So I've been trying to figure out what to do with... *things* in general, and, after much, deliberation, confusion, frustration, indecision, tears, and lack of assuredness, I've decided to wait for those proverbial signs. Instead of "taking charge" I've decided to let myself be guided to what needs to/should happen. And no, I haven't turned into ( Read more... )

i broke down and cried in dave's supermarket today because they didn't have the kind of pizza i wanted.

WHAT is going on with me??

so, i'm back in cleveland and have been for a bit, and there's still a bunch of time to go. i also still don't exactly know what i'm doing next semester- although i know i'm doing something. i still don't exactly know what i want, and i'm hoping that that's something i'll be able to find sometime soon. because of that i think that i'm, at the ( Read more... )

i have never felt more confused, lost, or unsure in my entire life.

i don't know what i want, in any aspect of my life, really, and i don't know what to do with that.

i feel so directionless, and not in a good way.

i don't know what to do.

and in the meantime, i've become this completely blah, boring, apathetic person who i hate.

The Indians beat the Yankees.

American history is re-writing itself.

If you know what you want, then you go and you find it and you get it.
And you give and you take and you bid and you bargain or you live to regret it.

i love mandy patinkin

i am so not content right now.

i think i need to take a year off and go to sweden or something. just sit in the mountains and drink hot cocoa and read intellectual things and watch movies. and have a fire. and heavy sweaters.

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ahhhh ( Read more... )