(i hope youre okay)

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i just got home from bethanys.. i had the best time of my life over there. laurel, beth, and cinda, you 3 are some of the most wonderful, fun, happy, beautiful people i have the pleasure of knowing.

well since somebody
(named ian)
doesnt know how to call steve or me back
we ended up just going to the movies
steve had free tickets to swim fan
hahahah
it was cheesy as fuck!
but i got to spend time with my pumpkin!
and everything is alright.

i think it makes my mom angry when i feel good, so she yells at me and insults me and then tries to fix everything by buying me stuff at the thrift store. ma, its not my fault you have back problems and youre depressed! and taking 09fd435g32 pills a day isnt even gonna do anything. you gotta figure out how to stop feeling bad in your head, by ( Read more... )

i get the dumbest fucking IMs ( Read more... )

its so hard
to stay at this level
of happiness

when everyone around me
feels like shit and
they have so many problems and
they want to drag me down too

i stay awake though because
unhappiness gets boring after a while
and i never want
things to be the way they used to

theres still so much more to be taken care of.

i did become enlightened today, riding home from the arizona state prison. outside it was hot and my legs kept sticking to the seat (leather of course!). but i had massive attack and instructions on shaving the inside of my skull, so things couldve been worse.

and just before i come toi suddenly had the desire to let the past week go, i dropped ( Read more... )

im really tired of:

- feeling like everything i do is wrong
- feeling like everything is supposed to be a joke
- feeling like im always the person who has stronger feelings
- complaining so much
- being on really good terms with people and then they start treating me like shit all of a sudden

dsgfdfhtfjkul,hjc,nm,.

my dad bought me a mustang! i
know that makes me sound spoiled
but it was only 800 dollars and
some guy owes my dad a favour, and hes
gonna give him a free body/paint job!

i just got home from school because i feel like shit.
my mum came and picked me up early
im gonna go rest now.

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