Negative self talk is not necessarily honesty
I have this idea that being honest about my negative thoughts about myself is somehow wise and self aware and a step in the direction of fixing those negative things, and those are the thoughts I usually talk about when I get on LiveJournal because they are things I rarely utter out loud to anyone.
I ought to get that out of my head.
I can be self aware and honest without perpetuating negative self talk. Negative self talk never got anyone anywhere.
I still feel on the precipice of great things. Not as close as I was feeling a few months ago, but I'm getting there. I will not be a cog in the machine forever, and when I look at all these lifetime cogs, I feel sad for them. Like, some of them are so smart and talented, why the fuck didn't they get out? Why weren't they smart enough, if they're so smart, to start their own endeavor?
The negative self talk impedes my follow through.
The Chalene Show podcast is a game changer in so many ways.
And now that I am allowing myself my ideas, I am finding creativity I didn't realize was there.
My friend Erin is making a life as a multi-passion entrepreneur. That is exactly what I am on my way to doing. I got this. I can make it fucking happen.
The thing of it is, is that to match both my current income plus my benefits I'll really have to make six figures independently, because I'm pretty sure that's what all my stuff is worth at the moment.
So, I dunno. It's all on the horizon.