Comments | cheshyrekat: The Tao of Julie pt2....

cheshyrekat

The Tao of Julie pt2....

Aug 31, 2008 19:57

I've decided to post tonight to get my mind off things. Right now my primary reaction is to rage. I'm angry, but about things that the entire situation wont matter to me eventually. It will have no lasting impression on me and time will blow this all over and erase it from my mind like footprints in sand ( Read more... )

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midnightlynx September 1 2008, 05:23:14 UTC

I've learned some relaxation techniques that have done amazing things to clear both my body and my mind. i can teach you if you like. just let me know.

cheshyrekat September 1 2008, 05:35:23 UTC

This is not meant in any offense, but techniques are not the issue. I have had forms of meditation and personal focus that have worked for me for many years... It's the amount of problems and the sources that are too angering/irritating/depressing/concerning. It's more a sign that if what feels perfect for relaxing and clearing my mind isn't working... something is drastically wrong.

cheshyrekat September 1 2008, 06:34:05 UTC

It's rather hard to explain. I understand what's wrong. I know a lot of what needs to be fixed... i just have to work on that. And some of the road to accomplishing that will be ugly.
The weight i feel is resistance to handling my problems. Mostly because i don't like what would probably help. My anger at everything is a secondary result to me knowing but not liking any of my options. Sorting my problems away from the sources is more of a way to avoid ADDITIONAL unnecessary stress. Little things that have me burnt out. Things that wouldn't matter if I'd stop accumulating them.
Its easy to keep a head clear when you don't have a traffic jam of drama barreling at your mind.

midnightlynx September 1 2008, 09:47:06 UTC

I know you're not me, and your situation's not mine, but I didn't take off back to Portland when I wanted to because I knew that being there would slip me in to bad habits that would defeat what I'm trying to do for myself now, and also because that would be just physically running away when the problems I would be fleeing, the problems I need to stand and face, are in my head not in my environment.

But, again, since you're not me and your situation's not mine, you're stuck having to figure out for yourself what will work and what won't for you personally. :-\
Don't mind me, I'm just babbling.

cheshyrekat September 1 2008, 12:32:59 UTC

That makes our situations almost polar opposites. (I believe) Being around people who require more and more of me, and pile on more and more *useless* stress is what's wrong. Moving to cities i have no history in won't cause me to slip into 'bad habits' as you fear Portland would for you. yes... i understand you already stated our situations are different ( ... )