Let The World Spin (With Me and You in the Middle) Part 2

[cherry916]

Part Two
"Jensen," Jared whined as he was pushed towards the car. Steve and Chris following close behind. You could definitely start to see the baby bump, he was four months pregnant He couldn’t help but smile and caress his distended stomach.
When Jensen started tugging on his hand he remembered why he was pissy in the first place. Jensen.

"I don’t want to go."

Jensen stopped tugging and turned around. Jared stopped breathing at his green eyed stare. No matter how long they had been living together Jensen’s stare could still stop Jared in his tracks.

"Jay it’s just a picnic."

Jared huffed. He could hear Chris cracking up laughing behind him which didn’t make him feel any better. "I’m serious Jensen. They’re…"

"Jay no one will say anything I promise." Jensen spoke sincerely, noticing the way even being outside of their apartment made Jared fidget.

"They may just have to meet my fist if they do." Chris said with a loud crack of his knuckles. Steve just rolled his eyes and laid a hand on Jared’s shoulder and gave it a slight squeeze. "We’ll all be there Jay so don’t worry okay? This is supposed to be fun for you."

Jared swallowed and his eyes prickled with tears again. Damn pregnancy hormones he internally grumbled. "Alright." Jared relented softly.

Jensen broke out a blinding grin. "Excellent! Let’s go."

All four piled into Steve’s jeep and started on the road to the neighborhood park.

The ride wasn’t as silent as Jared thought it would be. Soon Jared was laughing as Jensen told embarrassing stories of Chris.

"You won’t even believe what he did on New Year’s Eve!"

Chris turned red faced as he stared out the window. "Jenny I swear to God-"

"Oh this one’s good! Jared, listen to this!" Steve chimed up from the back.

"Thanks for the support baby." Chris pouted.

"You know I love you." Steve smiled and lent over and kissed Chris’s mouth.

"Gross, can we get back to making fun of Chris again?" Jared made a face which delighted Jensen.

"Chris decided that to serenade Steve he would get up on the bar, in nothing but a cowboy hat and underwear and start singing ‘Always and Forever by Heatwave’ not even kidding!" Jensen couldn’t help but crack up with the rest of them. Even remembering the incident still made him smile.

"Oh God…" Chris hid his heated face in his hands.

"It’s alright baby I thought it was adorable, even if you did get us kicked out of the bar."

After that Jared couldn’t help but smile the whole way to the park.




Pulling into a parking spot, Jensen turned off the car and got out to help Jared. As Chris and Steve were getting their basket and other items out Jensen made his way over to the passenger side and helped Jared out of the jeep. Jared grumbled but it gave Jensen a better peace of mind.

"Ready?" Jensen asked.

Jared breathed in deeply and nodded, "Yeah, I think so."

"Let’s go over into a shady area, okay? I don’t want you getting too hot." Jared rolled his eyes and muttered ‘yes doctor’ which made Jensen chuckle.

Despite himself sometimes Jensen didn’t know when to come out of doctor mode.

Walking over to a relatively shady spot underneath a big oak tree Jensen settled Jared down on the blanket and left Chris and Steve to get the basket open and their food set out.

It was a quiet spring afternoon with many people out and about playing around the park. It was much better than sitting in the stuffy apartment.

Turning to Jared, Jensen noticed the man was lost in thought.

"Hey Jared did you catch the Cowboys last night?" Jared startled and turned to look at him. "No, I fell asleep. Did they win?"

"Sure did boy!" Chris stated proudly, setting down their sandwiches and soft drinks. They all decided to not drink beer until Jared was able to.

"Why thank you Chris for butting in." Jensen scowled.

"Aw, don’t be mad Jenny boy just because I ruined your big finale."

"Don’t call me Jenny dammit!"

Jared laughed at the banter between his two friends and couldn’t help but think what a great idea it was to come out of the apartment. Until a shadow covered the sun lit area before him, that is.

Jared stopped laughing and looked up into the eyes of a burly man. He was about the same height as Jared but much wider and more muscular. He had this look on his face that made Jared freeze up. "Y-yes..?"

"What are you doing here?"

Jared gulped and crawled backwards until he hit something solid. It wasn’t the tree; it was Jensen.

Jensen’s hand curled protectively over his shoulder and made him relax a little.

