AWE Drabble #34:I Intend to Hold You For The Longest Time
#34:I Intend to Hold You For The Longest Time
Baekhyun/BaekYeol-centric
Continuity: After drabble #6
Baekhyun thought he and Chanyeol made a really good couple. They didn’t have a whole lot of disagreements, when they fought it was usually small stuff that was resolved quickly. They did have a very fast relationship though, and sometimes Baekhyun had to wonder if they had moved a little too fast. It was only two weeks after their first kiss that Baekhyun pinned Chanyeol to their shared bed and kissed him until they gasped for air and all Baekhyun could think about was how badly he wanted Chanyeol…
“Are you sure about this?” Chanyeol had gasped when Baekhyun handed him something he’d gotten from Lu Han, lubricant or something like that.
“Absolutely,” Baekhyun assured, kissing Chanyeol briefly. “I’ve never been more sure about anything.”
Chanyeol had grinned and gleefully knocked Baekhyun down on the bed, nuzzling his neck. “You’re amazing,” he whispered, and Baekhyun’s stomach swooped.
It was messy, because Baekhyun said that Sehun told him they needed to use a lot of whatever was that tube. The stuff then had gotten all over Chanyeol’s fingers and the bed.
“Sorry,” Chanyeol said mournfully, looking down at the mess. Baekhyun snorted and kissed his frown away.
“Just put it to good use,” he laughed as he laid back and opened his legs a little wider. Chanyeol had blushed furiously, but the embarrassment faded a few seconds later when Baekhyun was panting underneath him, grinding down on Chanyeol’s fingers.
Baekhyun wasn’t expecting Chanyeol to be so warm, and the heat actually seemed to soothe the ache of the stretch. Baekhyun kept his eyes shut the entire time, trying to remember how to breathe when it felt like his body was being filled with liquid fire from the inside out.
“Holy shit,” Baekhyun gasped after, when Chanyeol was resting his head on Baekhyun’s chest, trying to catch his breath. “Can we do that again, like, really soon?”
Chanyeol had smiled against Baekhyun’s chest and tapped his fingers against Baekhyun’s hip in time with his heartbeat. “Sure we can.”
It was after the second time they had sex, but before the sixth, Baekhyun can never remember when exactly it was that he kept his eyes open. He’d never done that before, opened his eyes in the middle of sex. He immediately wished he hadn’t, because he started to cry.
“What’s wrong?” Chanyeol stammered, trying to pull out. Baekhyun scrambled to stop him, locking his thighs around Chanyeol’s hips.
“I’m fine,” he sobbed. “Just…please don’t stop.”
Chanyeol listened, because he always did whatever Baekhyun wanted, even when he didn’t understand why Baekhyun wanted it. Baekhyun did his best to calm down, to make sure that Chanyeol knew he wasn’t hurt, he was enjoying this, how hot Chanyeol was inside of him and how amazing he felt, but the tears wouldn’t stop even after they had finished.
“What’s the matter baby?” Chanyeol asked as he held Baekhyun in his lap, stroking his fingers down Baekhyun’s spine. “You can tell me, you know.”
“I know…” Baekhyun almost snapped. “I know…just…” He looked up and blinked back tears. “Chanyeol, do you love me?”
Chanyeol gaped at him. “Of course I do! You have to know that I-”
“You love a lot of people, Chanyeol,” Baekhyun cut in. “Almost everyone in fact. So how do I fit in? Because earlier…you looked at me like…like I meant something really special to you and I don’t…” he broke off sobbing, but Chanyeol seemed to understand.
In a way, they were perfectly matched. Chanyeol was fire, and Baekhyun was light. Hell there couldn’t be a more perfect pair! Both fire and light were bright, warm and good, but the problem was Baekhyun often thought he was the opposite of light. He wished he could take his affinity and inject it into his veins, until he could light up a room the way Chanyeol did. Maybe that was why he enjoyed making love to Chanyeol so much, maybe he hoped the warmth would somehow stay with him and teach him how to hug Suho back, or walk arm in arm with Chen, or act like he wasn’t totally heartless.
Chanyeol had always said it wasn’t his fault, he didn’t have a nurturing upbringing and he didn’t know how to express his feelings or allow others to care for him. He shied away from hugs the same way Kai did, the difference being that Kai eventually opened up and Baekhyun was still closed off to almost everyone.
“I’m not special,” Baekhyun whimpered. “I’m so cold and…I don’t know why you want me.”
“You hush,” Chanyeol scolded, choking back tears of his own. “You are very special. Do you know how much I admire you? You’re amazing Baekhyun, anyone who has been through what you’ve been through deserves to be admired. You refused to let your town use you as a bargaining chip, you even helped the Guardians rescue you! You basically rescued yourself even! You’re strong and smart and brave and you’re very caring, stop shaking your head, you know it’s true. Remember all those nights you sat with me in the Healer’s rooms? Or when Tao would have nightmares and crawl into bed with you, and you’d hug him until he stopped crying? Remember when Lay got lost and you found him?”
Baekhyun sniffled. “Any decent human being would have done that stuff,” he protested.
