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~*~ Private//locked with Shinra's (the Al Bhed) technology ~*~
I realize I'm busy. But it feels as though there is a great disconnect between my father and myself. He's here, and I'm so thankful. But... is it my fault? It must be. I haven't spoken to him directly in a while. Yes, a bit of a gap is there. The anger he exhibited during that... whatever that was--that curse? that event? that illness?--was so uncharacteristic and frightening and I had to hurt my own father to keep him from hurting me... perhaps he's furious that I didn't try other methods.
I was... I was... scared.
I haven't been that frightened in so long. I don't think I've ever been that frightened. I've always had my Guardians and... the thought of him watching me from the Farplane.
I will keep smiling. I will continue to respect my father. I love him so much, and thank whomever here is responsible for giving him back to me. Perhaps it is natural for there to be a void. Look at Rikku and Uncle Cid, after all.
Sir Vash! Are you doing anything tomorrow night? I found this wonderful indoor pool, and would love to teach you how to swim!
It's so cold, like the foothills of Mt. Gagazet. We should go shopping for winter clothes, Lulu!
Mm, why is the network so down recently? Did something happen?
I realize I'm busy. But it feels as though there is a great disconnect between my father and myself. He's here, and I'm so thankful. But... is it my fault? It must be. I haven't spoken to him directly in a while. Yes, a bit of a gap is there. The anger he exhibited during that... whatever that was--that curse? that event? that illness?--was so uncharacteristic and frightening and I had to hurt my own father to keep him from hurting me... perhaps he's furious that I didn't try other methods.
I was... I was... scared.
I haven't been that frightened in so long. I don't think I've ever been that frightened. I've always had my Guardians and... the thought of him watching me from the Farplane.
I will keep smiling. I will continue to respect my father. I love him so much, and thank whomever here is responsible for giving him back to me. Perhaps it is natural for there to be a void. Look at Rikku and Uncle Cid, after all.
Sir Vash! Are you doing anything tomorrow night? I found this wonderful indoor pool, and would love to teach you how to swim!
It's so cold, like the foothills of Mt. Gagazet. We should go shopping for winter clothes, Lulu!
Mm, why is the network so down recently? Did something happen?