~If Only Time Could Stop (One-Shot)~
Title: If Only Time Could Stop...
Author: Jen
Pairings: Okajima (Keito x Yuto) & Arijima (Daiki x Yuto)
Genre: Angst & Romance
Rating: PG
Words: 1403
Summary: *points to title*
Notes: It's Keito-centric. Wow... even the title seems to be angsty huh? xP
Uhh... I seriously have no idea what was going through my mind when I wrote this.
I wrote it in present tense. It seems that the angst one-shots I write are like... in present tense. O.O;;; I dunno why...
I think I hate myself for this fic. xDDD My first fic for Okajima shouldn't be like this. *coughs* I'll make it up someday~!
Comments are appreciated though this might be my most failed angst? *scurries away* FAILS!
Disclaimer: It's sad that I can't own them... T__T I really want that MNSB shop photo of Okajima!!!! D< RAWR~
Keito bites his bottom lip as he sees Yuto kissing Daiki. Sure, it's a daily thing they do everyday because they have been a couple since forever but every time he sees them intimate in any way, his heart squeezes painfully.
He slams the door shut and walks away, trying hard not to have his eyes form any tears. Of course, the moment his mind flashes back on the image, droplets begin to fall onto the ground. Keito wipes the tear away with the back of his sleeve and walks into a dressing room, not bothering to close the door. He slumps back against the wall.
Maybe it's a curse being in love with Yuto, unrequited love that is. He just had to fall for his kindness, his smile, his hyperness, personality...
Keito laughs at himself for feeling this way and stares at his slightly wet hands. He closes his eyes and thinks about Yuto. Why is he thinking about him... he doesn't know why. Probably a habit since it seems to calm him down whenever he just thinks purely of the moments he spends with Yuto.
"Yuto..." he whispers quietly when he feels someone's hand on his shoulders. Keito flinches and hopes it isn't the person he wants to see the least. He opens one eye slowly and quickly screws it tight, moving away from the touch, which had made his heart skip a beat.
"Keito..." the voice softly calls out.
The Engrish boy swallows hard and tells his heart to stop pounding against his chest.
"Keito, open your eyes. What's wrong?" he asks, voice filled with genuine concern.
All he can do is obey or else he will be more persistent. Keito opens his eyes and sees Yuto sitting himself down beside him, legs stretched out and arms supporting himself.
"What's wrong? I know something is going on. You've been acting really weird lately. You've been avoiding me... why?" Yuto questions, eyes wanting answers. He never beats around the bush; instead he's straightforward.
Keito doesn't say anything and just sniffles. More like, if he says anything, he'll blurt out his unrequited feelings that will become troublesome and burden Yuto. He knows it will.
Yuto grabs his shoulders and Keito's heart jumps, eyes widening. The first thing that goes through Keito's mind is the hands on his shoulder and he automatically freaks. "Don't touch me!"
But Yuto doesn't let go. His grip just tightens as his eyes bore into his intensely.
Keito turns his head away, avoiding those eyes that make his stomach lurch from being nervous.
He hears Yuto take a deep breath and the next thing the younger boy says, makes him panic.
"Do you like me?" Yuto asks.
Keito knows he has to lie even if his conscience tells him otherwise. He turns his head back to face Yuto reluctantly. Bad idea. Yuto's expression is serious and Keito feels himself crumbling. So he closes his eyes to make it easier. "What makes you think tha-"
Keito's eyes flies open as he feels Yuto's mouth over his and a hand slipping around his waist, pressing their bodies closer.
His mind can't comprehend anything but the way Yuto is kissing him softly, which makes him feel weak, his cheeks burning.
He had always wanted this to happen, have Yuto kiss him but... it feels wrong... really wrong...
Keito pulls away unwillingly to first catch his breath because they were kissing for who knows how long. "Wh-why did you d-do that?"
Yuto's arm are still around Keito's waist and he presses their foreheads together. "Isn't that obviously?" His voice is husky and rough from earlier, which makes Keito shudder especially with his breath so near.
"Y-you should only k-kiss the people y-you like..." Keito stammers.
