I heard the best news and all I wanted to do was tell you and I couldn’t. So i sat in my bed crying over this bittersweet moment of having everything I’ve ever wanted but no one to share it with. My son is too young to understand but nonetheless I woke up still yearning the urge and still in awe that I am making my dreams happen.

Losing you was the best thing I never wanted

So much hate from someone I love so much

I am patient. I just want to know how long?

I’m like a crab without its shell. Raw

If we can’t be together then it’ll all come apart.

Nothing but love is all I want
Nothing but love is all I need

I’ve been praying to god really hard these last few days.

Sleepless, anxious, coconut oil, deep cleaning, spring cleaning, in between an old life and a new one, lonely, alone, sadness, crying at work, forced beginnings, horrible endings.

Am I just a joke to you?

You were until you weren’t