"Excuse me," Chris uttered, outraged.

"I didn’t know they let freaks like you into our clean parks. I can’t believe the mayor would even allow this. I have to-"

Before the guy could even finish his garbage Jared felt a whoosh of air next to him and looked on wide eyed as Jensen jumped and laid the guy out.

Jared felt his head ringing just watching as Jensen pummeled the bigger guy to the ground. Chris got up and tried to drag Jensen off of him.

Steve set a comforting hand on Jared’s shoulder and whispered in his ear. "Let’s go to the jeep Jay."

With Steve’s help Jared made his way to the jeep. He tried his best to search for Chris and Jensen but a crowd had started around them which made Jared nervous. Was someone going to call the police?

All sorts of anxieties were running through Jared’s head until he heard the jeep door opening. He saw Jensen hop into the driver’s side and Chris climbed into the back seat. Jensen was tense as he white knuckled the steering wheel, he had a split lip and visible bruising. Jared wanted to ask if he was okay but he figured it wouldn’t be welcomed.

The silence was tense all the way home.

Chris and Steve automatically went to their bedrooms when they got home. Jared figured they were going to work things out. Chris was known for violent outbursts. Jared wanted to stamp his feet and demand answers from Jensen as soon as the door shut but he didn’t. Jensen obviously was defending him, it left a warm spot in his heart to think of it, but what he couldn’t figure out was why.

Jensen still seemed tense; he paced the kitchen till Jared had enough.

"Jensen, please your pacing is making me dizzy."

"Sorry." Jensen immediately replied going to sit down in the living room.

"Don’t be sorry just talk to me." Jared pleaded softly. He grasped Jensen’s bicep and tried not to notice how firm and strong it was. Now was not the time.

Jensen sighed and rubbed his bloodied hand over his face. Jared cringed.

"It’s just…."

"It’s just what Jen?" Jared encouraged.

"It’s just no one has the right to treat you like that. No one. It’s so fucked up and wrong and I wish I co-"

"Hey, you’ve already done enough for me okay? You’re the best friend a guy could ask for and I’m so gracious that I was able to meet and get to know you."

Jensen swallowed. "Jay…"

"I’m serious, don’t ever doubt that okay? Without you I’d probably have given up a long time ago. Chris and Steve, I love them to death, but they can only get so far. You wiggled your way under my skin and motivated me to do more and see other options. Thank you." Jared was feeling red after his little speech.

"You’re welcome." Jensen swallowed again and scratched the back of his head.

Jared watched fondly. It was a nervous tick of his.

"Let’s go see if Chris and Steve are up for some pizza?" Jared suggested, trying to get Jensen out of his nervous state.

"They went in their room….oh God, they’re probably fucking again. Maybe we should wait, Jay." Jensen shuddered and Jared did with him.

"They wouldn’t leave the door unlocked again would they?"

4 months later

"Are you kidding me? The fucking Mavs suck!"

Jensen stared at Jared with a smile as he raved at the TV when the Mavericks made a point.

Jared was sitting in the casual sweats that he wore now days. His belly was fully developed and still expanding. Each time Jensen saw Jared with his shirt off, he got this weird prickly feeling in his chest at that taut skin as it stretched over the confines of Jared’s two baby boys.

In the span of four months Jensen had gotten that much closer to Jared. Jared was no longer scared or worried about the twins. In fact, four months ago Jensen watched as a giddy Jared explained to Chris and Steve that he was having twins; as Chris gaped at the news, Steve fainted.

They’d gone through checkups, shopping, examines, everything and Jensen was there for all of it.

Jensen was happy. Happy that Jared was no longer nervous around him, happy that Jared was smiling, happy that Jared was going to be a father. Just happy.

When he was with Jared it felt like all his past demons vanished in the wake of Jared’s light. Jensen fed off of Jared’s positive attitudes and drew strength from what Jared was going through.

Call him crazy, but Jensen had it bad. Of course that wasn’t to say that Jared didn’t have it bad either. Jensen had seen the way Jared looked at him sometimes. It was this lustful gaze that a friend wouldn’t normally give another unless they were horny for it.

But past his hormones, Jensen knew how Jared settled his hand on his knee for no reason or insisted on giving him multiple hugs during the day. Maybe Jensen was just conceited and seeing things that weren’t there but he felt it.

