (All after my mood)
Warnings: Watch out for wrong spellings and tourist Yoochun.
Disclaimer: I don't own DBSK, nor do I own YunJae/JaeHo.
Summary: A series of shots from Jaejoong's different lives.
Chapter one!
Title: His smile, my life
Pairing: YunJae
Summary: Jaejoong had one picture, only one picture was left for him after his friend was pushed out in the villages river and drowned.
Jaejoong woke up and felt the sunshine flow through his window. The sun was burning his skin, he slowly opened his eyes, he turned over and his eyes sat on a certain picture, the picture of a smiling boy.
This was the latest picture taken of the boy who's name never left Jaejoong head, Jung Yunho.
The name who never left anyone's head.
The boy who was always so cheerful and confident in everything, the boy who gave him strenght, the boy who's eyes showed a endless ocean of love and cinfidence.
Jaejoong remembered the night Yunho had been dragged from his so roughly, too soon for his own liking. The boy who had been showed off the bridge, and Jaejoong remembered it like it was yesterday, it was a sight he would never forget, it was burned into his memory.
Flashback
“Jaejoongie~ We need to hurry up, if not we'll be late for soccer practice!” A boy yelled out from downstairs.
“Yunho ah, take a chill pill, I'm down in a few, just need to put on my shorts!” Jaejoong yelled back to Yunho. Jaejoong found his bright blue shorts and threw them on, then ran down the stairs.
“God Jaejoong, you're so slow!” Yunho said and smiled his ever so bright smile.
“I'm not slow, you're just in a hurry, it's not like Changmin will get angry at us for being late for once” Jaejoong said. Yunho dragged him out the door, Jaejoong barley got the time to yell to his mother that he was going out with Yunho.
The road was empty for cars, only people fixing their garden was to see, they lived in a little village where everybody knew each other, maybe around 100 people lived here.
“Good afternoon boys, where are you going at this hour?” Our ever so great neighbor Mrs. Shim asked.
“We're going to soccer practice!” Yunho smiled his cheerful smile once again. I only smiled, I would never have such a beautiful smile as him.
“Omo! Greet my grandson! And tell that blockhead to visit me, it's been two days since he last came! Omo, Changminnie is so bad” She rambled on.
“We'll be sure to do that” I said and Yunho dragged me with him.
We neared the river, and to our shitty luck, Heechul and his damn gang were waiting.
“Omo, lovely timing! Yunho and his little boyfriend, Jaejoongie~” Heechul smiled.
“Cut the crap Chul, and he's not my boyfriend” Yunho said in a stern, serious voice.
“Aigooo~ Is the all-smiles-Jung angry?” Heechul faked a shocked expression.
Yunho took my arm and tried to walk past them, but miss luck was not with us today. Kangin dragged me away from Yunho and held me in a strong grip.
Shindong held Yunho, while Heechul laughed.
“You guys look lovely in your shorts, soccer practice huh? It's that Shim kid who is the leader huh?” Heechul said.
“Cut the small talk and slap us over the face, then let us go” Yunho said and Heechul was shocked, was the great Jung talking back at him?
“What are my ears hearing? Shindong, throw him in the river, let's just pray that he can swim” Heechul laughed.
I felt the panic arise, throw Yunho in the river? That's when I snapped to reality, Yunho couldn't swim.
“No! Fuck! Heechul! Yunho can't swim!” I yelled and tried to get out of Kangin's grip.
Shindong walked slowly over to the edge, Yunho was struggling, Yunho was strong, but Shindong was a whole lot stronger than him. He was about to throw Yunho over the edge when Siwon and Hankyung came walking.
“Woah! Let him down from there!” Siwon yelled and Hankyung screamed something in Chinese.
I didn't realize when the grip on me had weakened, until I was on the ground. I looked up and what I saw was horrible. Shindong had let Yunho down, but was unlucky with where he placed him.
The next thing we heard was the sound of someone screaming, then a huge splash, then silence.
The silence was threatening, until I heard footsteps, then Heechul screaming and someone jumping into the water.
I slowly stood up and looked over the edge, what I saw was a blur.
Yunho struggling to keep his head over water, and Siwon trying to grasp him. I yelled, even if I didn't know what I yelled, I just yelled something. I think I yelled “Yunho! Use your hands and feet!” Or “Don't drown!” Something along those lines. Then it was silence again, I couldn't see Yunho anywhere, I only saw Siwon looking around himself, trying to catch a glimps of Yunho, but nothing, no one was there. It was like he just disappeared, one moment he was there, the next he wasn't.
