things are going alright i guess, but i havent been really talking to much of anyone i dont understand but if he thinks its for the best then it is for the best, its weird because before i used to care so much and now it seems like could care less about anything , it really sucks but i cant really do anything about it, things are going really slow ( Read more... )

I really need to pull myself together.  This is so hard for me and it makes it even harder when i know that i have absolutly no one here for me except about three people, and i dont know how to thank them, all i can say is that it means so much.  I know i get myself into messes and i also know i can get myself out.  I really miss him but it just ( Read more... )

I dont know what to write in this anymore.  Everything was fine well at least thats what i thought. but then all of a sudden it ended everything that i seriously ever cared about is gone i have nothing and i know that its my fault.  When this happeend the first time i swore to myself that i would never let it happen to me again, and here i am ( Read more... )

today was not so good of a day, turns out things are not good, damn this really sucks my parents are the biggest dicks in the world if only they knew what i do.its funnny to think about it though. i really doubt that im gonna go to the show on fri. ill try.hopefully. i took some pictures so here they are. . i like them but thats just me. . haha ( Read more... )

  Things are really strang right now, so much  stuff happened today it was crazy. . . haha fucking Amy had that woopie cushin at lunch and kept farting that was like the highlight of my day, then all of a sudden afterschool Micha was there aww that was the third time i cried for him this week, god this sux im all sad im gonna miss him so much he ( Read more... )

i finally know what addiction feels like. . .

Cellar Door (feed me to the forest) last show was amazing. . .

wellllllll i got a new layout. . which is exciting i suppose haha i needed a change so art can have the other one yesyes haha i love u art the shows tomorow wow crazy the weeks gone by so fast, joey got into west so hes not gonna be around any more which blows but its ok i suppose i mean hes getting someone yes! ahaha i saw andy today it was good i ( Read more... )

hmm. . . this might seem weird, but like haha i dont know if im gonna use murderme_beauty  anymore. . im debating i think its a lot easier to leave this one so i might im not sure, this week has been so crazy for me god i cant even describe it but yesyes so many decisions but yeah, theres a show on friday at the horr bar its cellar door (feed me to the forest) ( Read more... )

im really really sick i have tonsalitus it sux, im dieing oh well , anyways i got a new lj and its murderme_beauty  so add me cuz its friends only so yeah. . .i guess it sux right now but ill fix it later, everythings going crazy ahh  but thats my update for now!!! <33 kristaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa