i seriously don't have time for this shit any more god damn

 Today when I got home from work I found my moms car in my driveway. When I walked in my little brother was the first to gretty me saying "Hay sista!" then quickly went to correct himself to the usual, "Mel mel!" Then got up and hugged me.

This is very much out of the ordiary with my brother. Since he is autistic he usually like to be let alone and ( Read more... )

The friends I've lost made me appreciate the friends that I have that were worth sticking with.
yep
theres nothing better than talking shit about a girl you hate with a good friend
nothin.

stupid bitches EVERYWHERE!

p.s. johns grumpy from 2 days with no ciggies

i'm proud of him 
even tho i know its gonna be A LONG week lol

I don't know if it was society, with all the overplayed drama of the mentality of men as players, jerks, heartless and whores, or being raised with my feminist pessimistic grandmother or my mother who brought home loser, after loser, after loser.
The fact that I dated idiot after idiot i'm sure didn't help. Especially when the most influencial ( Read more... )

John picked me up straight after work so I could go register my beauty class. After hanging out in chico for a little while we went back to his house to watch some tv and to allow him time to take a shower.  
After he got out i proceded to scratch/message his back *it was sore* and fart on his knee and tickle him in that crese under his butt :D
Then ( Read more... )

Today was a surprising amount of fun. I woke up with a call from work asking me where I was. I had looked at the wrong scedual the night before and thought I closed. I actually had to be there at eight. I showed up a little before 9 ( Read more... )

I almost forgot, I went to my beauty class yesturday to pick up a piece of paper i need for registration,
not only is my teacher an old gay man
but the class is pretty full of gay boys
and one
looked EXACTLY
like an Abacrombie and Finch Model
Seriously
I'm so excited I could shit

he's won me back ( Read more... )

After being out to 5 at a party john wasn't at, he picked me up and brought me home so he knew I got home okay.
He won my grandma over doing that.
Then at 12 yesturday morning john picked me up and we drove all the way to fort bragg.
it was the most beautiful drive i've ever seen
and the most fun i've ever had.
When we finally got back to the motel room ( Read more... )

i let him hug me last night.
He balled the entire time he was holding me
he's never held me so tight
and now I can't get the feelings of his arms around me out of my head

i'm still so confused