The only explanation was that the water had swallowed him whole, even if I wouldn't want to believe it.
The next few weeks there were cops all around the little village, searching for the poor boy who had been dragged away from us all too soon. They mostly asked Heechul questions of WHY, why did he pick on me and Yunho, no one knew, even Heechul himself didn't know, I myself thought it was jealousy, jealousy could drive one crazy. They also asked Siwon where in the water he lost him, I also got to know that Siwon had managed to grab Yunho's hand, but Yunho was dragged out of his grip, the waves was probably too strong.
They asked me questions, I couldn't even remember what they asked, I don't even think I answered.
I only asked them where my Yunnie was.
I was a complete mess.
End of Flashback.
I put the picture back on the bedside table. If I only could smile so brightly and brighten up peoples days just with one smile, just like he did.
I stood up and put on my bright blue shorts, today was soccer practice again. We had had a year free from the practice because of Yunho's sudden death, he was after all our best player.
I wished so hard that I could hear his voice yell for me to hurry up, and he would drag me out of the house. I walked down the stairs and saw Yunho standing there by the door smiling his ever so bright smile. Then the next second he wasn't there, actually, it was only my mind playing ticks on me again.
I said to my mom that I was going to practice and she wished me a good day and told me to not think so much, she's such a great mother.
I walked down the road, and just like before, Mrs Shim stopped by the porch and smiled.
“Good day Jaejoong, beautiful day, right?” She asked.
“Yes, it is” I smiled to her.
“Greet my dear blockhead, will you?” and I nodded. She caught my saddened expression, she just smiled.
“Jaejoong ah, I've also lost someone dear to me, just remember that Yunho will always be with you in your heart” She said and walked over to me and hugged me tightly.
She had always been like my own grandmother, if only Changmin knew how lucky he was to have her.
“Miracles always happen, that's what Yunho told me” She said and I nodded my head and she patted my head and sent my on my way.
I knew I had to walk over the bridge again, it was the only way to get there. As I neared the bridge, I felt my expression change to a rather sad one.
I stood by the edge of the bridge and looked down in the water, today the water was calm.
I sat on the edge with my feet dangling over the edge.
I looked up at the sky, it was clear blue.
“It's only been a year, yet it seems like yesterday” I said to myself.
I had probably been sitting there for 30 minutes because the next thing I knew was that someone stood beside me.
I turned and saw Yunho's mother standing there.
“Ohh, Mrs Jung” I said and she hit my shoulder.
“How many times must I yell you to call me Mom?!” She yelled and I stood back on the ground and laughed.
“I was joking mom” I said. Then silence came, a strangling silence fell over us.
“Jaejoong ah, you're going to practice right?” I only nodded and she nodded back.
“Please take Yunho with you there, he was always so excited to go there and meet his friends” She said and pulled a photo out of her pocket, the same photo I had on my bedside, just in a smaller version. She put it in my hand and held my hands. “You were his best friend, don't feel guilty of what happened. Yunho was never one to learn to swim, and even if he's not here physically, mentally he's always here, he may have left us too soon, but he's made those damned kids learn their lesson, that's who my son is! He's so strong!” She's always been so proud of him, I guess she had a very good reason to be so proud, he's had a imprint on everyone in the village.
“Jaejoong, there was never a day passing without him pouting and saying 'Mooom, I wanna go over to Jaejoongie, please let me go out! I'll work extra hard in the restaurant another time'” She smiled, what she said only made my tears run down my cheeks and she noticed and brushed them away.
“I'm sorry” I said, she only shook her head.
“I'm happy you were his friend, but I shouldn't stand here and let you be late for practice! Remember, if Yunho saw you cry he would feel bad! Don't you dare let my son feel bad!” She warned me and I let a laugh escape my lips. She smiled and patted my shoulder and slapped my butt, to make me go.
“Thanks Mom! I'll see you later” I said and walked past the bridge. Not knowing that this day, was going to change my life.
At practice:
“Hankyung, pass the ball to Hyukjae!” Changmin was yelling at the top of his lungs. The team didn't have their usual cheerfulness, everyone knew why, even if the truth was hard to accept, but he was gone and we couldn't do anything about it.
After playing for the past hour everyone was all sweaty and Changmin was fuming with anger, no one seemed to do anything right.
Hyukjae fell on his butt when he was going to kick the ball into the net.
“Ohh god! I'm so frustrated! If only Yunho was here!” Changmin yelled it out, I could see the sad expression everyone got and Heechul's guilty expression.
