i really am not sure why things suck so much right now.i have alot of thoughts and feelings building up and nothing seems to be right.me and zack can't see ach other yet again for reasons that are extremely gay and the more and more i think about it the more pissed off i get.i swear, i mean it's almost christmas and i can't be with the one that i ( Read more... )

isn't it strange how one minute someone is here with us,talking and thinking just like we do..breathing and laughing and enjoying life, but in the blink of an eye they can be gone?i mean, they were just there.right?you just saw them and they were fine.nothing was wrong.and now you can never talk to them again until you meet them at the end.that's ( Read more... )

10/13/06 ( Read more... )

so i guess i will start at the beginning.ok so in august me and zack had to break up because of his whole probation thing, right?well anyway he promised me on my birthday when i turned 17 that we could get back together and i flat out told him that if we didn't get back together i would never be able to talk to him again and everything and like i ( Read more... )

8/29/06 ( Read more... )

ok so my birthday is officially in 21 days and i'm rather excited although as of right now it doesn't sound to me like i have much to look forward to because i'm not sure what zack is wanting to do and personally i don't want to wait 800 years on him.i will if he wants to be with me, but if he doesn't then i would rather move on.i seriously just ( Read more... )

ok so this is gonna be a bitchy entry and if you decide to read it, then thanks for your time.so the whole me and zack thing happened.if you don't know about that, i'll sum it up and make a long story short.zack used his probation to break up with me and said that maybe when i turn 17 we can get back together but he's not sure.well i'm sorry but i' ( Read more... )

looking for a photo editing program.any thoughts?

so i'm going to state fair tommorow in springfield, and i'm driving and i'm gonna be honest.i'm scared to death.i hate driving on the interstate and all that shit and it's me and my friend lennea and she's like 15.so it will definately be interesting.she is looking up directions and evrything and i'm just really nervous.of course i will take ( Read more... )

ok, let's see here.right now, nothing is really new.it's about that time...school starting time.bleh!no one likes school, and if you do, i'm fully convinced you must not have a life.cheerleading is starting, and that just makes me exhausted.it's becoming to where it's gonna have to be my life.and yes, i mean my life.i have to keep my grades up, and ( Read more... )