Also, I need badly to mention that a life-long dream of mine was partially fulfilled, even if only in the beginning snatches, last night: I have found someone to teach me honky-tonk piano.
(You really should have been there. I sat there at the bench playing slip-note chords for hours and hours, and half of the time I was crying.)
i dreamed that i had something. i woke up and didn't have anything. i feel like if i can get used to that, i will be ready for whatever the wind throws my way.