One of MY favorite poems, that I think I've posted before, but I have to again now:

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The shape of abuse

is round with repetition.

What has been done to you

you will do.

And failing to see

you will be

not only two

faced at the gaming table

but blank

and vaguely absent

at the feast.

That's the first stanza anyway, by Susan Griffin.

So there were no complications in getting my wisdom teeth out, which is good, because I was one frightened little lady. But it's a drag to be watching the clock all the time, waiting for my next dose of advil and penicillin. The percocet, I have to say, is a little dissapointing. I was really looking forward to the whole 'legally obtained ( Read more... )

I have to get my wisdom teeth out in an hour! I am a scared girl. The good news is that I don't have to go to school today or tomorrow or the next day, even.

But I'm scared!

Okay, now it's June, and the weather is better and life doesn't seem so dreadful anymore. We had Clinton High's graduation yesterday, and things went well, I enjoyed myself. The music that was under my control went well, and I guess that's all I could hope for. The speeches were nice, all students, pretty much, and I teared up over a few of the ( Read more... )

This has got to be the longest, toughest, rainiest month that's ever happened to anyone. I am trying to stay the course and look forward to all the good things that are going to happen in June, like better weather and school ending and more free time, but it's getting tired, all this waiting and trudging through ( Read more... )

That was quite a weekend! The DancEnergy show went really well, we kicked Vogue's ass and we didn't do so bad on Piano Man or Smooth Criminal, either. Of course my mom had to hem my costumes the night before the recital, but that's what moms are for, right? ;) Jason said this was the best DancEnergy recital he's seen, and I bet he's right ( Read more... )

"Please give me some good advice in your next letter. I promise not to follow it."

-Edna St. Vincent Millay

1. One dance recital down (of 3).

2. My spring concert was a huge success!

3. School is over soon.  27 days or something like that.

4. Having less friends in New Mexico makes for a cheaper phone bill.

5. Jason made us a very nice dinner ( Read more... )

"A complete woman is probably not a very admirable creature. She is manipulative, uses other people to get her own way, and works within whatever system she is in ( Read more... )

It's hard to be strong! It's better than being a victim and getting dicked around, but still......it's really hard to try and take control of your life and make decisions where you have to give things up. I hate giving things up. It sucks. I especially hate when I put myself in a position where I can't say everything that I have on my mind to ( Read more... )

Tonight is hopefully a dinner date with Jaser and then we're going to Blake's concert (Met Winds, I presume, I didn't ask, I just know it's at Babson College...). But I think that besides that one outing, I would do well to use this weekend to do tons and tons of preparing for the next few weeks. This Wednesday is my spring concert at Clinton, ( Read more... )