"That’s just so beautiful!" Jared cried at seeing the commercial for an upcoming romance film. Jensen stared at the man in wonderment as tears freely flowed from his face. Sometimes Jared’s raging hormones surprised him.

For the past week or so Jared had been moody; small temper-tantrums or bursts of crying for no apparent reason. Chris and Steve were worried about Jared’s frequent mood swings but Jensen easily assured them that it was natural.

Thankfully they had the house to themselves tonight since Chris and Steve decided to have a night out to themselves. Jensen wanted to try and tell Jared what he was feeling but he didn’t want to push the man since he was so heavily pregnant. Not to mention that Jared’s back problems were only getting worse and worse. Jensen had to sit up night after night and massage Jared’s lower back just so he could get to sleep. It concerned him, but Jensen chalked it up to carrying two babies and the added weight. That was why Jared was confined to heavy resting until his c-section was due.

Looking over towards Jared, he noticed how his face suddenly scrunched up. "Jared?"

"Oh…." Jared moaned as he squeezed his eyes shut. His hands immediately went to his belly and rubbed it a little.

"Are you alright?" Jensen asked worriedly with a panicked look. He reached out his hand, to maybe help or sooth the pain but he was too scared Jared would take it the wrong way, so he jerked it back.

"Yeah, they’re just a little rowdy I guess," Jared breathed out, but it didn’t feel like when one of them would kick him. It had been a sharp pain that ate at his insides until it subsided. He didn’t want to alert Jensen, though, because he knew that Jensen would go into full doctor mode and Jensen going that way scared him sometimes.

Jensen furrowed his brows and despite himself he reached over and felt Jared’s swollen stomach.

Jared gasped and stared at Jensen in wonderment. He palpitated the area but nothing was out of the ordinary. "Everything feels fine," Jensen mumbled. Everything is fine he tried to convince himself. All week Jared’s been having the babies kick him mercilessly so this was just the same.

Jensen tried to withdraw his hand but Jared’s bigger one settled over top of his, trapping his hand on Jared’s belly. They stared at each other for a long time and then just like that the moment was gone and Jared was releasing Jensen’s hand.

"Aw fuck!" Jared yelled at seeing his team losing so badly. "Come on that was so a foul! Jensen did you see this horror?!"

Jared’s sudden shout calmed him down enough to actually sit back and enjoy the rest of the game and if Jensen was bragging about the Mavs who could blame him? "Horror? I’d call it brilliant."




"Yes, Chris. Jared is fine." Jensen smiled as he sipped on some of the coffee he’d made. After the game ended, Jared fell asleep on the sofa which left Jensen open to file some more paperwork and get a chance to call Chris and see how it was going.

"Are you sure we don’t need to come home?"

"Yes Chris, I’m sure. Everything is fine, there’s nothing to worry about so please tell Steve to relax and let you two have a good time, okay?" Jensen assured his panicked friend.

"Alright, if you say so. But you know to call me and Steve if something happens alright?"

Jensen could hear the threat in his friend’s voice and he knew if something happened to Jared he would never be forgiven. Yeah, like I’ll ever let that happen, Jensen told himself with an eye roll.

"I know, Chris. Tell Steve I said hi okay? Bye." Jensen hung up the phone and made his way into the living room to check on Jared one more time.

Jared was laying on the couch with one arm laying on his stomach and the other brushing the floor. His hair was all over in his face and Jensen couldn’t resist bending down and brushing it way.

Jared looked so vulnerable and young when he was sleeping. All the normal walls he built up around him crumbled and Jensen could see deep into his mind. Jared was just a scared man trying to make it through.

Jensen didn’t know whether he empathized with him or just felt the need to protect him from it all.

Jared suddenly grunted which broke the tranquil thoughts Jensen was having.

His face screwed up and it looked as if he would wake up but just as soon as it started it was gone and Jared was peacefully sleeping again.

Jensen timidly laid his hand on Jared’s belly and rubbed a little. "Be good for Daddy and let him sleep," Jensen admonished in a whisper to the babies. He figured that one of them or both must have kicked Jared when he was sleeping.

Jensen popped his back and yawned. He was tired himself. After spending all day at the clinic, Jensen was beat.

He felt guilt for wanting to go to sleep but he was tired and Jared was sleeping so he figured he might as well join him.

