I know this is going to sound retarded, but I went flying yesterday ( Read more... )

What is up with those cold nights and no one to call to keep you warm?

Or trying to figure out what everyone is doing but all you really want to know is what is he doing?
Yeah.

Basically, boys suck.

I'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me.

So true.
Even though the tears are drying up.

I'm excited and yet so scared to be moving on.
I hate smelling him.
And seeing him at school.
Everyhting about him used to make me so happy.
Now, it all just makes me want to punch something.
Even though I never do.

If I had a punching bag.
I'd use it.

So this is what it feels like to be the end.

And I hate it.
And the worst part is, I know what the future holds.

And it scares me...

I'll be the first to admit, I'm a hypocrite.
I just hate hearing it.
My head is spinning, but the worst part, is, it's spinning for someone else. I hate music, it makes me realize things words can show me. Why do people put themselves down. And what kind of girl am I? What am I classified as?
I don't know.

I never will.

I decided I hate work.
Why should I have a job when I'm not even making that much money?
It's stupid.
I hate humans too.
They over think too much.
And they ALWAYS seem to hurt you.
So, why should I like them?
Yeah, cuz they make my life what it is.
Sure, but I can do most of that, alone.
Even if it won't be that fun.

I shot a 63 in Golf.

I suck.

Better then Eric though.
HA.

Today was good besides that.
I got a few kisses, tons of hugs, and a ton of holding hands.
BI-Polar. YES.

Does it hurt like this everytime? I hope not. Cuz if it does then I don't want to love anyone. Ever. I hate how my heart is made up, while you keep changing yours. They must not be pure if you change them. Aye? I wish I could believe that. For one second. Saying your name is so perfect as I press my lips around it. Anyone elses just doesn't fit. I ( Read more... )

So, I'm talking to this one boy. Not serious, he's just going through what I am. So we can relate. I rub his back he hugs me. Ya know. So, anyways, we're going to start hanging out a lot more now, but I'm nervous cuz like, our exes dated. So, weird. But he's the sweetest thing. He's one of those people you see at the mall that ALWAYS says excuse me ( Read more... )

I torture myself ( Read more... )