Practically ran away from work today. I was supposed to finish something up today [actually, yesterday] and I didn't. I don't know if to laugh or cry about it but 'work-sucks' turned back into being my main worry. It's that stupid, non-enriching task that's been hunting me for months. Why the hell did I move in to that crew if it wasn't for getting ( Read more... )

I feel bad. I feel bad for a long time now. Zetsubou-desu!!! >Today my brain just stopped working, I was so depressed yet I was acting all silly. It wasn't that bad but it's getting old with the "I'm tired, I'm tired" cause it hasn't changed for the last 2.5 years! T__T ( Read more... )

I was supposed to have plans for this weekend but I canceled it all. I was too stressed. A bit sad , too. I guess I'm still trying to make the people I care about happy, but I can't forget about myself and do it on the expense of my own time. I can't help or be nice to anyone if I'm all tired and depressed, ne? Sometimes I tend to forget that ( Read more... )

I think one I've already commented at that there is always something to keep me from going totally insane [well, at least sometimes]. Today I came to work as usual since my laziness kept me from ordering an day off. I got it the moment I spoke about it out loud. Sometimes my commander is really amazing ( Read more... )

Had a nice long weekend. Well, it wasn't really that long but it was nice. I did things. Had my BF here. It was... very nice XD
I never get to finish any of my missions and there is a bit of sorrow meld in me. Nonetheless, I'm feeling good at the moment. I don't want to think about the things that hurt me. I hope I really do have a reason to feel ( Read more... )

Everything is as usual. Nothing changes. Although, moments like this became so rare, things have changed - for the worse ( Read more... )

Less than 24 hours at my home and the thing already trespasses ><" It looks as if irony is doing everything in it's powers to see if I'm gonna turn into a killer. Fuck off. I don't think it's funny at all ( Read more... )

Things are getting better. Kinda ( Read more... )

It seems like there's always something that keeps me just a step above the edge. Something different all the time but it keeps me going. I guess I would've been completely fine and happy but... I can't. Something is bothering me. A lot. For some reason it caught me by surprise today. I was going insane as I always do when I'm responsible of support ( Read more... )

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