Jensen trudged into the guest room and took off his shoes. He pulled the blankets down and snuggled into the bed, making sure to set his watch for one hour just in case. Soon enough Jensen was dropping off to thoughts of Jared.

"Jensen…."

Jensen did a double take and looked for who was calling his name.

"Jensen, what are you just standing around for?"

Suddenly the voice became clear; it was Jared.

"Jared?" Jensen questioned. He looked around and noticed they were in a park of some sort. The sun was out and brightly shinning in the sky already, making Jensen sweat.

And the man of his thoughts was standing a couple inches away from him. He was wearing his sweats and his round belly protruded from his old t-shit.

He had a grin on his face as he cradled his belly. "Well, what are you waiting for?"

Jensen really didn’t know. Suddenly he walked forward until he was standing right next to Jared.

Jared turned and grabbed onto Jensen’s hand, making him sweat. "Jensen, I’m sorry." Jared’s grin suddenly disappeared to be replaced with a sad, wistful look.

"Sorry?"

"I really like you Jensen, and-and I may even love you but you have to wake up."

Jensen felt his heart beat at the word love. "Wake up? Is this a dream?"

Without answering the question Jared bent down and pulled Jensen in for a kiss. It was awkward with his belly in the way but Jensen moaned at the sweet taste of Jared’s mouth. He lapped up the flavor as they parted for breath. "What was that for?"

Jared chuckled but he soon turned serious. "You need to wake up Jensen."

"What if I don’t want to?" Jensen stated sadly. Jared’s hot breath was ghosting across his mouth making him ache for more. For anything. He would take whatever Jared would offer.

Jared kissed him again on the forehead and whispered, "If you don’t, I won’t make it."

Jensen peered curiously at him but soon Jared’s smiling, happy face was gone. The sun and park were also gone to be replaced with a wasteland of sorts.

The sky was dark and lightning was cracking up the sky letting Jensen briefly see around him. Jared was nowhere to be found. "Jared?"

"Jensen!"

Jensen turned around but still he couldn’t see anything or anyone. He couldn’t see Jared. "Jared!" he screamed again, but no one answered him.

"Jensen!"

"Jared!"

Jensen gasped and shot up in his bed. He heaved in oxygen as his head cleared. Dream, he chuckled to himself. Only a dream.

Checking his watch, Jensen gasped; noticing the time. It was now nine o’ clock and he went to bed around six thirty. Oh god, Jensen thought.

He quickly got out of bed and rushed into the living room, but Jared wasn’t on the couch. "Jared?" Jensen whispered looking around to see if he was nearby.

Checking in the kitchen and Chris and Steve’s room he started to panic when he didn’t find him. "Jared!" He finally yelled, hoping that wherever Jared was, he could hear Jensen.

"In…here…." A weak voice wheezed out from the bathroom.

Jensen breathed a sigh of relief and opened the bathroom door. "Geez, Jared you scared the cr-" Jensen stopped mid-sentence as he noticed Jared sitting leaned up against the bathtub.

"What are you doing on the floor?" Jensen walked over and tried to help Jared up, but Jared moaned and clutched his belly again.

"I-fuck-I woke up and no-noticed I must have peed myself so I-I came to the bathroom to wa-wash up bu-but I couldn’t get up," Jared panted and breathed heavily out his nose, but just as soon as the pain came, it was gone. Damn, but his babies could kick.

Jensen’s brow furrowed as he stared at Jared’s panting form. Peed himself?

"Jared, I don’t think you peed yourself," Jensen stated seriously.

"Well, what else could it be?" Jared griped back. He didn’t need Jensen making fun of him for it.

"Jared I think your water broke!"

Jared’s eyes bulged out and he looked at Jensen with the most scared eyes he’d ever seen. "My water broke?" Jared squeaked out in shock. "Wh-what about the c -section!"

"I expected the babies to be born pre-mature but not this early! Jared we have to get you to a hospital, like yesterday!" Jensen yelled as he began helping Jared off the floor.

Jared clutched at Jensen’s arm as he swayed. His heart was pounding ninety miles an hour and he felt like he might burst with anxiety.

