i miss how happy i was before i started getting involved with people again...
i think theres something to celibacy

i forgot what it was like to play like a kid ( Read more... )

how am i suppose to trust another person ever again ( Read more... )

why didn't someone tell the way to forget some one is not:
A) thru booze
B)sleeping with someone else
C) keeping your self so busy with school and such you can't think straigt

i'm so tired...so so tired

but i love my friends
thanks

i wish you didn't have the power to hurt me so much
i woke up feeling like my heart was hit by a truck...
and it wasn't the booze

its offical i'm failing life
oh, and let me add... fuck Oakland
what so great about fucking Oakland?

sooo... if ever i try to get involed with another boy again, please someone kick my ass
i always forget their not worth it
just girls... sluty, sluty, girls

its the only thing that could make me so sick all the time ( Read more... )

i just might get them tonight... enoff said

long live the days of absolute debauchery, many weeks is to long to go without it... at least certain types of wholehearted worship. the more i try to stay away from it, the more it perseus me silently...with out my knowing. a simple ride becomes a game of hide and seek. one drink leads to the next untill all my inhibitions and fears have ( Read more... )