Comments | chickpea2005: weridness or what?

chickpea2005

weridness or what?

Jul 18, 2006 09:46

Well what can i say today ( Read more... )

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cocktail_kev July 19 2006, 09:17:55 UTC

O = CL
D = EV
D = ER

I hope it's worth it.

Dont worry, we wont be coming, we can take a hint and know where were not wanted.

chickpea2005 July 19 2006, 10:10:48 UTC

what are you on about kev? Why are you off with me?

cocktail_kev July 19 2006, 23:14:59 UTC

I'm glad we had a long argument/chat/chinwag on MSN earlier, it made me realise some other things further to what I had relaised previously. It made me realise I have Androphobia, which is a fear of men. It also made me realise I am actually a man, which is why you do things with Kay more than me which is natural. Do these realisations mean I am scared of myself?... well no, I'm not because I don't really consider myself a man, not that I consider myself a girl, I just consider myself a person. But you see Samantha maybe I wouldnt be such a demanding friend or expect too much if I had my own guy mates. But I dont, nor will I ever have because of my fear of men. I fear everything about them, firstly that they wont like me and will want to beat me up, I think all guys want to beat me up. I also fear their opinion of me espiecally when it comes to being a man and not being a weak person etc. I just think most men will think I'm a poor excuse of a man. So I am usually quiet with guys and want to get away from them because I'm not ( ... )

cocktail_kev July 20 2006, 17:14:11 UTC

Sounds like you might be gay.

Man I feel like a woman! cocktail_kev July 22 2006, 23:30:25 UTC

Haha well if I was meant to be gay, I've been turned lesbian by bad experiences. Actually reading that back, I dont entirely agree with it (yes I am disagreeing with myself) it was a bit tongue in cheek (not THAT cheek). I think it's just down to lack of experience in having male friends. I've lived with my mum and sister all my life and not really had a male role model or family member I see on a regular basis. So it does take me longer to feel comfortable with guys but I'm fine with Mike, but he's so easy to get along with it doesnt count lol (I just called mike easy :O) ... I feel pretty comfortable with Mark though because he is such a nice guy and has said some nice things about me so I know he wont be thinking the things that I fear, but even still my man phobia thing is still there with him a bit and I wish it wasnt because he could be a good mate.