But I'm not, because it's absolutely true. How fucked can one person possibly be? Though, I will say that if I had to pick one sorta recent thing to undo, it would be that. I find, oddly enough, that the one thing that was the hardest for me to ever say (Oh, do I remember) is still (unfortunately? annoyingly? stupidly?) true. But, I'll give it a ( Read more... )

Here enter the thoughts that I don't want to think again.

Ah, the wrenching feeling that is you. Enjoy it.

I'm also going to point out, in a depressing turn of events tonight, that I hate jumping onto people's old journal entries (even more than my own, I think). I'm only 19 and I have already forgotten so many things, things that made me so happy..and when I read about them I feel exhilarated. Inevitably I realize why those things don't happen anymore ( Read more... )

I'm moving. I'm moving. I'm moving. I'm moving.

There's some more that's attributing to my excitement, but I don't feel like looking like a total faggot right now. Maybe later.

I think this is my high after a horribly blah/depressing day.

Eevee and BK are snoring, jesus save me.

I'm suddenly extremely..I feel sorta sick. I think this will continue to happen on late nights like this when I'm left to my own devices. It is, of course, because I'm willfully letting myself slip. And I know that as time goes on, I'll just stop saving energy for the swim back. Eventually I'll be left to tread water..and it'll be my fault. But you ( Read more... )

The bad thing about squashing down anger is that it makes you look like you don't care. I'm not sure there is anyway I can get around looking like that, though ( Read more... )

What the fuck do I think I'm doing?

I'm excited about a painting I'm buying. I don't want a relationship. I feel kind of silly currently. I'm also feeling a bit detached and reclusive. It smells like salsa where I'm sitting..I think Bear has hidden a salsa bowl somewhere. I'm looking at houses. I've figured out my school situation. I don't think I'm going to go out tonight. I've been ( Read more... )

I actually made my next tattoo appointment :]

I'm tired of finding or reading things I shouldn't. I'm tired of the way it makes me feel. I'm tired of not knowing how to explain it. I wish not knowing what to say didn't always look like ignoring.