[Fic] Crutch (Drabble)
Title:Crutch
Chapters: Drabble
Author:cherryrazor
Genre:angst
Warnings:none
Rating: kids can read this
Pairings/Characters: ReitaxRuki
Synopsis:The chains that bind us...
Disclaimer:They're all locked up in a cage in a high tower. Sadly the only thing that is mine is the story itself.
Comments:I wrote this drabble for rei_cookie's meme.
I’ve never thought that the day would come when I’d finally be free of the shackles that bind me. Free of everything that weights me down.
I’ve always needed you to help me through the rough times in my life, to be the crutch for me to lean on so that my going would be easier.
I guess I always looked lonely and you took pity on me, wanted to help the poor suffering soul that couldn’t make it on its own. I appreciate that, I always have, but I’ve finally broken free and taken that one step on my own.
I’ve been away from you for a while now, but there are days when I miss the little things about you. The way your eyes would always be looking ahead to make sure that there was nothing in my path to trip me up and make me drop the load that I carried on my shoulders. Your unique scent and the way that the sun would make your blond hair shine like spun gold. Those soft caresses of your calloused fingers on my skin as we lay in bed basking in the after-glow and warmth of our late night tumbles in bed. The way that you’d look at me as I’d crack my eyes open in the morning only to laze around in bed all day with you to pamper me. And most importantly the way you always knew what to say to make me feel better. There are even days when I think back to the more trivial things and start to miss them. They might seem unimportant to other people, but to me they were the things that made up our life.
As I think back on those times we had together realization seems to finally dawn upon me. I may have broken free of my shackles, but there is still something binding me. I’m not completely free of the chain that binds us together; the chain that I once mistook for pity, but one that I’ve come to realize is love, pure, unconditional love. The chain that weights heavier on me than any of the burdens I’ve had to carry. Yet maybe with you to help me bear that weight, I can finally feel free.
I realize that maybe leaving you wasn’t the freedom I so desired. That maybe the weightlessness of not having to carry anymore of those burdens can be achieved, and maybe even should be achieved, with someone there to lean on.
I hope you’re still there for me to share that load with as I realize that leaving you was a mistake. That the one person that I should have kept there to hold me up and lend me a helping hand was the one person that I pushed away and left without so much as a good bye.
A/N: I seem to be my own worst critic since I'm still not completely happy with this or it's more the ending that has me. I don't like the ending one bit. I wrote it late at night when inspiration hit me like a ten tonne truck. I hope it's not too big of disappointment. As always.. comments are love ♥
[edit: this was written in Ruki's POV]
Chapters: Drabble
Author:cherryrazor
Genre:angst
Warnings:none
Rating: kids can read this
Pairings/Characters: ReitaxRuki
Synopsis:The chains that bind us...
Disclaimer:They're all locked up in a cage in a high tower. Sadly the only thing that is mine is the story itself.
Comments:I wrote this drabble for rei_cookie's meme.
I’ve never thought that the day would come when I’d finally be free of the shackles that bind me. Free of everything that weights me down.
I’ve always needed you to help me through the rough times in my life, to be the crutch for me to lean on so that my going would be easier.
I guess I always looked lonely and you took pity on me, wanted to help the poor suffering soul that couldn’t make it on its own. I appreciate that, I always have, but I’ve finally broken free and taken that one step on my own.
I’ve been away from you for a while now, but there are days when I miss the little things about you. The way your eyes would always be looking ahead to make sure that there was nothing in my path to trip me up and make me drop the load that I carried on my shoulders. Your unique scent and the way that the sun would make your blond hair shine like spun gold. Those soft caresses of your calloused fingers on my skin as we lay in bed basking in the after-glow and warmth of our late night tumbles in bed. The way that you’d look at me as I’d crack my eyes open in the morning only to laze around in bed all day with you to pamper me. And most importantly the way you always knew what to say to make me feel better. There are even days when I think back to the more trivial things and start to miss them. They might seem unimportant to other people, but to me they were the things that made up our life.
As I think back on those times we had together realization seems to finally dawn upon me. I may have broken free of my shackles, but there is still something binding me. I’m not completely free of the chain that binds us together; the chain that I once mistook for pity, but one that I’ve come to realize is love, pure, unconditional love. The chain that weights heavier on me than any of the burdens I’ve had to carry. Yet maybe with you to help me bear that weight, I can finally feel free.
I realize that maybe leaving you wasn’t the freedom I so desired. That maybe the weightlessness of not having to carry anymore of those burdens can be achieved, and maybe even should be achieved, with someone there to lean on.
I hope you’re still there for me to share that load with as I realize that leaving you was a mistake. That the one person that I should have kept there to hold me up and lend me a helping hand was the one person that I pushed away and left without so much as a good bye.
A/N: I seem to be my own worst critic since I'm still not completely happy with this or it's more the ending that has me. I don't like the ending one bit. I wrote it late at night when inspiration hit me like a ten tonne truck. I hope it's not too big of disappointment. As always.. comments are love ♥
[edit: this was written in Ruki's POV]