Short of being hit by a bus in the next few hours, there's no way out of it

[chavtasticjinx]

I guess all I can hope is that the haters have enough class to keep their mouths shut, and the ones who used to (pretend to?) be my friend will have a shred of decency to not ridicule me openly.

Because I'm going to be terrible. Really terrible. I'm out of shape. I'm not pretty. Im not using "their music". And my costume is shitty.

I've gritted my

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[serpants_dream]

heehee u will be fine :)

[chavtasticjinx]

I LOVE LOVE LOVE that you say that, but...

This was the one thing I was ever legitimately good at. And I'm so out of practise. And I'm so intimidated by that little mean horrible section of the crowd....

Even if you don't think I'm awful, I'll know I used to be so much better.

And I have all these beautiful costumes, but nothing fits me anymore. Nothing. It's like all my neurotic landed in my tits and now everything makes me look the-bad-kind-of-slutty, WTF, boobs?

I'm just a huge ball of feeling horrible right now. :(

But I do truly appreciate your support. I'm so, so, so glad you'll be there. Even if I fall on my ass, i hope you can appreciate that I didn't chicken out. :}

[serpants_dream]

take the bras that don't fit & cut them apart & sew onto a choli top! heehee

[chavtasticjinx]

Oh sweetie... You have no idea... it's like a fucking cartoon up in this shit...

I used to be able to do that, but this time.... I took one of the old bras apart to rebuild and Bad Things Happened... And I can't find a choli that doesn't have an open back - bad things will happen if I try to dance without a really structured bra.

I know they really don't look as dangerous as I think they are, but I swear: without a ton of support I feel like I'd take out the whole front row with one shoulder shimmy...

;)