i need to get my ramble back.

I need an answering machine to talk into.

I missed my birthday.

fuck.

I can't believe I missed my birthday.

I...they...oh god.

So I'm trying to find my sunshine again. Trying to push it all down and away and be me and let it all go and let the bad out and the good in but its so hard. Terribly terribly hard. I don't think anyone knows save D, and the worst yet, I don't think anyone cares ( Read more... )

I have seen the mystics play there ( Read more... )

I'm irish though today i'm not opening the blinds to let the sunshine in.

I now know what it felt like to be a daughter of erin during the roman occupation.

kneeling in a large garden, my hands and knees are bloody and sore, I don't know how I got here. I look around and see a vast expanse of green trees and plants, stone pathways, everything is washed in grey. I can feel something warm and thick rolling down my face. I closed my eyes, knowing what it was, and let me conscience fade to black ( Read more... )

missing in action. floating in space. I've been out of service.

don't ask me where I've been because I'm not sure....

though when I got back my apartment had been broken into...

of course I don't know how I got back as I woke up in bed this morning and don't recall how I got there.

....

this is so bad.

Things are a bit more clear right now, though I know that there is something coming still. I imagine that it will effect me more then anyone else but at the same time no one will notice that I am even here. So much is the way of things ( Read more... )

Something is coming. Ever since I returned from up north, I've felt uneasy. That whole pit of your stomach tight ball of icky that makes you feel like you have to go to the bathroom but can't feeling? Yeah. Something is comeing ( Read more... )

home. yawn. stretch. I like spending time in hotels but nothing beats the comfort that comes from the familiarity of ones own bed.

California isn't the prettiest place in the world but driving through does have its own magic.

yeah. I'm tired. home though. I'm going to sleep for a while and then see where I need to go next