(oneshot) ALONE
Title : Alone
author : chibi_deer7
wordcount : 1048 words
pairing : yoona/seohyun
rating :PG
summary : finally, i know that i love you...too but it doesn`t changes anything
A/N : my first fic^^ and i still learning to use LJ properly
Alone
Seohyun POV
i don`t like being alone
for knowing that your heart belong to her now
i don`t like the feeling that i left behind
everytime i see you holding her hand tightly
and she will give you her shy smile
and what i don`t like the most
is that i finally know that i love you...too
but it doesn`t changes anything
*flashback
You held those bucket of roses behind your back. i could see that when you ran at me.
You had that silly grin on your face.
"Seohyun, guess what is behind me ?" you asked eagerly
I decided to play dumb.
"What ? a ring ?"
You looked shock and stared at me with your mouth slightly opened.
"Is it a ring ?" i frowned because i`m really sure that it was a bucket of roses.
You laughed with your alligator style.
"TADAAA, for you !" you gave me the bucket.
I smiled.
"Thanks, i like white rose, it`s means pureness"
"Yeah, just like you" you smiled shyly
"But today is not my birthday"
"Of course i know ! hahaha so let`s go to soshi cafe.
I`m still confused with your antics but i shrugged it off.
*At the cafe*
"I`ll go order anddd please look at the bucket properly, there is something special" you winked at me then went to the order counter.
I examined the bucket. i noticed there is something shinny from the inside of it.
There was a ring, gold ones, tangled in one of the white rose`s branch.
I stared blankly at it and oblivious that you already stood behind me.
"So, you found it ? hehe, i quiet shocked because you know what is it before i even gave you the bucket.
"What is it ?" i asked coldly
"Umm, a ring ?" you asked back innocently
"Tell me, what`s going on ?" i demanded an explanation and i could sense that i would not like everything you said next.
You took my right hand and held it with both of your hand.
"i...i love you seohyun, i know we are bestfriend but i can`t hide my feeling anymore, i know i love you since our first meeting," you confessed
"Yoong, you know..."
"I know, i know, you ever said to me that you will never choose love over friendship but i just can`t help it," you said desperately.
"Im sorry yoong" i put the ring in front of your meal
.
"I still love you as my bestfriend and that will never changes" i assured you.
Slowly, you released my hand. i knew that you must be hurt but i pretended that i didn`t know.
"let`s eat" i glanced at you whom stared at the ring.
You put the ring in your jeans pocket and without a word, you looked away at other table. Refused to look at my face.
I knew, after that we will never be the same again, that`s why i hate being trapped in love like this.
*3 months after*
We still contacted via phone but rarely met. because of our busy college days or maybe that just what i thought.
or was it you ? who avoided to meet me.
I missed you, yoong.
*At student locker`s room*
"Seohyun !"
i gladly turned around because i knew it was you.
You grinned then ran towards me. i felt deja vu.
"Let`s go to soshi cafe !"
It was indeed deja vu.
*At the cafe*
"So where were you had been ?" i asked as soon as i sat on the chair at the table 9, the table where we sat 3 months ago.
"Ooh, i had a BIG project, you know it`s hella BIG. i`m choosen as the BIG BOSS at the project, as the main photographer ! just count how many BIG words that i said" you joked
I laughed.
So glad, that we were back to normal again.
"And i have a BIG news" you said happily
"That`s 5, included the BIG news," i smiled.
You laughed so hard.
And then she came.
"Yoong"
"Ah" you looked at the entrance door and waved your hand to her.
"Here and sit" your smile grew wider.
"Hello i`m uee," she bowed slightly before sat beside you.
"Seohyun" i said, honestly, not really interested with her presences.
"I know, yoong talking a lot about you" she smiled at me.
"Of course, because she is my bestfriend !" you said.
Why i felt strange ?
"You know, uee was my photo model at the BIG project, she is perfect !" you looked at her eyes, sweetly.
She shyly smiled at you.
I faked a cough then i noticed something shinny on her ring finger.
"The ring" i mutered softly.
But you heard me.
"Seohyun we are together" you held her hand on the table.
"Huh ?" i confused and a little shocked.
"We are a couple, she is my girlfriend"
I looked at you then her. i didn`t know what to say. So that was the so called BIG news ?
Silence filled as i held a staring contest with you and her.
You won. She won.
"Let`s eat" i pretended that i didn`t hear about what you just said.
End of flashback.
Present
After that, we still hang out together but you always ask her to join us and she will happily tag along
and if she can`t join, your attention will divert to your phone, where you can text her.
It`s frustrating, you are my bestfriend but why i can`t stand to see you with her ?
Is it jealous as a friend or more than a friend ? i dont`t know, but everytime i see you with her, my heart hurts so much.
I could be the one you hug, the one you kiss.
I could be the only one for you but i let the chances go away because of my idealism of friendship, my fear of losing you but in the end i lose you more than i ever imagined.
You were the one who stood beside me when i sad or happy for the past three years. Always be there for me when i need you. You make me happy and you make me smile.
But now, i`m all alone.
End
***
so how is it ?
dont u think that uee and seohyun looks similiar in some angles and facial expression ? and they both chubby^^
i know there are lots of grammar error, forgive me TT cz english is not my 1st language and help me by telling me which one is incorrect if you like.