Yuto gives him a peck. "But I do like you..."
Keito's heart lifts up but one thing still bothers him. "Wh-what about Dai-chan?"
The latter's eyes doesn't flicker. "What about him?"
"You t-two b-broke up?" Keito asks, feeling rude now.
Yuto shakes his head. "Why would I?"
Keito blinks. "I th-thought you s-said you like m-me..."
"But I do," Yuto insists.
"D-don't you like Dai-chan?" Keito stares at him in disbelief. He has a bad feeling about this as his stomach begins churning awkwardly.
"I like both of you," Yuto answers like it's nothing.
Finally, realizing what Yuto means, Keito starts to try to pry off the younger boy's arms away from him, tears threatening to come out once more.
"What's wrong about that?" Yuto's voice sounds confused as he clings tighter.
Something in Keito makes him snap. "How can you like two people at once?!" How could this be happening... he didn't want this... He didn't want to be with Yuto... not like this.
Yuto tenses a bit, burying his face in the crook of Keito's shoulders. "I just... do... I know I sound lame for saying that... but it's true..." He sounds like a kicked, abandoned puppy left out in the streets.
Keito's voice and expression softens as he stops struggling. "B-but I don't like the fact that you also l-like Dai-chan..."
"I can't help it," Yuto murmurs, pressing his lips against Keito's cheek.
How can a kiss from someone he likes cause so much pain?
"I o-only want y-you to like m-me..." Keito's voice is wavering as tears roll down his cheeks.
"I can't leave Dai-chan alone... he'll be lonely," Yuto retorts, brushing a tear away with the back of his hand.
"Wh-what about me?" Keito heart feels tight as his breathing becomes heavier. He can't stop his tears now. His vision completely blurs.
Yuto cups Keito's face, wiping away the tears with his thumbs. "I want to be with you, too..."
Keito shakes his head. "I'm s-s... sorry... I c-can't..." He's trembling uncontrollably. He can't be with Yuto. He has always believed in one half being complete with another half, not one and a half, trying to fit into a whole.
"Why not?" Yuto sounds hurt as he hugs Keito, stroking his back along with running his fingers through his hair.
Keito wishes that he could stop time, when it's only the two of them like this. If only Daiki was go- He gasps, surprised how he could think this way... it was so cruel. Daiki was also his bandmate, his good friend. How could he?
"Keito, please say something," Yuto begs.
"I hate it..." Keito pulls back and peers directly in Yuto's eyes, the best that he could through his vision, "I hate it, Yuto. I hate it. I hate it. I HATE IT!!!"
Yuto is stunned, mouth twitching as if he wants to say something but can't. Nothing he could say... would make this any better...
"I don't understand how you can like two people at once, how you can like two people equally, how you're fine being in this kind of relationship, I just DON'T!" Keito rants out, huffing as more tears stream down his face. "And I think... I can never understand..." he whispers.
Yuto's head is down, eyes directed at the floor.
Keito knows he hurt Yuto instead... but he's been hurt, too...
"I'm sorry, Yuto... truth be told, when you said you liked me, I was so happy. I can't even describe how happy I felt..." Keito rests his hands on Yuto's shoulders and the latter raises his head slowly. The older boy leans forward, closer until their lips meet.
If only time could stop...
But Keito knew it couldn't... so he broke away. "Thank you for liking me... because I truly liked you with all my heart..."
"Kei-" Keito covers Yuto's mouth before he can finish. "P-please don't make it harder than it already is..."
Yuto's fingers wraps around Keito's wrist, eyes clouding with sadness.
"Be with Dai-chan... and be happy with him..." Keito murmurs. "Okay?"
It takes a little while for Yuto to finally nod as Keito lets his arm fall down to his side, still feeling Yuto's soft lips against his palm before the nod.
Keito forces himself to break into a gentle and sincere smile.
Yuto seems to break down as he pulls Keito into his arms, shaking. "K-Keit-to..." Yuto whispers. "K-Keito..."
He kisses Keito as if he's desperate for this last kiss while the latter kisses back with the same pressure, fingers tangled in each other's hair. Keito could taste his own salty tears mixing with Yuto's.