“But you did it with love,” Chanyeol reminded him. He glanced down and laid his hand on Baekhyun’s chest, just over his heart. “You’re so warm, Baekhyun,” he murmured, looking back up with a dazzling smile. “Do you know what I feel under my hand?”
Baekhyun swallowed nervously. “My heart?”
“Yeah,” Chanyeol breathed. “And it’s just like mine. It’s got a whole lot of love in there, and a whole lot of caring and bravery and room for even more of all that. And to answer your earlier question, I do love a lot of people, but not the same way I love you.” He leaned back and looked Baekhyun over. “I look at you and I think that I could never make a fire hot enough to compare to how warm you are to me. Not just temperature wise, but in terms of how you treat me. You make me feel like I can never do anything wrong, like you’ll always be here and no matter what I do or say, you’ll never think it’s odd. You said that I looked at you specially, but you look at me that way too. When I see you, I feel like I need a second heart just hold all the love I have for you.”
Baekhyun was crying again, and Chanyeol wiped the tears away and held Baekhyun against his chest, tucking Baekhyun’s head under his chin. “Look at how well we fit together,” he murmured. “How could we be anything but perfect for each other? We may have different personalities, but we’ve always been there for each other and we’ve never done anything that the other couldn’t laugh about or forgive.”
Baekhyun sniffled and tried to calm himself. “So, you really love me then?” He asked timidly. “You’ll never get tired of me or want…someone else?”
Chanyeol pulled back and kissed Baekhyun’s forehead. “I love you so much that I’ll need a thousand lifetimes to show you all of it,” he promised.
Baekhyun managed to turn a sob into a laugh, and he pulled Chanyeol down for a kiss. “I…I love you too Chanyeol,” he stuttered. “I really do love you.”
Chanyeol began to cry and he hugged Baekhyun again, burying his face in Baekhyun’s shoulder. “That’s all I ever want from you,” he whispered. “I just want you to love me, and I just want to love you back.”
“So, just like this then?” Baekhyun asked as he stroked his fingers through Chanyeol’s hair.
Chanyeol giggled as he knocked Baekhyun backwards onto the bed, kissing him soundly. “Yes,” he said against Baekhyun’s smiling lips. “Just like this.”
(title from Billy Joel's song The Longest Time)
WE ALMOST WENT A WHOLE MONTH WITHOUT AN UPDATE HOLY COW ASDFGHJKL
Well here’s that BaekYeol I said I’d eventually write…almost porn. ALMOST BUT NOT AS MUCH AS KAI/CHEN SORRY! Just like last time feel free to comment here or on AFF, I'll try to respond this time ^^;;;;
Baekhyun/BaekYeol-centric
Continuity: After drabble #6
Baekhyun thought he and Chanyeol made a really good couple. They didn’t have a whole lot of disagreements, when they fought it was usually small stuff that was resolved quickly. They did have a very fast relationship though, and sometimes Baekhyun had to wonder if they had moved a little too fast. It was only two weeks after their first kiss that Baekhyun pinned Chanyeol to their shared bed and kissed him until they gasped for air and all Baekhyun could think about was how badly he wanted Chanyeol…
“Are you sure about this?” Chanyeol had gasped when Baekhyun handed him something he’d gotten from Lu Han, lubricant or something like that.
“Absolutely,” Baekhyun assured, kissing Chanyeol briefly. “I’ve never been more sure about anything.”
Chanyeol had grinned and gleefully knocked Baekhyun down on the bed, nuzzling his neck. “You’re amazing,” he whispered, and Baekhyun’s stomach swooped.
It was messy, because Baekhyun said that Sehun told him they needed to use a lot of whatever was that tube. The stuff then had gotten all over Chanyeol’s fingers and the bed.
“Sorry,” Chanyeol said mournfully, looking down at the mess. Baekhyun snorted and kissed his frown away.
“Just put it to good use,” he laughed as he laid back and opened his legs a little wider. Chanyeol had blushed furiously, but the embarrassment faded a few seconds later when Baekhyun was panting underneath him, grinding down on Chanyeol’s fingers.
Baekhyun wasn’t expecting Chanyeol to be so warm, and the heat actually seemed to soothe the ache of the stretch. Baekhyun kept his eyes shut the entire time, trying to remember how to breathe when it felt like his body was being filled with liquid fire from the inside out.
“Holy shit,” Baekhyun gasped after, when Chanyeol was resting his head on Baekhyun’s chest, trying to catch his breath. “Can we do that again, like, really soon?”
Chanyeol had smiled against Baekhyun’s chest and tapped his fingers against Baekhyun’s hip in time with his heartbeat. “Sure we can.”
It was after the second time they had sex, but before the sixth, Baekhyun can never remember when exactly it was that he kept his eyes open. He’d never done that before, opened his eyes in the middle of sex. He immediately wished he hadn’t, because he started to cry.
“What’s wrong?” Chanyeol stammered, trying to pull out. Baekhyun scrambled to stop him, locking his thighs around Chanyeol’s hips.
“I’m fine,” he sobbed. “Just…please don’t stop.”
