KKM Fic
Title: Last Request
Rating: PG for some angst.
Disclaimer: Alas, not mine >.>
Summary: Yuuri reflects on..stuff
Warnings: Bad grammer, spelling mistakes, spoilers for after 32ish.
Comments: I love Conrad. This is how i deal with the pain. *Cries*
It's been... how many days since I've seen you? Four? Seven? Maybe it's been just one long day that never ends, or one long night. Because the sun doesnt feel very warm on my back anymore.
I havent thought about you, really thought about you, for a while. So many things have been happening and I have to focus on other things. Murata is here. He was sucked in some how, so I guess I'm not really alone. But I feel it. I feel even worse for not doing more to some how help you. You're always the one saving me. I guess I am really a stupid king.
But even now, I hear your voice and it's filled with encouragement. I can still see your gentle smile. Every time I look down, I see the jewel you gave me--I think it protects me, just as you did. Do. I wish you hadn't given it to me, because it would have protected you.
Sometimes you're so stupid! Don't you think your saftey is important to me, too? Did you ever think how much it'd hurt to lose you..? I know I have to be careful and it's weird knowing I'm so important to this world, but you're important too! You're important to me.
And if this is some test, some Right of Passage or whatever that I have to go through.. If its some test to see if I can survive without you--survive without you keeping Gwendell from growling at me, or survive without you keeping Wolfram from strangling me, or survive without you believing in me 100 percent... Then I almost wish I'd fail. I wish I'd fail this stupid test so you'd come back, because I need you. I never knew how much until now.
But I wont fail, no matter what. Because what's more painful than you being gone is knowing that if I fail, I'll be hurting so many more people, and whats worse, dissapointing you. Dissapointing Gwendell, and Wolfram and Gunter and everyone. I have to do this. And you make me believe I can.
Even now, when the last thing I have of you is down at the bottom of the ocean, I dont think you're really gone. Because I'd know. I'd somehow know and right now, I can't imagine you not coming back. I just... can't imagine how you'd come back. But you just have to. You have to. That's an order.
Rating: PG for some angst.
Disclaimer: Alas, not mine >.>
Summary: Yuuri reflects on..stuff
Warnings: Bad grammer, spelling mistakes, spoilers for after 32ish.
Comments: I love Conrad. This is how i deal with the pain. *Cries*
It's been... how many days since I've seen you? Four? Seven? Maybe it's been just one long day that never ends, or one long night. Because the sun doesnt feel very warm on my back anymore.
I havent thought about you, really thought about you, for a while. So many things have been happening and I have to focus on other things. Murata is here. He was sucked in some how, so I guess I'm not really alone. But I feel it. I feel even worse for not doing more to some how help you. You're always the one saving me. I guess I am really a stupid king.
But even now, I hear your voice and it's filled with encouragement. I can still see your gentle smile. Every time I look down, I see the jewel you gave me--I think it protects me, just as you did. Do. I wish you hadn't given it to me, because it would have protected you.
Sometimes you're so stupid! Don't you think your saftey is important to me, too? Did you ever think how much it'd hurt to lose you..? I know I have to be careful and it's weird knowing I'm so important to this world, but you're important too! You're important to me.
And if this is some test, some Right of Passage or whatever that I have to go through.. If its some test to see if I can survive without you--survive without you keeping Gwendell from growling at me, or survive without you keeping Wolfram from strangling me, or survive without you believing in me 100 percent... Then I almost wish I'd fail. I wish I'd fail this stupid test so you'd come back, because I need you. I never knew how much until now.
But I wont fail, no matter what. Because what's more painful than you being gone is knowing that if I fail, I'll be hurting so many more people, and whats worse, dissapointing you. Dissapointing Gwendell, and Wolfram and Gunter and everyone. I have to do this. And you make me believe I can.
Even now, when the last thing I have of you is down at the bottom of the ocean, I dont think you're really gone. Because I'd know. I'd somehow know and right now, I can't imagine you not coming back. I just... can't imagine how you'd come back. But you just have to. You have to. That's an order.