Changmin seemed to notice it too, and said that we could take a break.
Siwon, Hankyung and I sat down on the ground together, and Heechul also sat with us.
“Don't be sad Heechul, Changmin is only furious” Siwon said.
“It's my fault” Heechul said and let his head fall, Hankyung was wast to put a hand around his shoulder.
“He lost his footing” I said, we all had forgiven Heechul in the end. We had seen how sad he was, Heechul have been going to the river everyday since the accident and tried to find Yunho. It was hard to watch him from distance.
“You say that every time, we all know I forced him over the edge, even if I knew he couldn't swim” Heechul began to cry, I couldn't bare to watch him cry his heart out, so I took out the photo and held it in front of him.
“Yunho's still with us, still smiling his cheerful smile” And Heechul smiled.
“That's the most beautiful picture I've ever seen in my life, such a fabulous person he was” Heechul said and I put the picture back in my pocket.
“It's always about that Yunho kid! Get it over with, we're tired of always hearing the same shit!” I could hear Key yelling. We looked up the see him standing and yelling at Changmin.
“Kibum! Yunho was out best player! Of course we miss him!” Changmin yelled back.
“Get over him for gods sake! He's gone! Passed away! Never coming back! Get it in your fucking heads!” When Key yelled that, Heechul stood up and punched him in the face.
“Pretty boys don't open their mouth!” He said and stalked off over to the benches and sat down, Hankyung was fast by his side.
Taemin helped Key up from the ground.
“What Key meant was that we should play with out hearts, Yunho would not be proud to see is now” Taemin said and Key clutched his face.
“Let's play, with our hearts this time. Let's make Yunho proud” Changmin said and all the boys smiled and agreed. The rest of practice was nice, except from Key's sulky mood over his pretty face being punched.
After practice:
“Hey, Jae and Siwon! Can we walk together home?” Changsun and Minho asked us, what a unusual combo.
I smiled and nodded.
“Today's practice went pretty good in the end” Changsun said and Siwon and him got into a long chat about soccer and how to get a sexy body, if I caught it right.
Minho walked beside me. “Jaejoong, do you think Yunho might be alive?” That's the first time someone has asked be that. I looked at him with a amused expression.
“What would make you ask that? I saw him vanish under water with my own eyes” I said and Minho just shook his head.
“I guess you're right, but miracles always happen Jae” He said and looked at the sky, which was becoming dark by now.
We neared the river and Changsun and Minho said goodbye, they lived on this side of the river.
Siwon looked at me, and saw me looking straight forward.
A guy was running in a weird manner on the bridge, jumping and taking pictures.
“Is he a tourist?” Siwon asked.
“I believe he is” Jaejoong said and looked at the weird guy.
They decided to just walk on, but was stopped by the weird guy.
“Are you Kim Jaejoong? One of you? Please be him, I've been looking for him for like 3 hours now” The guy said.
“That would be me” I said and the guy looked me up and down. Is he checking me out?
“Nice, like I was told. Well, I'm Yoochun, Park Yoochun” The guy said and introduced himself, then pressed an envelope into my arms.
“Take this, I need to run, Junsu is probably mad by now, ohh god, look at the time, I need to fly!” And the guy vanished in the dark. I sat on the edge of the bridge and Siwon sat by my side.
On the front of the envelope it was written with e neat writing 'For Kim JJ'.
“Open it” Siwon told me and I did what was told.
I pulled out a letter, and started reading.
'Hello Kim Jaejoong.
We will inform you that we want Kim Heechul to pay the hospital bills for....'
The letter was torn off there.
We looked at it for some minutes before Siwon turned to look at me.
“This smells fishy, who is he going to pay for?” Siwon asked and I just shook my head.
“More people who try to fish some money from the Jungs?” I said and put the letter in my pocket.
We turned around and let our feet dangle from the edge.
It felt like Yunho was there, it was just the feeling, we always used to do this, just sitting on the edge, taunting Mr. Death. Just sitting here with Siwon felt weird, this was a activity me and Yunho used to do. Siwon and I only became close after he tried to save Yunho, I was ever so grateful for what he did, he really showed how much he cared. I looked down in the water and something white caught my eyes.
“Look” I said and pointed at the floating object. Siwon looked at it too.
“It seems like a bottle?” He said and I got up. I walked down the grass path down to the edge of the water. Never had I been this close to Yunho's death place, but my curiosity was killing me.
“Don't fall now JJ” Siwon said and was clear to jump if I fell into the water.
