i'm sick...

i'm talking to charly's brother right now.  haha.

it's official, my date for formal is a lame ass and he cancelled on me.

just when i thought things couldn't get any worse, they did.

you just got to get up and face the day, you have to learn to just face the day.  i need someone to help me do this...i need someone to pick me up and carry me, i can't do any of this on my own.  i don't have the strength.

love me or leave me just don't lead me on.

too bad you did, and ( Read more... )

rock bottom was hit.

and now i'm on my way through the bottom, going further and further down into darkness.

everyday i see that more and more of my life is just all being shot to the pits of hell.

sorry andrea i don't think i'm going tonight...i'm not in a good mood right now...i'm so sorrrrry.

:(

i love how my world is crashing down and smashing into a million pieces...as cliche as it sounds...i don't think there's any way to describe it...it's all shot to hell

( apologies )

i absolutely LOVE rainy days.  they make me feel so good.  the rain makes me want to just make out with someone (a special someone ;) ) in the rain.

we've made a pact.  we need to think of a name for this pact girls.  aleigha, jessica and candy...yes, we need to think of a name...

rain is awesome.

maybe tonight...just maybe...

damn all you younglife kids that went to camp.

i'm sorry steven.

this weekend has been extremely eventful.  i did something...

kelley and candy...wow...

( umm yea )

it wasn't a waste, nor was it the best it could've been.  oh well.  it was supposed to happen like this i guess.

this guy, lucas from cdo is taking me to winter formal.  yup.  unhunh.  i'm excited.  :)

oh and kelley, you're going, and bringing steven.

i have a date for winter formal...wow.

and it's breaking my heart, because with every compliment and with every message and every word i realize, just how much i'm missing.  and then i realize how amazingly angry i am that time had to play such a horrible game on us.

if only we had just said one word to each other before it all happened, none of this heartbreak would be happening. ( Read more... )