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I am going to post my poems
In light of yesterday's entry, I wrote something. I don't know how I feel about it. It doesn't feel finished, but I don't really have control over my writing. It just happens. And so, I was writing and it just stopped, and I had no more for it. I think I may be able to revisit it later and pull it all together with a final stanza ( Read more... ) -
Immediate follow-up entry
oh my god ( Read more... ) -
I'm back!!!
Wow, it's been a long time sice I've posted. For most of the last two years I have either not had a computer, or not had the internet (and using a phone to post on livejournal is just much too cumbersome. I need to type on a real keyboard ( Read more... ) -
I need to tell you about Kris
Whatever has been in the last month with Kris, I think it's already fizzling. That's okay. I love these short, wild rides as much as I hate to see them go ( Read more... ) -
Holy fucking rollercoaster, Batman.
Fuck. Seriously, fuck. Things are good and bad and confusing and all over the fucking place. And this one person has fallen into my life with the most inexplicable of timing to save me from things and I'm stressed by those things while feeling the most overwhelming amount of gratitude for his aide and trying harder than anything not to fall for ( Read more... ) -
Why are the constants in my life so perpetual?!
David texted me on Friday night. He mentioned that Jeremy had invited him up to Denton and told me I should come out. And he was like, "But no worries, there will be no funny business. I figure we can do this right, like friends." and I was like, "See, after our recent history I don't understand why you would ever want to be my friend. I can't ( Read more... ) -
I forgot one little piece
Near the end of the night at the bar, I was talking to another guy at a booth. Jeremy and his friends came in and sat at a table within eyeshot of me, and at one point I look over at Jeremy and he makes a heart at me, with his hands. I responded by texting a heart back to him ( Read more... ) -
Decisions, emotions and rollercoasters.
I'm going to start from what is most recent and work my way back ( Read more... ) -
Palpable gains
It's never been a better thing to not practice my music before my rehearsals. I am currently doing it on purpose... or at least deliberately... (not that there is a difference... okay, no there is. On purpose would be like, if I weren't doing this, I'd be practicing, because I am pretty sure I wouldn't be anyway, so deliberate is a better word, ( Read more... ) -
Yeapppp
So, the response was positive. Really positive. At first I thought it was going to be a short thank-you acknowledgement of my message, but then it was more. At first he just said that he was really flattered, that he was glad I got it off my chest, and that he was just back in Texas defending his dissertation, but the next time he's in town he'll ( Read more... )