Merry Month of May my butt. Oh, and um, Happy Mother's Day.

[chevrolady]

I would have posted this earlier, but what can I say--computers pick and choose when to work.

Hamburger night was awesome. Not as good as Dad's but still okay. Eating around the others isn't as weird as it used to be either. It's like, some kind of every-so-often neighborhood barbecue. It's like, kind of scary to say, but I think I'm (maybe)

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[nosugar_nomilk]

You don't take responsibility for anything, do you?

Did you stop to think that your mother might be in pain? Maybe the best thing you could do for her is leave her alone, give her time to heal, to come to you when she's ready. But no, it's all about what you want, even on Mother's Day.

[chevrolady]

It's been nearly two years since I was arrested. My mom already put me and my sister both on hold whenever she felt like it BEFORE everything got so insane, and it wasn't always for her big important job. I can hardly remember a Mother's Day where she wasn't working when I was a kid, and even then I tried to be patient with her. In before "excuses, excuses."

There's nothing more I can do than apologize now. Maybe I am asking too much. But my mom kicked herself day in and day out for everything we had argued about, after she thought I was dead. Now that she knows I'm alive she wants nothing to do with me? Believe what you want, but no matter how angry she makes me, I DO miss her--but though I still have some growing up to do, I'm not the only one. If I really was better off dead to her (or if I am, whatever she wants to think now), I don't think I'm asking too much that she just tell me so I can stop hoping for something that will never happen. But what do I know, right.

[nosugar_nomilk]

Do you think two years is a long time when it comes to grief?

It isn't. It's nothing. It's a grain of sand in an hourglass.

Your mother mourned you when she thought you were gone. Now she's angry because you deceived her in a despicable way. I don't know your mother, so I can't say what her faults are, but I don't see why I'd believe anything you'd say about her. Any parent would have a hard time dealing with what you've done.

[chevrolady]

Well, it's felt like a long time to me.

Okay okay. I won't put up a fight here, but like I said, I don't even care if she hates me. If I were her I'd probably be really mad too. But if it weren't for her It's WAY too long of a story. It's just not knowing what she's thinking now is what's driving me crazy.

No, I guess you wouldn't have any good reason to believe me. I did fake out everyone in my life for, like, almost a year. But I hardly lied about anything before I took over my sister's life. Whatever. I guess if my mom's better off without me, I should feel happy for her.

[agent_andrews]

Drive into a brick wall!?

Well, at least you didn't go through with it, right?

[chevrolady]

Yeah, and I'm glad I didn't. At least, never on purpose.

How's your mom, Andrews? Did you two get to talk or anything?

[splittingsides]

You don't know why you try anymore? Then quit trying. It's obvious your mother burned that bridge a long time ago.

[chevrolady]

You're probably right. I'm pretty tired of her jerking me around, and it's even more aggravating than her always playing favorites while my sister was around. I think the only reason she didn't split up with my dad was because he always found a way to disappear whenever she started hollering. I miss her, but she really knows how to leave people sitting out on the curb with no ride home, if you get what I mean.

[splittingsides]

Exactly. Blood ties are overrated. You aren't a child. Your mother isn't obligated to love you, and you aren't obligated to love her.

Stop trying to get affection from a woman who does nothing for you, and your life will be instantly better.

(Sorry if there's multiple notices; LJ's being an ass again)

[chevrolady]

Now I can't help but be really curious about how you and your parents get along, Calisto. But don't mind me if that's too nosy.

Thanks for that though. Since I'm here my main priorities right now should probably just revolve around not getting shanked.

[olympiclogic]

If it makes you feel any better, my mom didn't pick up when I called her, either.

... though, that's probably just because of the playoff games this weekend, not drama like this. And I sure can't blame her for that!

[chevrolady]

Um...thanks, I think.

Oh yeah, the playoffs! Jeez, I've been such a fog lately I keep forgetting about them.

[olympiclogic]

Oh, so you know which playoffs I'm talking about?

[chevrolady]

Maybe? Hockey playoffs were supposed to be going on now, aren't they?

[der_gewinner]

You are right in saying we only have one mother, just as a mother only has one firstborn, and one "baby." Give yours enough time, and I'm sure even she can forgive a betrayal so great as making her mourn the wrong daughter.

[chevrolady]

Maybe, maybe not. It's not like I expect her to. If she is better off with me in here, maybe we're both where we're supposed to be.