I can feel it.. I understand what it was like for you..

[chemicalpicnic]

"everything is perfect now"

Despite my current financial woes, and a few little niggling worries, I feel.. wonderful.
It must be something in the air, maybe its the weather. I dont know.
But I feel fabulous.

I feel calm and collected. I feel organized.
And I am so very excited for Aidan to get back from Europe.
He gets back Saturday week. So 10 more days

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[secrets_n_lies]

woah thats no good

that's what happens to Mal with weed, which is why he avoids it like the plague.

very glad to hear you're happy in general though :D

[chemicalpicnic]

Yeah it was the most horrible experience Ive ever had.
Im frightened now that even if I have only a small amount (I had a bucket, not realising how strong this stuff was) that it wont matter and Ill still flip out, as if the flood gates have been opened and the quantity no longer matters, like its still going to happen anyway.

But yes! In general, things are pretty shiny!
Peachy! =D

[secrets_n_lies]

If you're paranoid about it happening, that might increase the chances of it happening.

If you want to keep smoking, i'd suggest not smoking buckets for the time being *hee hee*, just smoking small amounts slowly to biuld yourself up to the level of high you want. It's always so easy to go overboard with it and then it just hits you like WOAH.

but yeah, just keep a positive mind and dont be worried about it (if you can), i reckon your frame of mind has a lot to do with it all.

and always remember... you *will* come out of it, and you wont have to wait a huge amount of time to sober up.

this is how i get on acid (and thus wnhy i do not touch it any more). i fall into a horrible hell hole and cant get back out. I never have a nice happy trip, my trips are worse than a horror movie. only worse thing is, you know sometimes you're not going to straighten up for another 5 or 6 hours!!!

[secrets_n_lies]

^ oh that was me being stupid and not logging in *haha* ^