“Don't worry, I can swim” I said and fished after the bottle. I couldn't reach it, so I put my foot in the water to step a bit forward. My foot hit the ground, the water was up to my knee. I reached forward, it was suffocating, the water was like death it self. It was cold as ice, it felt like it was trying to make me lose my footing. I could feel the stream trying to grab my foot, but I was determined to get the bottle, nothing was going to make me die here, even if I had wanted to die here.
So suddenly I lost my footing and fell with my face first into the cold water. Siwon was about to jump into the water when I suddenly was pulled up, like someone was dragging me to the bottle.
But yet, there was no one there, just the water of death taunting to kill me, but yet, only playing it's crazy mind games on me. I grabbed the bottle and crawled up from the water.
“You okay JJ?!” Siwon asked, worried.
“I'm okay” I said and opened the bottle. I took out the white sheet and looked at it.
The edges was wet and some of the letters were just inc scattered over the sheet.
But some of the letters was still readable. This was the only thing I got to read.
'It's been a while, please find this, someone' Then I turned it around and saw some silly drawings of monsters and cars.
“What is written on it?” Siwon yelled. I looked up and saw Changmin, the weird guy Yoochun, Heechul, Junsu and Hankyung standing there.
“Nearly all the inc is gone, but I can still read a few things. 'It's been a while, please find this, someone' It's weird, isn't it?” I asked and they looked at me.
I walked up the path and over to them and showed it to them.
“It's weird.. but.. something is even more weird” Changmin said and took something out of his backpack.
He took out a letter, a apply letter for the soccer club.
“This is Yunho's apply letter where he asked me to let him and Jae join us” Changmin said and I looked at the letter. Some really silly drawing where drawn on it, it was a horse and a house.
“Did he always draw things on everything?” Junsu asked and I laughed.
“All the birthday letters I got from him was drawn a princess standing alone while two princes were playing tag with each other on” And they all laughed.
“We should get going, let's look into this letter another time, come on Jae” They said but I just shook my head.
“It's been a year, I wanna stay here with him” I said and first they looked weirdly at me but then they nodded when they understood what I meant.
They waved and walked down the road, I walked back to the edge and sat there, let my feet dangle over the edge, looking down into the water.
“Yunho ah” I smiled and looked at the stars.
“If only I could receive one more of your silly drawings, and see your smile, at least, one again” I sighed and took out the picture and looked at it.
Jaejoong wondered if he should just give up his life, Yunho was gone, was Jaejoong being selfish for living when Yunho wasn't?
Next day:
I woke up too early today, it was like someone was yelling at me telling me to wake up. I turned to look at the framed picture on my bedside table.
“This would be the 366 day without you, do I really need to go on without you?” I asked, waiting for a answer I knew I would never receive.
My mom knocked my my door suddenly. “Jae, it's time to wake up, the food is on the table already” Was she really up this early? I shook my head and stood up and put on a pair of black pants, a white tank top and a blue cardigan that I've got from Yunho's mother, it had been Yunho's.
I took one last glance at the picture and smiled back at him, before running down the stairs only to be greeted by my mother with a cake in her hands.
“Happy birthday Jaejoongie!” She smiled and I blew out the candles. I've already reached the holy age of 17, wooh, I'm getting old.
“The Jungs are here too, let's go eat in the garden” She said and I followed.
Outside in the garden were Mrs and Mr Jung seated, my father, Changmin and his grandmother was also there. They all greeted me and I just smiled.
They gave me presents, Changmin gave me a new pair of soccer shoes, his grandmother gave me a flower bucket (I love flowers), The Mr. Jung gave me money, oh holy rich Jung family! While Mrs. Jung gave me a framed photo, which was turned backwards. She only said “Turn it around when you're by the river” and I nodded.
My mother and Father had decided that it was time to get me a car, like out of the blue, I now had a brand new black Audi R8.
We ate, after a good 2 hours they left, and I was left in the garden all alone. I looked at the picture, and decided to go to the river, well, drive to the river.
I had taken the drivers license a few months back and now I finally had a car. It only took me 2 minutes to get to the river now. I parked the car by the side and walked to sit on the edge again, today, the water was exactly like when Yunho had drowned. It was rough, even if the weather was nice, this was most certainly the river of death.
I decided to turn the picture around, so I opened the frame and looked at my new picture.
It was a picture of me and Yunho in our soccer uniforms, taken 3 years ago when we joined the team. I smiled at the photo and framed it again, only this time, the right way.
I looked up from the picture when I heard someone yell.
