hey all ( Read more... )

sorry i tottally forgot that i had this journal ok well last time i updated i was off to blackpool with G ( Read more... )

two weeks until i go away to blackpool i cant wait it also means i have 11 days off from work i get to chill out and not worry about anything ( Read more... )

Let the rain fall down
And wake my dreams
Let it wash away
My sanity
'Cause I wanna feel the thunder
I wanna scream
Let the rain fall down
I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean

I really like that part of the song i duno why i think i just relate to it alot and i understand it.

lifes been good things have settled down i started talking to someone about it ( Read more... )

i hate myself i hate myself so much i started cutting again in my head i want to cut chanks of me away the less there is of me the less there is to hate ihate me i hate me

im so tired lately. tired of my job tired of people lying to me tired of feeling unwanted and unloved. i know i use this place like a bitching zone but i need to vent my fears angers and anything else somewhere.

i miss mark i miss just hanging out with him i miss talking to him about everything that was happening in my life i miss gettin drunk in ( Read more... )

so as i was celbrating my cousins birth i also found out i had to mourn my friends lose ( Read more... )

quick post to say my cousin kathleen had her baby at 9.5am today a baby girl 7lbs 4oz she called her nazmia bianca nazmia is her turkish name bianca her scottish name so congrulations to kathleen both her nad baby are doing fine :D

ok so i havent updated for a hwile but i have been busy last saturday i got my tattoo its sooo cute :D it kinda hurt at first but was ok after that now just waiting fo r the scab to come off and it shuold be ok ( Read more... )

It's 1pm here and im still in my jamma's i dont wanna get dressed i dont want to do anything really ( Read more... )