"Alright, let’s take you to the guest room, okay?" Jensen mumbled to himself figuring Jared wasn’t up for talking. God why the hell did I sleep so late? All the signs were clear now, the moodiness, the constant back aches, the bouts where Jared felt as if he got the air kicked out of him. They were all signs he was close to labor and Jensen was so wrapped up in his fantasy that he missed them all!

Jensen maneuvered Jared into the guest room and laid him down on the bed.

By now Jared was panting with exertion, but he was otherwise okay. For now at least, Jensen thought. Until another contraction hits.

Jared suddenly remembered Chris and Steve and how they would want to be called about this. "Chris and Steve…Jensen, we’ve got to call them!"

"Alright, I’ll call them. Just calm down for me, okay? They’re a little ways out but we can have them meet us at the hospital after I call an ambulance."

"No!" Jared screamed. "No ambulance!"

"Jared-"

"No I-I don’t want them seeing me." Jared eyes began to get wet and he looked away in shame. "I don’t want them to judge me for being pregnant. I-I’m scared Jensen, okay? And-And I just want you!" Jared sobbed and closed his eyes. He just admitted something he'd been trying to hide for so long. But fuck, he just wanted Jensen and no one else.

Jensen’s eyes began to water as well. Seeing Jared so scared and confused tugged at his heartstrings. He couldn’t subject Jared to that kind of torture. Jared was already scared out of his wits, he didn’t need random strangers sneering at him or demeaning him as well.

"Okay," Jensen whispered. He hesitantly reached his hand out and laid it on Jared’s. Jared instantly latched onto it and squeezed it tightly. "Okay, I won’t call an ambulance."

"Thank yo-" Jared’s you broke off into a pained moaned. He squeezed Jensen’s hand tightly as another contraction hit. Tears leaked out of his eyes as his breath turned into heavy wheezing.

Jensen gasped at the added pressure on his hand but did his best to calm and sooth Jared. His contractions were coming on way too fast.

"Just breathe through it alright?" Jensen instructed with a new resolve. "Breathe."

Jared did as he was told. He tried to breathe deeply and took strength from Jensen’s hand grasped within his own. He took a deep breath in and slowly let it out. Then he repeated it until the pain abated and his chest loosened. "Fuck…" Jared groaned.

"I know," Jensen said sympathetically. Jensen patted Jared’s hand and easily got him to release his. "I’m going to call Chris and Steve okay? Stay here and just keep breathing.

Jared nodded but Jensen needed more verbal confirmation. "Okay?"

"Okay, okay just hurry back, please?" Jensen could easily detect that sense of needing and wanting deep within his Texas smooth voice.

Giving Jared a reassuring smile and a quick pat he raced out of the bedroom and into the kitchen where the phone was. He dropped the phone at first, cursing like a sailor for it, and dialed Chris’s cell phone number; he tapped his feet impatiently as he waited for Chris to answer.

"’Lo?"

"Chris shit! Man, you have to come back!" Real smooth at trying to be calm, Jensen berated himself.

"What? Jensen what’s wrong? It’s it Jared? Oh god-"

"Chris, Jared’s water broke and I need you guys to get here! Don’t forget to pick Danneel up."

"Shit! Fuck son. Should I ask Danneel to bring anything?"

Jensen could already hear Chris and Steve moving around hurriedly. It calmed him down more, realizing that his friends would be here to support him and Jared.

"Yeah, ask Danneel to bring the-" Jensen stopped. He was going to ask Danneel to bring his tools for a proper c-section but something was screaming at him not to.

"Jen?"

Jensen ignored Chris as the feeling grew until it was all he could think about.

If you don’t, I won’t make it.

Jensen gasped and felt his stomach drop.

"Jensen!"

"Shit sorry, man. Uh, tell Danneel we’ll be performing a water birth and to bring everything necessary, okay?

"But what about the c section?"

"Just do it Chris!" Jensen yelled and when he heard silence he knew Chris got the picture.

"Okay, Jen, we’re on our way. Tell Jared to hang in there."

"I’ll see you soon." Jensen hung up the phone and raced into the guest room to check on Jared.

Jared was much worse that when he left him. His eyes were screwed shut again and he was trying to breathe in and out like Jensen said but Jensen could tell he was still in a fair amount of pain.

"Jay…hey, hey, look at me, okay?" Jensen rushed to his side and grasped either side of his face.

