( wings )

damn it, now i feel horrible. i know she wanted him there and i should have let him go, and if i'd known they'd all made plans i wouldn't have shown up at his house. she probably hates me and i think i deserve it for ruining the day. i had no idea they were doing anything, considering it is a monday. that whole school day thing. should have learned ( Read more... )

have all these weird emotions running around lately. we were looking through the album of my baby pictures and my mom said "look how young i was! and look at David!" and i almost started crying. why? i have NO idea. and Rob and I are going to lunch saturday and i have no idea what to expect or what we'll talk about or what we'll say... jumbled ( Read more... )

( quiz )

i feel bad that everyone feels bad and i don't feel bad. for once i'm happy and i'm letting myself be happy and then i randomly get upset with myself because everyone else is so upset but they don't tell me about it, they just write in LJ or i hear it from someone else. I don't really know who my friends are anymore and the ones that i think are my ( Read more... )

... and flushed. ::happy dance:: i'm such a dork.

MY KITTY CAME HOME! ::happysobbing:: i was SO scared he would never come home (STUPID FUCKING DOG) but he showed up last night at 10, around when I left Tim's house. (saying goodbye, he left this morning and i can't decide if now things will be normal or weird again).

( for those of you (everyone, basically) who don't know the story... )

( depressed blood pouring from me )

I've been hiding from reality so much lately. Had a good bitching session / talk with Kristin yesterday during the basketball session. It felt good to let out the tension but it didn't help much cause I didnt' resolve anything and it just kept letting me think. Then I went over to Nick's because I didn't want to go home and I just needed to be away ( Read more... )

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my heart has been beating really hard for the last few hours, like i've been perpetually nervous. well, first i watched tru calling and the girl had a baby, and the day she found out she was pregnant, her boyfriend was sent out to war, cause he was in the army. So I got to thinking what it would be like to find out that you're pregnant with someone ( Read more... )