“Donghae, stop dragging me, let go of my fucking hand!” The person yelled at his friend.
“God, stop being immature! If I haven't saved you back then you would have been dead fish!” The guy, Donghae, said.
I was shocked. The same height, the same brown hair, the same clothe style, the same voice and the same face. The person suddenly stopped walking and looked at me with wide eyes.
Donghae looked at his friend, then at me.
I slowly got down from the edge of the bridge and just stood there, until the guy started running towards me, smiling and laughing like crazy hyena. I was in shock when I was pulled into a bone crushing bear hug.
“Jaejoongie! I can't believe it!” I was in a daze, he was here, right in front of me.
I reached out my hand and touched his face, then I slapped him over the face and he looked hurt at me.
“What was that for?!” He yelled.
“I'm dreaming, right? You drowned! You fucking drowned in the river! You're dead! I don't want to imagine you coming back once again! It hurts! It fucking hurts! If you're yet another imagination, I want you to leave!” I yelled and crouched down on the ground.
I didn't want to imagine him anymore, in his cardigan, while shirt, black pants and blue converse shoes. He was so real every time, yet, the next second, he was gone, like he never was there.
And I knew that he was gone, never coming back, he had fucking drowned in the river, and I had seen it!
“It's not a imagination Jae, I'm real! I'm Jung Yunho!” He said and crouched down beside me, he took my hands. How I missed those hands.
I dared to look up, I looked into his almond shaped, light brown eyes.
“H-How?” I asked, it's silly, I could have asked him something else, but I wanted to know how! How could he be alive after drowning?
“I only got under water, the stream took me down the river, I needed to breath and used my arms and feet like I remembered you told me to, the next thing I knew was that Donghae here pulled me out of the water a little down the way, I caught a cold and broke my foot in the process. I was put in the hospital in Seoul, I stayed there for a while before Donghae here decided to bring me back home” He said. The next thing I knew was that I was bawling in his arms like baby, he was just hugging me.
“How could you not call me? Or call your parents?” I asked. And he just shook his head.
“I couldn't remember their or your number, you know how I am, I don't really use my phone, when I wanna ask something I just go to the person personally” He said. Then he turned to look at Donghae, but Donghae was gone.
“That idiot” he said and shook his head. He helped me stand.
“Omo, Joong! You've grown!” He said and I just hit him in the shoulder. “Yah! Don't tease, we all know that you're tallest, even if I think Changmin has reached your height” I teased.
“What? That fucker! Yah, I'm going to kill him” Yunho said and was about to march off, but I stopped him.
“Yah, I wanna tell you, don't be mad at Heechul”
“How can I not be? He was responsible for the damages done on me, yet he didn't pay” This confused me.
“Pay? What?”
“I sent him a letter where I stated that he was responsible to pay for my damages, but Donghae ended up paying” Yunho said.
“I don't think he has received the letter, Heechul is very sorry, he have been searching for you by the river everyday, he has been walking on the edge down there, he even jumped into the water a few times like mad man searching for you” I said and Yunho's eyes softened.
“He has? Well, I can't stay mad at him for long, you know how I am” Yunho said and I smiled and drew him in for another hug.
“How come I don't recognize my Joongie being this cuddly with me?” He said and I only hugged him tighter. “I haven't seen you in 366 days Yun, of course I want to hug you and keep you close to me” I said and he smiled his bright smile. I melted at this, his smile, my obsession.
We decided that we should probably go meet his parents, since he was back to stay.
We wanted to shock them a bit, so I hid behind the door when Yunho rang the door bell.
When the door opened, Mr. Jung had a shocked expression on his face, and we could hear Mrs. Jung asking who was on the door.
“S-Son?” Mr. Jung was in disbelieve and Mrs. Jung came running like a lightening and had jumped on Yunho and they both fell down the steps. When that happened, I couldn't keep standing there, so I began laughing and his father asked me when Yunho came back.
“He came back today, with his friend” was my answer. Yunho had then told what had happened and his mother was constantly crying and stating “My poor baby” all the time.
After a well 5 hours time, it was already afternoon, they had finally let us leave the house. We also visited my parents, it turns out my mother had already met Yunho earlier when he and Donghae had came there. So we decided to surprise the soccer team. They had a secret practice this day, I knew. But since it was my birthday, they decided that they didn't need me there.
I think we held hands all the way, well, we weren't together, but we hadn't seen each other in two years, what did you expect?
At the soccer practice:
I walked onto the soccer pitch and they had all stared at me like I was some kind of ghost, maybe because of my huge smile, Yunho had gone hiding behind some bushes.
