allow me to clarify something ( Read more... )

not gonna lie. life has been better. but thats all im gonna say about that because anyone who is anyone to me already knows what my deal is ( Read more... )

i make it a point to not ask questions i can't handle the answers to but there are a few that i really want answered but at the same time, want to avoid them at all costs.

i feel like im being bullshitted.

told my boss i wanna transfer today. he seemed OK if not recepotive to the idea after i clarified for him that i'll stick around untill he hires someone else. ill prolly be out by the end of june. shaweet.

things are getting worse but i feel a lot better. and thats all that really matters to me.

( bored )

i was very tempted to just write a post of song lyrics that are mood refelctive but i decided against it on the grounds that it would be lame. however, i feel i can't get any lamer. speaking of lame, in less than 24 hours ive been asked or heard about someone asking if i am going to jump off a bridge or something to that effect. this in and of ( Read more... )

what i wouldn't give for just one more day. a day when i didnt feel like i was constantly looking over my shoulder, searching for ulterior motives like a conspiracy theeorist. i want one more day when i can take a look at my life and have that semblance of normalcy, of happiness that took me a long time to find. anyone who knows me knows what i am ( Read more... )

remeber last entry?

i have officially struck out. so much for fighing the good fight when in actuality it was nothing more than a losing battle.

the more you suffer, the more it shows you really care, right?

as of right now i am in the dark waiting for the future to play out. i have such a knot in my stomach i feel like i'm gonna throw up.

so my sophomore year of college is done. wow, that in and of itself is kinda messed up in its own right. two more years till i graduate, till grad school, until i become destitute from excessive student loans and, hopefully, fucking famous ( Read more... )