confessions

[childisgone]

referential. meaningful. this one makes me feel satisfied.

It feels like coming home,
there is a warmth
that subsumes me
a sharp intake of breath
that reminds me
how it feels to feel
without the degredation
of wandering hands
and self-loathing

craving the bitter residue
of coagulation and
congealed satisfaction;
she welcomes me with
jagged edges

but there is comfort
in her immorality -
she is miss.understood
although i feel married
to her rosy appeal.
She seems to tell me
that I belong here
as though here
is the only place
I've ever been

with its tranquil lullaby
of familiarity, I fall
into the whiteness of
scarred scarring and
scared being

and all at once,
I am home again
[she says "and this time
is the last"]