De profundis II

[cherry_bomb85]

20 years that I've hidden a deeper gift - whether it is wisdom of pure naivite I cannot guess. It is the Leviathan I keep silent. My emotions and outbursts are masked, impartiality is my strength. I'm the queen of plaster, hard to the touch yet oh so crackable. The tiny pieces are shattered but still maintain a tough surface. I pick myself up and

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[dechiree]

word. what she said.

though me reiterating it is kind of hypocritical since, in my own, I do a lot of the same things. Trying so hard to make everyone else believe that I know what I'm doing and that I'm that untouchable, higher being...though of course after 5 minutes everyone can see right through MY facade :-) I think it's the touchy-ness that gives me away. You're better at it.

But again, nobody LIKES feeling vulnerable or "endangered" shall we say, but Amy's right, letting yourself do it just to prove that you can come out of it alive (though not necessarily unscathed) is rewarding and empowering, even more so than the layer of plaster between you and the "little people" can sometimes be.

p.s. the title of this entry leads me to assume there is a I,am I not privy to such an entry?

[cherry_bomb85]

there is a I, but thats a private entry :)

[dechiree]

Cool, I was just trying to make sure I was on the friend's list since that other post about making your journal friends' only