Chanyeol listened, because he always did whatever Baekhyun wanted, even when he didn’t understand why Baekhyun wanted it. Baekhyun did his best to calm down, to make sure that Chanyeol knew he wasn’t hurt, he was enjoying this, how hot Chanyeol was inside of him and how amazing he felt, but the tears wouldn’t stop even after they had finished.
“What’s the matter baby?” Chanyeol asked as he held Baekhyun in his lap, stroking his fingers down Baekhyun’s spine. “You can tell me, you know.”
“I know…” Baekhyun almost snapped. “I know…just…” He looked up and blinked back tears. “Chanyeol, do you love me?”
Chanyeol gaped at him. “Of course I do! You have to know that I-”
“You love a lot of people, Chanyeol,” Baekhyun cut in. “Almost everyone in fact. So how do I fit in? Because earlier…you looked at me like…like I meant something really special to you and I don’t…” he broke off sobbing, but Chanyeol seemed to understand.
In a way, they were perfectly matched. Chanyeol was fire, and Baekhyun was light. Hell there couldn’t be a more perfect pair! Both fire and light were bright, warm and good, but the problem was Baekhyun often thought he was the opposite of light. He wished he could take his affinity and inject it into his veins, until he could light up a room the way Chanyeol did. Maybe that was why he enjoyed making love to Chanyeol so much, maybe he hoped the warmth would somehow stay with him and teach him how to hug Suho back, or walk arm in arm with Chen, or act like he wasn’t totally heartless.
Chanyeol had always said it wasn’t his fault, he didn’t have a nurturing upbringing and he didn’t know how to express his feelings or allow others to care for him. He shied away from hugs the same way Kai did, the difference being that Kai eventually opened up and Baekhyun was still closed off to almost everyone.
“I’m not special,” Baekhyun whimpered. “I’m so cold and…I don’t know why you want me.”
“You hush,” Chanyeol scolded, choking back tears of his own. “You are very special. Do you know how much I admire you? You’re amazing Baekhyun, anyone who has been through what you’ve been through deserves to be admired. You refused to let your town use you as a bargaining chip, you even helped the Guardians rescue you! You basically rescued yourself even! You’re strong and smart and brave and you’re very caring, stop shaking your head, you know it’s true. Remember all those nights you sat with me in the Healer’s rooms? Or when Tao would have nightmares and crawl into bed with you, and you’d hug him until he stopped crying? Remember when Lay got lost and you found him?”
Baekhyun sniffled. “Any decent human being would have done that stuff,” he protested.
“But you did it with love,” Chanyeol reminded him. He glanced down and laid his hand on Baekhyun’s chest, just over his heart. “You’re so warm, Baekhyun,” he murmured, looking back up with a dazzling smile. “Do you know what I feel under my hand?”
Baekhyun swallowed nervously. “My heart?”
“Yeah,” Chanyeol breathed. “And it’s just like mine. It’s got a whole lot of love in there, and a whole lot of caring and bravery and room for even more of all that. And to answer your earlier question, I do love a lot of people, but not the same way I love you.” He leaned back and looked Baekhyun over. “I look at you and I think that I could never make a fire hot enough to compare to how warm you are to me. Not just temperature wise, but in terms of how you treat me. You make me feel like I can never do anything wrong, like you’ll always be here and no matter what I do or say, you’ll never think it’s odd. You said that I looked at you specially, but you look at me that way too. When I see you, I feel like I need a second heart just hold all the love I have for you.”
Baekhyun was crying again, and Chanyeol wiped the tears away and held Baekhyun against his chest, tucking Baekhyun’s head under his chin. “Look at how well we fit together,” he murmured. “How could we be anything but perfect for each other? We may have different personalities, but we’ve always been there for each other and we’ve never done anything that the other couldn’t laugh about or forgive.”
Baekhyun sniffled and tried to calm himself. “So, you really love me then?” He asked timidly. “You’ll never get tired of me or want…someone else?”
Chanyeol pulled back and kissed Baekhyun’s forehead. “I love you so much that I’ll need a thousand lifetimes to show you all of it,” he promised.
Baekhyun managed to turn a sob into a laugh, and he pulled Chanyeol down for a kiss. “I…I love you too Chanyeol,” he stuttered. “I really do love you.”
Chanyeol began to cry and he hugged Baekhyun again, burying his face in Baekhyun’s shoulder. “That’s all I ever want from you,” he whispered. “I just want you to love me, and I just want to love you back.”
“So, just like this then?” Baekhyun asked as he stroked his fingers through Chanyeol’s hair.
Chanyeol giggled as he knocked Baekhyun backwards onto the bed, kissing him soundly. “Yes,” he said against Baekhyun’s smiling lips. “Just like this.”
(title from Billy Joel's song The Longest Time)
WE ALMOST WENT A WHOLE MONTH WITHOUT AN UPDATE HOLY COW ASDFGHJKL
Well here’s that BaekYeol I said I’d eventually write…almost porn. ALMOST BUT NOT AS MUCH AS KAI/CHEN SORRY! Just like last time feel free to comment here or on AFF, I'll try to respond this time ^^;;;;