Jared blinked open pain filled eyes and stared at Jensen pleading for help. "Fu-uck Jen. Th-they’re getting so in-intense."

"I know, ok. It’s because the contractions are closer together and the babies are coming soon."

"What did Chris and Steve say…" Jared ended his sentence on a breathy moan.

"They’ll be here soon and they’re bringing Danneel to help, okay?"

Jared nodded and breathed deeply at feeling the pain abate. He didn’t know how much longer he could last.

Jensen bit his lip and looked toward the bathroom. "Do you trust me, Jay?" Jensen asked sincerely as he looked into Jared’s glazed eyes.

"Yes," Jared whispered truthfully. "With my life an-and my childrens’ lives."

Jensen didn’t show how much those simple words meant to him. He had to stay focused and in control.

"We need to get you naked and in the bathtub, like right now."

Jared sputtered and a blush crept up into his cheeks but he knew not to question Jensen right now. He could already feel another contraction creeping up on him. "Okay."

Jensen nodded and helped Jared waddle his way into the bathroom. He tried not to let a blush creep up on him as he helped Jared take off his clothes.

Jensen helped Jared step into the water and get settled. "You doing okay?"

"Yeah," Jared whispered. He was unsure of it all and the water was that warmish cold that still made you shiver but he trusted Jensen. "Yeah, I’m okay."

"Good. I need to check your birthing canal and see how open it is, alright?" Seeing Jared nod, Jensen forwent his normal gloves and just stuck his hand in the water. He felt down behind Jared’s penis and testicles to the canal. It was definitely open and stretching. The first baby crowning wouldn’t be far off.

"Jared, I want you to try and push through the next contraction, okay?" Jensen coached reaching out and holding the young man’s hand in a show of support.

Jared’s face paled and he looked ready to pass out but Jensen saw the determination shining in his hazel orbs.

It only took a couple seconds for the next contraction to take hold. Jared’s face changed from pale to beat red at the pain.

"Jared, you need to push now," Jensen yelled.

Jared didn’t seem like he heard as he groaned in pain. The hand that was holding Jensen’s squeezed tighter and tighter.

"Push, Jared. Goddammit, push!"

"Fuck!" Jared screamed as he pushed. It felt like something was splitting him wide open from the inside out, which really wasn’t that far off.

"You’re doing so well, Jared. Just push a little more," Jensen encouraged as he patted Jared’s sweaty locks.

"Ughhhhhhhh." Jared pushed again and slumped into the tub with exhaustion. "Is he out yet?"

Jensen laughed. "No, but you’re close."

Jared groaned and thumped his head against the back of the tub weakly.

Suddenly pounding could be heard throughout the house. Jensen figured Chris and Steve were there with Danneel.

Not even three seconds later Chris was skidding to a stop outside the door with a wide eyed expression. "Holy shit!"

Steve grumbled and pushed Chris out of the way. "How you doing, Jay?" Steve asked in a sweet voice as he bent down and laid a hand on top of Jared’s hand.

"I’m fucking miserable, that‘s how I feel," Jared whined.

"Move over," Danneel yelled as she bumbled her way into the bathroom carrying supplies.

She had everything they would need for a water birth including warming towels, surgical scissors to cut the cords, a small measuring table for the babies, documents and certificates to fill out, something to clean the babies ears and nose out with, and bottles just in case. It was the best they could do until Jared and the babies could be taken to the clinic to get checked out.

"How you feeling, honey?" Danneel asked sympathetically as she laid her heavy bundle on the counter.

Jared just groaned in reply. His face was scrunching up again and his breathing got shallow. "Shit Dani, get ready!" Jensen warned as he got into position.

"Alright, you two wait in the bedroom!" Danneel barked at Chris and Steve’s gaping forms.

"Now wait just a damn minute," Chris argued, wanting to stay and help any way he could.

"Out! Or do I have to use these scissors for something else?" Danneel warned.

Chris paled and he and Steve backed out of the room. Danneel shut the door and focused her attention on Jared.

"Ahhhhh…." Jared screamed as he grabbed his belly.

"Push, Jared!" Jensen yelled and Jared pushed. He pushed until he was red in the face.

"So close, Jared. The baby’s head is crowning! Push some more!" Jensen yelled excitedly. The baby’s dark brown hair was peeking out from his birthing canal and with one good push the baby would easily come out.

