Unsure of myself
At the moment I feel disconnected from everything, my friends, my family, myself, the world. I don't know why but... it feels really strange to me. I can't really describe it any other way. Maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm the one to blame for it.... I shouldn't say blame.... It's no one's fault really..... Now I'm just ranting... sorry.
On another note, old dreams are stating to come back. I had dreams of becoming a singer but now... now is not the time. My voice is gone, (more like I can't sing like I use to) and my chances of. getting out there are dwindling. I'm almost 23 years old. No job, no money, no real life.... I shouldn't still have this dream. I should be thinking of what I can do to better the situation I have gotten myself into. Not sit here wasting my time trying to achieve my child hood dream. It's just not possible... not anymore........
I guess reality has finally kicked my ass and setting in. Now all I want is to get my BA in teaching and go teach English (hopefully I get better at it) like I wanted to back in high school. It was a fall back plan but now it looks like it has come to that. I just hope I can get the money to do this. To go back to school and do something with my life. Maybe then I won't feel so useless anymore