Regret [Chapter 2]
Title: Regret [Chapter 2]
Rating: PG-15, NC-17 for mention of sex
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Kangin/Leeteuk, Kangin/Jaejoong
Disclaimer: I don’t own them…
Genre: Angst!
Beta:duosbabygirl
Leeteuk waits nervously in the outside of the meeting room of SM Entertainment. He already told their managers about his problem and his plan. After much arguing, they let him wait outside the room and now, they were discussing it with the other functionaries of SM Entertainment. Of course, Lee Soo Man also joined. None of the members knew about this meeting.
“Leeteuk-shii. Come in” Kibum, one of Super Junior’s managers asked him to enter the meeting room.
He entered the room and sat down in the chair.
“We all already discussed about your problem…” Lee Soo Man started “and we are in agreement…so, your contract will be over at the end of this month, we will give you all your payments and you can go wherever and do whatever you want”
“In ten days, we will hold a press conference to announce you’re retired and you’re planning to go to the army” Kibum added, “and we will ask Hankyung to take your place as leader and tell the other member too”
“Thank you. But please let me tell Hankyung and the other members by myself. And…. can you all promise me not to tell anyone, anyone, especially the members, about my sickness? I really don’t want anyone knowing about it. No one but the people in this room” Leeteuk pleas
“Okay…..but they will hate you, is that okay with you?” Seunghyun, the other manager of Super Junior warned him. He sighs and holds tighter to his arms “That’s okay. I don’t want them worried about me. It will better if they hate me.” He smiled softly, before he added “If I die, please don’t tell them. Please keep it a secret forever.”
“Don’t be too mean to yourself?” Seunghyun whispered. He really doesn’t understand Leeteuk’s decisions. Why must he torture himself?
“I just want their happiness…that’s all…”
A long silence came after Leeteuk’s words, before Soo Man stood and approach Leeteuk. He looked at Leeteuk with sad eyes and choked as he said “You know, you’re acting just like your name, Leeteuk, someone special to this world. You are special, the greatest person that I’ve ever met” He paused, “…If you make it through that cancer operation, we will still open our door for you, just come back if you want…” He patted Leeteuk’s shoulders and walked out of the room, followed by the others. After they all left, Leeteuk wandered his eyes around the room before he went home.
The next day, Leeteuk woke up with a lighter feeling. He’d already solved one problem, and now he must do one more thing, the most difficult thing, tell the members. The managers give them a special one day holiday for him. So he invited all the members to their living room to talk about it. After all of them gathered, he prepared himself to tell them about his plan to go to the army.
“Ehm..ehm…attention please” He started and everyone stared at him. He took a deep breath.
“Boys, there is something important that I have to tell you all,” he paused a second “I…well…I’ve decided to go to the army this year”
“What?!!!” Heechul screamed
“Hyung, you’re kidding right?!” Sungmin asked while laughing at his hyung’s-not-funny-joke.
“Hyung, that’s not funny at all” Eunhyuk whined
“Hyung, have aliens ate your brains or something? Why did you suddenly say that? You’re only 27” Donghae looked at him dumbfounded.
The other members mumble about his not-funny-joke and why did they have to stay in their dorm on a very-rare-holiday and listen to their leader with his not-funny-jokes. Leeteuk just stayed quite as he looked upon each member’s reaction.
After a while they started to realize that Leeteuk was just staying quiet, not laughing as usual after his joke. There was silent, before Eunhyuk broke it.
“Hyung…are you serious?”
Leeteuk just stayed quiet, he didn’t dare look at his dongsaengs faces.
“Hyung answers me!”
“I’m sorry, but it’s not a joke. I will leave next week, on March 4th. And I already prepared my stuff” He answered softly. “I really sorry, but I have to go”
“Damn you Jungsu!! What do you mean you have to go? Huh?! You still have 3 years, three fucking years!! And didn’t you say you wanted to keep Super Junior together forever huh?! And now what, you want to leave and let this group fall apart? Is that what you want?” Heechul angrily gripped Leeteuk’s collar by his hands, demanding answers.
