just afraid to be alone, afraid to be hurt, and i'm afraid i don't know what to do about anything. i don't know why i'm afraid, the fact that i don't know what to do gives me less reason to think anything is going to get better. been hurt once before that was bad, but this is worse. I don't understand any of this, why? why can this happen two ( Read more... )

so today i got 8 teeth removed, it was weird cause i don't remember a damn thing, but right before the surgery i remember talking about how crespi and louisville and dating the wrong girl, good times, then the next 45 mins i was blank, i fealt a few good tugs in my mouth, guessing that was all my teeth coming out. It was kinda funny because i ( Read more... )

ok so the house is going on sale tuesday, no biggy i think, ryan is gone off to camp for 3 months, ok another biggu, confused on what i want big deal. I don't know what's really up, don't know if i am depressed or not. been having a lot of fun, but its all at a cost. I have to put alot aside because i try not to judge people, but its getting ( Read more... )

Well its 80 percent official. My family is moving to San Antonio, Texas. That means i'm remaining behind in souther california, but i'm starting to realize i am gonna miss my family, but not only that, i am gonna miss the friends that are leaving too. yeah i have a lot of close friends, and i will still have a family here (matt and paul) but ( Read more... )

I have on day left of school, two more finals, 3 classes till i am done. Graduation in three days, the last time i see many of these guys i went to school with. I don't know what to think right now. I'm scared, i'm nervous, and i am excited. Once highschool is over your more on your own than ever. I am going to miss a lot, even though i say i ( Read more... )

I am so warn out, and i really don't feel well, geeze i wonder why? hehe, andywho i must say Crespi's prom by far was the best of the three proms. See last nights prom would have been awesome under many different circumstances, but that doesn't matter. I saw my best friend joe last night, he's a good kid, trying to keep me inline. Just wish ( Read more... )

this whole entire weekend has been weird. I just think i have been bugging a lot. A lot of trust issues. I know after this weekend i have one really good friend to count on, thanks punk, but as you know i have alot of problems with other people and other things. I am just frustrated, really i am frustrated with myself, i just can't get ( Read more... )

Ok this is getting ridiculous, what do you people have against me. I am not butting into any of your lives, in fact i am just letting you do what you want to. Hopefully whatever that is that you are doing, is making you happy. Thats the least i can hope for is that you all are happy. All i ask is that you just accept things, everything is great ( Read more... )

OK prom was great, had a great date, hade my good friends there, got my freak on, had fun and everyone else had fun, not gonna forget that night ever. I will have to say some ppl looked damn good, punk. Well anywho it was a great time, and another prom coming up so looks like i get to have to memorable nights. Hope i can make your prom a blast

sometimes i just wanna get away, i just found out through steven there are jobs where half the year you can be traveling all over the world. That is probably what i want to do most is travel. I need to breakout and get into the world. I've been exposed to so much that i want to be exposed to more. I wanna feel like the world is out there to be ( Read more... )