I don't know how one fails at doing what I am trying to do, but after a day of panic and hopelessness I am going to try again.

I must succeed.

I am taking control of my life. The hard choices have to be made, and I feel sound in my decision. I was going to work out my thoughts about it in here, but I have already done so. At some point I will surely write it all down, because it is something that I really feel I need to keep record of ( Read more... )

I've been super bummed for the last week, week and a half, two weeks? I don't know. I've been bummed ( Read more... )

Damnit. I don't have time to write this entry. I'll write it later. Deuces.

So, on top of the sight training on the staff, and ear training exercises on Musictheory.net, and having already mentioned putting every mode off of every scale on flashcards that I will be able to identify on sight off of C and off of its position off it's root scale, I also want to make ear training dice ( Read more... )

FIVE MINUTES IS NOT ENOUGH ( Read more... )

Iiiiiii need to stop doing research and start actually working toward my research. I've printed massive amounts of ear training resources and have two books in my possession for the purposes of sight singing. I need to quit wasting my time trying to find the choirs I want to be in, and work toward having the sightreading ability to get into the ( Read more... )

This is sorta crazy, but I am getting that feeling again like I am sort of floating over the time-being. (That feeling I had when I auditioned for UNT, and I knew it was destined....) Maybe fate is at work?

When Dr. McCoy and I talked, he told me "Craig" would love my voice. Here's Craig's choir:

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WHOA! I just saw my friend JD in that choir. ( Read more... )

Okay, maybe I'm getting all emotional because I'm listening to that Requiem I posted like three fucking minutes ago ( Read more... )

So, here's how it's gotta be: I will pick major choral epicenters - Twin Cities, Boston, DFW, NYC, Chicago, Austin - set up two or three professional choir auditions, and two or three good church job auditions, and go about it. Whichever place I get the most gigs for, that's where I must go ( Read more... )