Leeteuk looked away from Heechul’s angry eyes, wandering the room and laid his sights on Kangin who had just keep silent from the beginning, just standing with hands fisted beside his body, looking down at the floor.
“Super Junior will keep going on Heechul” Leeteuk said calmly “but without me. Hankyung will take over my leadership”
“What? But hyung, I can’t do that!” Hankyung whined.
Leeteuk released himself from Heechul’s grip and approached Hankyung.
“You will can do it Hannie, I believe you can do it” Leeteuk tried to reassure him.
After all argued and protested they finally accepted Leeteuk decisions. Although they were disappointed because of that decision, they wish him back after the army…Leeteuk just smile at them…
***
Kangin sat down alone, on the roof of their apartment. He drank beer and stared at the sky. His brain replayed the memory from about a month ago.
He went drinking at a night club with Jaejoong after his schedules over. He didn’t know what came to his mind that night. He just thought that Jaejoong was beautiful, seduced him and then they were fucking in the Club’s bathroom. After that he drove him home but drove his car to his apartment instead. And it happened; he kissed Jaejoong roughly. That’s when Leeteuk found out.
When Kangin realized, he was in front of Leeteuk’s door, he tried to apologize, but instead he ended it with him. He didn’t know what exactly happen to himself. He just wanted to have fun that night. He was so stressed because of his fight with Leeteuk so he asked Jaejoong to drink with him. He never thought that it would end like that. Leeteuk and he hadn’t talked since that day. He didn’t dare to either.
And now, it becomes worse. Leeteuk suddenly decided he would leave to go to the army. He wanted to stop him so badly, but he didn’t know how. Every time he wanted to talk, he would swallow his words when he saw the pain in Leeteuk’s eyes. He was afraid he would make it worst for their relationship. He didn’t what to do that. He still loved Leeteuk, he knew he often hurt him and he had already hurt him bad enough. He didn’t know how to fix it.
TBC.
Rating: PG-15, NC-17 for mention of sex
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: Kangin/Leeteuk, Kangin/Jaejoong
Disclaimer: I don’t own them…
Genre: Angst!
Beta:duosbabygirl
Leeteuk waits nervously in the outside of the meeting room of SM Entertainment. He already told their managers about his problem and his plan. After much arguing, they let him wait outside the room and now, they were discussing it with the other functionaries of SM Entertainment. Of course, Lee Soo Man also joined. None of the members knew about this meeting.
“Leeteuk-shii. Come in” Kibum, one of Super Junior’s managers asked him to enter the meeting room.
He entered the room and sat down in the chair.
“We all already discussed about your problem…” Lee Soo Man started “and we are in agreement…so, your contract will be over at the end of this month, we will give you all your payments and you can go wherever and do whatever you want”
“In ten days, we will hold a press conference to announce you’re retired and you’re planning to go to the army” Kibum added, “and we will ask Hankyung to take your place as leader and tell the other member too”
“Thank you. But please let me tell Hankyung and the other members by myself. And…. can you all promise me not to tell anyone, anyone, especially the members, about my sickness? I really don’t want anyone knowing about it. No one but the people in this room” Leeteuk pleas
“Okay…..but they will hate you, is that okay with you?” Seunghyun, the other manager of Super Junior warned him. He sighs and holds tighter to his arms “That’s okay. I don’t want them worried about me. It will better if they hate me.” He smiled softly, before he added “If I die, please don’t tell them. Please keep it a secret forever.”
“Don’t be too mean to yourself?” Seunghyun whispered. He really doesn’t understand Leeteuk’s decisions. Why must he torture himself?
“I just want their happiness…that’s all…”
A long silence came after Leeteuk’s words, before Soo Man stood and approach Leeteuk. He looked at Leeteuk with sad eyes and choked as he said “You know, you’re acting just like your name, Leeteuk, someone special to this world. You are special, the greatest person that I’ve ever met” He paused, “…If you make it through that cancer operation, we will still open our door for you, just come back if you want…” He patted Leeteuk’s shoulders and walked out of the room, followed by the others. After they all left, Leeteuk wandered his eyes around the room before he went home.