Jared ground his teeth and pushed with one final cry.

It almost seemed surreal after that. The baby started crying and Danneel and Jensen moved into action. Soon after that one, the other baby was popping out to meet his brother.

Jared went kind of numb with joy after that.

He could hear Chris and Steve and Danneel in the room but he only focused on Jensen.

Jensen’s clothes where stained with blood and a combination of other fluids Jared didn’t want to think about, but he had that small little grin directed Jared’s way and Jared couldn’t take it. "Come here," Jared ordered in a horse whisper.

Jensen stepped forward with a curious expression and then bent down. "Yeah, Jay?"

Jared took that moment to lean over a little and kiss Jensen on the lips.

Jensen seemed stunned at first but kissed him back. "What was that for?" Jensen whispered after they parted for air.

"I-I think I love you."

Jensen kissed him again and Jared knew that he finally got what he always wanted. A family.




Epilogue

"Daddy! Daddy!"

Jensen grinned as he shut the door and laid his keys on the table in the hallway. Two dark heads raced along the hall until four little hands were clutching Jensen’s leg desperately, screaming over and over again.

"Daddy! Happy Birthday!" Tristan James said happily as his doe eyes stared at Jensen with pure love and merriment.

Jensen bent down and gave each child a long hug and a kiss. "Thanks guys! Where’s your papa?"

Tristan still latched onto Jensen’s leg while Ross Michael giddily lit up at the mention of his papa.

After Jared gave birth to twins, Tristan James and Ross Michael, they started to build a relationship. Trying to morph from friend to lover was hard, but after the first few months it got easier. Thankfully they had the kids to help the process along.

And after the twins first birthday, Jensen signed the adoption papers, which proved in ink that they were officially his as well. Just thinking about the day made Jensen’s face light up in a grin.

"Papa in the kitchen," Ross stated knowingly.

The amazing thing that Jensen always wondered about was how both Ross and Tristan looked so much like Jared. They both had dark curly hair and deep hazel eyes. In fact, there wasn’t much about them that looked like Chad, which Jensen was thankful for.

"Thanks buddy." Jensen stated ruffling Ross’s hair which he scowled and tried to fix. They were certainly Jared’s.

Ross was already making his way to the kitchen while Jensen picked up Tristan and carried him with him. Tristan certainly was a ‘daddy’s’ boy in every sense of the word.

"Daddy home!" Ross exclaimed happily as he barreled into Jared’s legs.

Jared turned around with a grin as he gave Ross a big wet kiss on the cheek; Ross returned one of his own sloppily.

Jared then focused on Jensen, and even after two years that stare could take Jensen’s breath away. "Hey…" Jared said with a grin.

Jensen smirked and walked over to Jared, giving him a deep kiss. Hearing the twins squeak in disgust had them both breaking apart with laughter.

"Happy Birthday, baby," Jared said with a smile.

Jensen hummed and kissed him again. "Thank you."

"Daddy we gots to show you something!" Tristan spoke up, his face lighting up with excitement.

"Yeah Daddy!" Ross chimed in, grabbing Jensen’s pant leg and tugging.

Jensen looked at Jared with a curious smile but Jared just grinned back. "I think you should follow them."

Jensen shrugged and let Ross drag him away into the living room.

"Surprise!"

Jensen’s eyes widened as Chris, Steve, Danneel, and Jared’s family-even his own family-popped out from behind furniture with grins on their faces.

"What…?"

"Happy Birthday, baby," Jared said again as he came up behind Jensen and nuzzled his neck.

Jensen was still staring agape at all of his friends and family until Tristan finally squirmed to be let down so he could go see everyone.

"Jared how did you…" Jensen asked with wonder.

"Don’t ask stupid questions, Jen, and just enjoy it," Jared sighed in exasperation.

Jensen felt tears prick his eyes and he quickly blinked them away.

Grabbing Jared’s face he kissed him deeply.

Jared moaned and grabbed Jensen’s hip, smiling at the catcalls and wolf whistles they were getting. "Hmmm, baby I have one more surprise."

Jensen began kissing Jared’s neck; Jared was laughing as he tried pushing Jensen off.

"Can’t it wait later?" Jensen whined.

"No it can’t…." Jared reached into his back pocket and pulled out a hastily wrapped box.