If only time could stop...
Author: Jen
Pairings: Okajima (Keito x Yuto) & Arijima (Daiki x Yuto)
Genre: Angst & Romance
Rating: PG
Words: 1403
Summary: *points to title*
Notes: It's Keito-centric. Wow... even the title seems to be angsty huh? xP
Uhh... I seriously have no idea what was going through my mind when I wrote this.
I wrote it in present tense. It seems that the angst one-shots I write are like... in present tense. O.O;;; I dunno why...
I think I hate myself for this fic. xDDD My first fic for Okajima shouldn't be like this. *coughs* I'll make it up someday~!
Comments are appreciated though this might be my most failed angst? *scurries away* FAILS!
Disclaimer: It's sad that I can't own them... T__T I really want that MNSB shop photo of Okajima!!!! D< RAWR~
Keito bites his bottom lip as he sees Yuto kissing Daiki. Sure, it's a daily thing they do everyday because they have been a couple since forever but every time he sees them intimate in any way, his heart squeezes painfully.
He slams the door shut and walks away, trying hard not to have his eyes form any tears. Of course, the moment his mind flashes back on the image, droplets begin to fall onto the ground. Keito wipes the tear away with the back of his sleeve and walks into a dressing room, not bothering to close the door. He slumps back against the wall.
Maybe it's a curse being in love with Yuto, unrequited love that is. He just had to fall for his kindness, his smile, his hyperness, personality...
Keito laughs at himself for feeling this way and stares at his slightly wet hands. He closes his eyes and thinks about Yuto. Why is he thinking about him... he doesn't know why. Probably a habit since it seems to calm him down whenever he just thinks purely of the moments he spends with Yuto.
"Yuto..." he whispers quietly when he feels someone's hand on his shoulders. Keito flinches and hopes it isn't the person he wants to see the least. He opens one eye slowly and quickly screws it tight, moving away from the touch, which had made his heart skip a beat.
"Keito..." the voice softly calls out.
The Engrish boy swallows hard and tells his heart to stop pounding against his chest.
"Keito, open your eyes. What's wrong?" he asks, voice filled with genuine concern.
All he can do is obey or else he will be more persistent. Keito opens his eyes and sees Yuto sitting himself down beside him, legs stretched out and arms supporting himself.
"What's wrong? I know something is going on. You've been acting really weird lately. You've been avoiding me... why?" Yuto questions, eyes wanting answers. He never beats around the bush; instead he's straightforward.
Keito doesn't say anything and just sniffles. More like, if he says anything, he'll blurt out his unrequited feelings that will become troublesome and burden Yuto. He knows it will.
Yuto grabs his shoulders and Keito's heart jumps, eyes widening. The first thing that goes through Keito's mind is the hands on his shoulder and he automatically freaks. "Don't touch me!"
But Yuto doesn't let go. His grip just tightens as his eyes bore into his intensely.
Keito turns his head away, avoiding those eyes that make his stomach lurch from being nervous.
He hears Yuto take a deep breath and the next thing the younger boy says, makes him panic.
"Do you like me?" Yuto asks.
Keito knows he has to lie even if his conscience tells him otherwise. He turns his head back to face Yuto reluctantly. Bad idea. Yuto's expression is serious and Keito feels himself crumbling. So he closes his eyes to make it easier. "What makes you think tha-"
Keito's eyes flies open as he feels Yuto's mouth over his and a hand slipping around his waist, pressing their bodies closer.
His mind can't comprehend anything but the way Yuto is kissing him softly, which makes him feel weak, his cheeks burning.
He had always wanted this to happen, have Yuto kiss him but... it feels wrong... really wrong...
Keito pulls away unwillingly to first catch his breath because they were kissing for who knows how long. "Wh-why did you d-do that?"
Yuto's arm are still around Keito's waist and he presses their foreheads together. "Isn't that obviously?" His voice is husky and rough from earlier, which makes Keito shudder especially with his breath so near.
"Y-you should only k-kiss the people y-you like..." Keito stammers.
Yuto gives him a peck. "But I do like you..."
