So afraid of being alone, so afraid to let anyone in. Being defined only by who likes me. Continually, acting. I have no identity, none, been living my life to satisfy others for years. Who am I? If I don't know then I guess it's a reformation and the question should be "Who do you want to be?"

having been home and then coming back here to no close friends or family is kinda tough. I miss my friends and my family both. I'm seriously thinking about a move. I'm going to talk to Mike and Mandy about Chicago. I need people a lot.

Everyone is posting and I feel left out ( Read more... )

Hey, does anyone know the final decision on Naked Camping weekend? What dates? Russ and Ashley, have you decided, I'm trying to get time off work and get a ticket home. If anyone knows let me know. It's looking like I can be home the night of the 16th-26th of August. Tell me tell me. Thanks.

Okay, I keep forgetting, "Little Britain", has anyone seen it? If not and you can find a way to get it, do it, it's funny, wonderful, revolting British humor...Awh shit, I laugh just thinking about it.

If anyone wants an awesome Summer vacation and has about 500.00 to spend (including air travel) I promise I'd make it worth your while if you came to Denver. It makes sense that no one comes west, there's no killing two birds because I'm pretty much the only one out here. I mean, Jeff and Adam are out this way, but we're all scattered around. ( Read more... )

I reread that last entry, holy grammar and spelling. I don't really even remember writing it. I did things those 3 days I don't remember at all, really. They're like lucid dreams. I felt like a jackass because I went to pay my landlord rent and she said "you already gave me rent." and I was like "I did, when?" Apparently on the 4th I put it in her ( Read more... )

I just watched "Iraq for Sale". I know I'm a bit late, as it came out a year or two ago. I'm fuckin pissed. I am gobsmacked about where my taxes have been going. I'm happy that as a student I've been getting back most, if not all of my taxes, but other people aren't so lucky ( Read more... )

I joined a gym 9 days ago, I've worked out everyday since. I think eventually I'll be such a hottie I'll never have to use my brain again. I've got such lofty goals, don't I? Today was the day to set up a weight training work-out. I think the personal trainer thinks I have more strength than I actually have because I think if I do the work-out we ( Read more... )

If I had to apply one song to my whole life, sum it up, it would be Narcolepsy by BFF. If Ben is serious in that song...he and I have a lot in common. Why's he so unattainable? Hah. Actually, that album is a good soundtrack to life. I wasn't going to say so, but then the 2nd track came on and it resonated with me too. Hmm, Benny Boy, you's got my