Frowning Jensen fingered it.

"Well open it, Jenny!" Jensen’s mother, Donna, said with excitement.

Jensen pulled apart the wrapping and opened the small box.

With shaking fingers Jensen took the instrument out of the box and was met with gasps from the collective crowd; Jared was staring at him with his slanting hazel eyes and a smirk on his face.

"Does this….?"

"It looks like someone is going to be a dad….again." Jared stated with a smile.

"Daddy what is it? Let me see!" Tristan cried as he tugged and pulled at Jensen’s jeans. Ross came over and started tugging too, insistent on seeing what his Daddy got.

Jensen bent down and hugged both the twins in his arms. Jared bent down as well and they all hugged as a family.

"You guys might get a little sister." Jensen stated with real tears in his eyes now. "Please God let it be a girl!" Jensen said with a laugh.

Everyone started laughing and despite them all being there to hug and congratulate them, Jensen’s focus stayed on Jared and he gave him a deep, meaningful kiss. "I love you," Jensen whispered, his hand lingering on Jared’s face.

Jared covered Jensen’s with his own. "I love you too."

Jensen smiled. He finally found what he always wanted-a family of his own.




Jensen lay with his boyfriend and rubbed his still flat stomach. A lazy smile took over his face and he couldn't help but reach up and kiss Jared again.

"You're amazing you know that?"

"Hmmm yeah I know." Jared broke off the kiss with a wet sound. He licked his lips licking away the taste of Jensen.

"I can't believe we're having another kid, it's like it was just yesterday the twins were saying their first words." Jensen wistfully stated. He remembered when they first started calling him Daddy and how happy it made him. He could only imagine another one running around and calling him the same.

"Yeah, I really do hope they have your eyes." Jared reached over and kissed Jensen's eyes for emphasis.

"Oh yeah? What else?"

"And I want them to have your nose," another kiss. "And your freckles," more kisses.

"Hmmm that sounds good." Jensen moaned and grasped Jared's chin to pull him in for a deep kiss. Jared rolled atop Jensen's body and let Jensen do all the work.

Jensen's hands moved from Jared's face to his back. He roamed over his expansive golden brown skin and stopped with his hand just short of Jared's boxers.

"Should we?" Jensen asked. He didn't know if Jared wanted to after the news.

Jared nibbled at Jensen's neck, he sucked on the thin skin until he was sure there would be a mark in the morning. He wanted everyone who came into that clinic to know that Jensen was his and his alone.

Jensen's hands dipped lower until they got past Jared's boxers, his fingertips molded perfectly over Jared's round ass and he couldn’t help but squeeze. Feeling Jared grow hard at his ministrations spurred him on even more. In one quick burst of energy he flipped Jared over until Jensen was straddling him.

"Hello Papa."

Jared grinned. "Hello Daddy."

Their eyes locked and a brief moment of pure love leaked out. But of course that moment was brief because their was more pressing issues at hand.

"God baby you're already so hard for me." Jensen whined as he cupped Jared’s bulge. He desperately bucked up trying to get friction going.

Jared moaned then groaned as Jensen's hand left, making him feel cold. "God I don't know if I can stand any foreplay." Jared whined making Jensen chuckle.

"Me neither baby."

Soon Jensen and Jared were both naked and Jensen was prepping Jared's hole.

After stretching Jared open Jensen slicked his condom covered cock up with lube and pressed in easily. The pace was nice and slow, not usually their style but tonight was special.

Jared moaned and writhed as Jensen whispered sweet nothings, but the only thing on both their minds was the fact that they were having another baby.

Jared came with a shout of Jensen's name and after a few more thrusts Jensen was joining him.

Jensen collapsed onto the bed and breathed in their unique scent mixing together.

A few moments passed until Jared spoke.

"Do you think we'll have a girl?"

Jensen smiled and moved Jared's sweaty locks out from his eyes. "Yeah I do."

Jared smiled and closed his eyes, snuggling into the pillow. Jensen kissed the back of his head and spooned behind him.

He could hear Jared's heartbeat and feel it against his chest and when he moved his hand to Jared's flat stomach he imagined feeling the baby's heartbeat, seeing her on the machine.

To him that was the best damn thing in the world. The world could burn for all he cared as long as he had his family, he'd be alright.