The next day, Leeteuk woke up with a lighter feeling. He’d already solved one problem, and now he must do one more thing, the most difficult thing, tell the members. The managers give them a special one day holiday for him. So he invited all the members to their living room to talk about it. After all of them gathered, he prepared himself to tell them about his plan to go to the army.
“Ehm..ehm…attention please” He started and everyone stared at him. He took a deep breath.
“Boys, there is something important that I have to tell you all,” he paused a second “I…well…I’ve decided to go to the army this year”
“What?!!!” Heechul screamed
“Hyung, you’re kidding right?!” Sungmin asked while laughing at his hyung’s-not-funny-joke.
“Hyung, that’s not funny at all” Eunhyuk whined
“Hyung, have aliens ate your brains or something? Why did you suddenly say that? You’re only 27” Donghae looked at him dumbfounded.
The other members mumble about his not-funny-joke and why did they have to stay in their dorm on a very-rare-holiday and listen to their leader with his not-funny-jokes. Leeteuk just stayed quite as he looked upon each member’s reaction.
After a while they started to realize that Leeteuk was just staying quiet, not laughing as usual after his joke. There was silent, before Eunhyuk broke it.
“Hyung…are you serious?”
Leeteuk just stayed quiet, he didn’t dare look at his dongsaengs faces.
“Hyung answers me!”
“I’m sorry, but it’s not a joke. I will leave next week, on March 4th. And I already prepared my stuff” He answered softly. “I really sorry, but I have to go”
“Damn you Jungsu!! What do you mean you have to go? Huh?! You still have 3 years, three fucking years!! And didn’t you say you wanted to keep Super Junior together forever huh?! And now what, you want to leave and let this group fall apart? Is that what you want?” Heechul angrily gripped Leeteuk’s collar by his hands, demanding answers.
Leeteuk looked away from Heechul’s angry eyes, wandering the room and laid his sights on Kangin who had just keep silent from the beginning, just standing with hands fisted beside his body, looking down at the floor.
“Super Junior will keep going on Heechul” Leeteuk said calmly “but without me. Hankyung will take over my leadership”
“What? But hyung, I can’t do that!” Hankyung whined.
Leeteuk released himself from Heechul’s grip and approached Hankyung.
“You will can do it Hannie, I believe you can do it” Leeteuk tried to reassure him.
After all argued and protested they finally accepted Leeteuk decisions. Although they were disappointed because of that decision, they wish him back after the army…Leeteuk just smile at them…
***
Kangin sat down alone, on the roof of their apartment. He drank beer and stared at the sky. His brain replayed the memory from about a month ago.
He went drinking at a night club with Jaejoong after his schedules over. He didn’t know what came to his mind that night. He just thought that Jaejoong was beautiful, seduced him and then they were fucking in the Club’s bathroom. After that he drove him home but drove his car to his apartment instead. And it happened; he kissed Jaejoong roughly. That’s when Leeteuk found out.
When Kangin realized, he was in front of Leeteuk’s door, he tried to apologize, but instead he ended it with him. He didn’t know what exactly happen to himself. He just wanted to have fun that night. He was so stressed because of his fight with Leeteuk so he asked Jaejoong to drink with him. He never thought that it would end like that. Leeteuk and he hadn’t talked since that day. He didn’t dare to either.
And now, it becomes worse. Leeteuk suddenly decided he would leave to go to the army. He wanted to stop him so badly, but he didn’t know how. Every time he wanted to talk, he would swallow his words when he saw the pain in Leeteuk’s eyes. He was afraid he would make it worst for their relationship. He didn’t what to do that. He still loved Leeteuk, he knew he often hurt him and he had already hurt him bad enough. He didn’t know how to fix it.
TBC.