Wow... I took a 4 hour nap and now I can't seem to fall back asleep. I did get an extra hour but it was plagued by a dream. The closer the next year approaches, the more my dream happens. My dream of my modification. Most of my friends know about my dream of my tattoo(s) and what it may look like, but they aren't the ones to go under the needle. I' ( Read more... )

Crap... the pic of me and Ant didn't come out... well, one did but it looks silly. LoL... Ant, shoulda listened to you and had your friends take it... I'm so stupid!

>Laughter is the best and cheapest drug ( Read more... )

Never Left Me ( Read more... )

Righto... It's 2:30... I couldn't sleep because of what I had written, can't sleep when I'm all... h o r n a y. But I'm better now, smoked a cig, stood outside for a bit and just breathed in the night. I'm still in writer mode but if I really start to write I'll produce another text similar to the one just written. Bleh ( Read more... )

Perverse Fantasy

Whips and chains,
Black and leather,
Pain and pleasure...
Roped and chained,
Blindfolded and exposed.

Pleasure is felt when pain is given.
Bare flesh turns red as He digs his teeth into my soft skin.
Blood flows over my bare skin...
He bites me, leaving open and bleeding wounds...
Sweet pain and pleasure flow through my veins...

He ( Read more... )

I'm sure some of you have read my poetry... well, sitting here in the darkness and silence of my grandmother's house, watching the clouds go by a sick idea came into my head. A short story, or free verse- whichever- popped into my brain. It kind of takes my "Perverse Fantasy" a little further... it's a little sicker. Keep in mind I'm writing this ( Read more... )

I stayed up late last night like usual, didn't get much sleep. I talked to James for the first time in forever. I miss talking to him, he has a job and me... I'm never on when he is. We had a long talk about, well, everything. Put some things in percepective so-to-speak ( Read more... )

Back at my grandmother's again... I think I'll be coming over here a lot :sighs: I love my grandmother, but I really don't like being around the elderly. They reek of death, true I'm gonna be working on nothing but dead people... it's just... I don't to be thrown into it right now ( Read more... )

Went skating... I was originally going to meet up with my bitches (my circle of boyfriends ~uber gay~) but they were going to the 21 and older club. They promised to stop by tomorrow though, if they aren't busy. I miss my gay friends, I feel a lot... like I don't have to impress them or show off. You know... example, around certain people I can't ( Read more... )