“Why are you here today JJ?” Taemin had asked.
“I didn't feel like celebrating my birthday alone” I said and they all had nodded.
“Well, since you're here, let's play” Changmin stated.
I had looked at Changmin a good 5 minutes, and Changmin had looked at me.
“What is it?” He suddenly asked.
“You're taller than...” I said and he stared at me.
“YAH! HE'S NOT!” And Yunho was out of his hiding place with grass and leaves covering him from head to toe.
They had stared at him for the longest time, before Heechul went out crying.
“Yunho! I didn't mean it! I was just so jealous! Please don't hate me! I'll give you money! I'll give you whatever you want” and Heechul was hooked to Yunho's foot.
Then the whole soccer team was all over him, and that tourist Yoochun also, for a weird reason.
And then they were all sprawled out on the ground, everyone on top of Yunho. And for a weird reason, I was sure I saw tourist Yoochun trying to kiss Yunho but Yunho kept showing him away.
The rest of the day was a chaos, everyone wanted to talk to him, wanted to know what had happened. Then we all had to accept that he was back to stay, to stay here with us, even if we wanted it or not. Even if I think they all wanted him there.
Later at night:
We sat on the edge of the river, out feet dangling dangerously on the edge.
The water was taunting us, telling us that we were going to fall, but we both know that such a thing wouldn't happen. Not again, not now, not ever.
“I've missed you Jaejoong” Yunho said and looked at me.
“I've missed you too Yunho” I turned to look at him, his eyes full of love and burning with life, it was nearly scary to see his eyes again after such a long time. Then he sent me a smile that sent me flying on a wild tour, my heart beating loudly. Was it me, or was his teeth whiter than normal?
“Can I kiss you?” He asked. I was shocked, was I even allowed to kiss him? He was so perfect? If I kissed him, wouldn't that give him a flaw? But I couldn't stop myself.
“Yes” I said, so confident, yet, so unconfident.
He leaned over and pressed his lips to mine, that's when I knew what heaven was. It felt like I was swept off my feet.
The kiss was full of love and passion, and longing.
“I love you Jaejoongie” He said.
“I love you too Yunnie” I said and we kissed again, deeper this time.
What I didn't know was that I myself had died on the inside, and all that had happened was only a dream, a trick playing in my mind, a hallucination.
Yunho never came back, he drowned, there were never a kind person like Donghae who had saved him. It was my sick imagination, my sick self who couldn't accept that he was indeed gone, dragged away from us all too soon.
2 months later:
Sirens could be heard over the whole village, everyone knew what had happened, some more wounded that others.
“Don't cry Heechul ah, it was supposed to happen” Hankyung said and tried to assure Heechul that it was alright.
“It's not right, he was supposed to follow his dreams of becoming one of Korea's best soccer players!” Heechul cried.
Silence took over the group of friends as they watched the police car drive away.
“He wasn't supposed to become crazy” Key said.
“He wasn't supposed to lose his best friend and future lover either Key” Changmin said.
Yes, dear reader, you guessed right, Kim Jaejoong was officially crazy, he had created a living image of his own life with Yunho, but the image had left when he got to know that his friends body was found, such a long time after the accident. Jaejoongs mind had been destroyed, he began building walls in his mind, creating a world where Yunho came back, but they all knew that Yunho wouldn't come back, he was gone, gone forever. He was only a boy in a picture, showing his bright smile.
“Do you think Jaejoongie will pass away?” Junsu asked, this caused Heechul to let a sob slip past his lips.
“Don't think about it, remember, they're always with us, in our hearts” Changmin said and smiled. They turned around and walked away from the bridge, left their past behind and started a new future, without the two boys.
“Jaejoongie~ You finally came!” A boy clad in white said to the approaching figure, named Jaejoong.
“Of course Yunnie” Jaejoong said and kissed the taller boy on the cheek.
“It took you 5 years to realize that the world down there was nothing for you, your still slow Jae” Yunho whined.
“Maybe you're just in a hurry? It's not like Changmin would be angry at us for being late for heaven” Jaejoong said and Yunho just Jaejoong into heaven, their new future awaiting them.
As of right now, I can't say anything
The miracle of you- it all seems like a fantasy
The last image of you seems to be locked only in my memories
I wonder if you are watching me from somewhere
Even if I regret, it's too late- I can't see you anymore
The tears of the shadows of my memories are watching over that place
A/N: Written for my dear friends, written by my deep heart and mind. Hope you liked it <3