Please, dont expect me to reply your comment in a flash ( if there is any, LOL ) because my internet connection kinda bad.
and this yoonhyun fic is my counterattack to you yongseo writer ! kidding XD
next, im planning to write happy yoonhyun^^ and maybe some taeny.
comments=love, so dont hesitate to comment :D
thank you^^
author : chibi_deer7
wordcount : 1048 words
pairing : yoona/seohyun
rating :PG
summary : finally, i know that i love you...too but it doesn`t changes anything
A/N : my first fic^^ and i still learning to use LJ properly
Alone
Seohyun POV
i don`t like being alone
for knowing that your heart belong to her now
i don`t like the feeling that i left behind
everytime i see you holding her hand tightly
and she will give you her shy smile
and what i don`t like the most
is that i finally know that i love you...too
but it doesn`t changes anything
*flashback
You held those bucket of roses behind your back. i could see that when you ran at me.
You had that silly grin on your face.
"Seohyun, guess what is behind me ?" you asked eagerly
I decided to play dumb.
"What ? a ring ?"
You looked shock and stared at me with your mouth slightly opened.
"Is it a ring ?" i frowned because i`m really sure that it was a bucket of roses.
You laughed with your alligator style.
"TADAAA, for you !" you gave me the bucket.
I smiled.
"Thanks, i like white rose, it`s means pureness"
"Yeah, just like you" you smiled shyly
"But today is not my birthday"
"Of course i know ! hahaha so let`s go to soshi cafe.
I`m still confused with your antics but i shrugged it off.
*At the cafe*
"I`ll go order anddd please look at the bucket properly, there is something special" you winked at me then went to the order counter.
I examined the bucket. i noticed there is something shinny from the inside of it.
There was a ring, gold ones, tangled in one of the white rose`s branch.
I stared blankly at it and oblivious that you already stood behind me.
"So, you found it ? hehe, i quiet shocked because you know what is it before i even gave you the bucket.
"What is it ?" i asked coldly
"Umm, a ring ?" you asked back innocently
"Tell me, what`s going on ?" i demanded an explanation and i could sense that i would not like everything you said next.
You took my right hand and held it with both of your hand.
"i...i love you seohyun, i know we are bestfriend but i can`t hide my feeling anymore, i know i love you since our first meeting," you confessed
"Yoong, you know..."
"I know, i know, you ever said to me that you will never choose love over friendship but i just can`t help it," you said desperately.
"Im sorry yoong" i put the ring in front of your meal
.
"I still love you as my bestfriend and that will never changes" i assured you.
Slowly, you released my hand. i knew that you must be hurt but i pretended that i didn`t know.
"let`s eat" i glanced at you whom stared at the ring.
You put the ring in your jeans pocket and without a word, you looked away at other table. Refused to look at my face.
I knew, after that we will never be the same again, that`s why i hate being trapped in love like this.
*3 months after*
We still contacted via phone but rarely met. because of our busy college days or maybe that just what i thought.
or was it you ? who avoided to meet me.
I missed you, yoong.
*At student locker`s room*
"Seohyun !"
i gladly turned around because i knew it was you.
You grinned then ran towards me. i felt deja vu.
"Let`s go to soshi cafe !"
It was indeed deja vu.
*At the cafe*
"So where were you had been ?" i asked as soon as i sat on the chair at the table 9, the table where we sat 3 months ago.
"Ooh, i had a BIG project, you know it`s hella BIG. i`m choosen as the BIG BOSS at the project, as the main photographer ! just count how many BIG words that i said" you joked
I laughed.
So glad, that we were back to normal again.
"And i have a BIG news" you said happily
"That`s 5, included the BIG news," i smiled.
You laughed so hard.
And then she came.
"Yoong"
"Ah" you looked at the entrance door and waved your hand to her.
"Here and sit" your smile grew wider.
"Hello i`m uee," she bowed slightly before sat beside you.
"Seohyun" i said, honestly, not really interested with her presences.
"I know, yoong talking a lot about you" she smiled at me.
"Of course, because she is my bestfriend !" you said.
Why i felt strange ?
"You know, uee was my photo model at the BIG project, she is perfect !" you looked at her eyes, sweetly.
She shyly smiled at you.
I faked a cough then i noticed something shinny on her ring finger.
"The ring" i mutered softly.
But you heard me.
"Seohyun we are together" you held her hand on the table.
"Huh ?" i confused and a little shocked.
"We are a couple, she is my girlfriend"
I looked at you then her. i didn`t know what to say. So that was the so called BIG news ?
Silence filled as i held a staring contest with you and her.
You won. She won.
"Let`s eat" i pretended that i didn`t hear about what you just said.
End of flashback.
Present
After that, we still hang out together but you always ask her to join us and she will happily tag along
and if she can`t join, your attention will divert to your phone, where you can text her.
It`s frustrating, you are my bestfriend but why i can`t stand to see you with her ?
Is it jealous as a friend or more than a friend ? i dont`t know, but everytime i see you with her, my heart hurts so much.
I could be the one you hug, the one you kiss.
I could be the only one for you but i let the chances go away because of my idealism of friendship, my fear of losing you but in the end i lose you more than i ever imagined.
You were the one who stood beside me when i sad or happy for the past three years. Always be there for me when i need you. You make me happy and you make me smile.
But now, i`m all alone.
End
***
so how is it ?
dont u think that uee and seohyun looks similiar in some angles and facial expression ? and they both chubby^^
i know there are lots of grammar error, forgive me TT cz english is not my 1st language and help me by telling me which one is incorrect if you like.
Please, dont expect me to reply your comment in a flash ( if there is any, LOL ) because my internet connection kinda bad.
and this yoonhyun fic is my counterattack to you yongseo writer ! kidding XD
next, im planning to write happy yoonhyun^^ and maybe some taeny.
comments=love, so dont hesitate to comment :D
thank you^^