Keito's heart lifts up but one thing still bothers him. "Wh-what about Dai-chan?"
The latter's eyes doesn't flicker. "What about him?"
"You t-two b-broke up?" Keito asks, feeling rude now.
Yuto shakes his head. "Why would I?"
Keito blinks. "I th-thought you s-said you like m-me..."
"But I do," Yuto insists.
"D-don't you like Dai-chan?" Keito stares at him in disbelief. He has a bad feeling about this as his stomach begins churning awkwardly.
"I like both of you," Yuto answers like it's nothing.
Finally, realizing what Yuto means, Keito starts to try to pry off the younger boy's arms away from him, tears threatening to come out once more.
"What's wrong about that?" Yuto's voice sounds confused as he clings tighter.
Something in Keito makes him snap. "How can you like two people at once?!" How could this be happening... he didn't want this... He didn't want to be with Yuto... not like this.
Yuto tenses a bit, burying his face in the crook of Keito's shoulders. "I just... do... I know I sound lame for saying that... but it's true..." He sounds like a kicked, abandoned puppy left out in the streets.
Keito's voice and expression softens as he stops struggling. "B-but I don't like the fact that you also l-like Dai-chan..."
"I can't help it," Yuto murmurs, pressing his lips against Keito's cheek.
How can a kiss from someone he likes cause so much pain?
"I o-only want y-you to like m-me..." Keito's voice is wavering as tears roll down his cheeks.
"I can't leave Dai-chan alone... he'll be lonely," Yuto retorts, brushing a tear away with the back of his hand.
"Wh-what about me?" Keito heart feels tight as his breathing becomes heavier. He can't stop his tears now. His vision completely blurs.
Yuto cups Keito's face, wiping away the tears with his thumbs. "I want to be with you, too..."
Keito shakes his head. "I'm s-s... sorry... I c-can't..." He's trembling uncontrollably. He can't be with Yuto. He has always believed in one half being complete with another half, not one and a half, trying to fit into a whole.
"Why not?" Yuto sounds hurt as he hugs Keito, stroking his back along with running his fingers through his hair.
Keito wishes that he could stop time, when it's only the two of them like this. If only Daiki was go- He gasps, surprised how he could think this way... it was so cruel. Daiki was also his bandmate, his good friend. How could he?
"Keito, please say something," Yuto begs.
"I hate it..." Keito pulls back and peers directly in Yuto's eyes, the best that he could through his vision, "I hate it, Yuto. I hate it. I hate it. I HATE IT!!!"
Yuto is stunned, mouth twitching as if he wants to say something but can't. Nothing he could say... would make this any better...
"I don't understand how you can like two people at once, how you can like two people equally, how you're fine being in this kind of relationship, I just DON'T!" Keito rants out, huffing as more tears stream down his face. "And I think... I can never understand..." he whispers.
Yuto's head is down, eyes directed at the floor.
Keito knows he hurt Yuto instead... but he's been hurt, too...
"I'm sorry, Yuto... truth be told, when you said you liked me, I was so happy. I can't even describe how happy I felt..." Keito rests his hands on Yuto's shoulders and the latter raises his head slowly. The older boy leans forward, closer until their lips meet.
If only time could stop...
But Keito knew it couldn't... so he broke away. "Thank you for liking me... because I truly liked you with all my heart..."
"Kei-" Keito covers Yuto's mouth before he can finish. "P-please don't make it harder than it already is..."
Yuto's fingers wraps around Keito's wrist, eyes clouding with sadness.
"Be with Dai-chan... and be happy with him..." Keito murmurs. "Okay?"
It takes a little while for Yuto to finally nod as Keito lets his arm fall down to his side, still feeling Yuto's soft lips against his palm before the nod.
Keito forces himself to break into a gentle and sincere smile.
Yuto seems to break down as he pulls Keito into his arms, shaking. "K-Keit-to..." Yuto whispers. "K-Keito..."
He kisses Keito as if he's desperate for this last kiss while the latter kisses back with the same pressure, fingers tangled in each other's hair. Keito could taste his own salty tears mixing with Yuto's.
If only time could stop...