A flourescent light burns all too brightly above my head, The off-white concerete walls have a glow to them that make me want to pull the blankets over my eyes. The hourglass is running low, along with my motivation. Cigarettes and music provide avoidance for a short time but seem to dent my morale.

I fucking hate my life sometimes. I am so ( Read more... )

Hellllo ( Read more... )

Just when I think things could be good the complete bottom falls out of the whole fucking plan. I dont understand, I gave him all my time and energy and i thought things were awesome. Even when i had to go away we talked more than most of my close friends. It was 24/7 when i was home. I met his mom, he took me out with his friends, he made me food ( Read more... )

i hate my job. i hate the winter. i hate unreliable people. i hate being left to my own devices to figure out if someone cares about me. i hate being so sos so ssooooo far away. i hate mondays. and tuesdays. and wednesdays, so on and so on.

summer was a dream.

winter break is in less than 2 months.

and then only one more semester until school is ( Read more... )

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the night is OH so long

So I'm pulling an all-nighter to study for my bio exam and am allotting myself until 6 am to take a break. This is where you come in, livejournal ( Read more... )

 Saturday, 13 October, 2007
Pisces (19 Feb - 20 Mar)

Staying attentive will assure that you don't waste today's magical potential before it fades away. Avoid any type of escapist behavior now, including using alcohol or drugs or even daydreaming, for the most powerful use of your imagination is through acts of creativity. Even if you are not on ( Read more... )

 I need to take the initiative to make changes in my life. Yes, i have already fucked up. I took a part time job and worked all the hours they put me on for, which tended to be over 20. Over 20 hours of work in the same 5 days as a school week is horrendous and i let it fuck me over. Its so like me to not say anything and just do what im told. I ( Read more... )

I fucking hate J Crew. i ask for 10 hours and they finally convince me they could be the first job to give me the hours i want, but no. this week i have 4 shifts- totalling over 20 hours. not to mention 2 of those shifts are thursday and friday morning. oh yeah, let me just blow off class to come work at your douche bag store and watch rich people ( Read more... )

its 12:37 im still drunk. im moving out tomorrow, i am so negative ready. my whole entire family is mad at me because im a booze hound. or so im told. i have so much fucking shit i have to do and all i want to do is go back to bed for 5 hours at least. i iwsh i wasnt a shitty person i wish i didnt have to ralph asap. the computer screen is making ( Read more... )