I am exhausted. There is so much I could potentially do in a given day here, and only so much of it that actually gets done. What's worse, I see myself neglecting it all, but do nothing to stop this train wreck from smashing my dreams into oblivion. Every night I come home fully knowing that I have tons of work ahead of me for the evening, but ( Read more... )

Ahhh, finally finished my second essay for English. My first one sucked in my opinion... I got a B on it, so I guess that's not too bad. I really enjoy writing. It's very liberating to get my thoughts into the right words and see my views take shape on the page. I know I haven't had a lot of success in my lit classes before, but in all actuality I ( Read more... )

Today I decided that I'm through with it all. I'm done with this shit. I've been miserable for long enough. I didn't want things to end way back then, but they did. I can't change that. I've been holding on to this idea that she was the one for me, that it doesn't get any better than that. Well, it won't if I keep my head up my ass like that. There ( Read more... )

Today is one of those days that later on I can hopefully look back and say "Damn, that was a real shitty time." Now why would anyone want to be able to say that? Because it means that I would have to be happy when I say it down the line. Not the kind of happy you get when you find five bucks on the sidewalk, I mean really, truly happy. Am I happy ( Read more... )

Life here is different. Why I'm using livejournal again, I don't know. I think I'm starting to like it here. I knew when I decided in December to come here that I'd be starting over, but I guess I didn't really give much serious thought to what that implied. I'm not saying that I should have followed everyone to Tech, I probably needed to do my own ( Read more... )

A lot has changed this summer, some good, some great, some not so great. I've learned which friends I trust, which ones trust me, and which ones I'm better off to forget about once we go our separate ways. I don't want to mention who's who, but I think I've made that clear over the past few years I've known everyone. I'm excited about what's to ( Read more... )

Opening up is a complicated thing. We all have our own ways of doing it and our own reasons for holding back, but no matter who you are, there's always something that hits deep, something that's just a really touchy subject. Maybe it pisses you off, maybe it makes you want to cry, maybe it makes you want to bang your head into the wall for simply f ( Read more... )

So here's the update to who's living in my house: my parents, my sister, me, and the strange kid living in the room next to me. Some of you know of him as my brother, but as far as I see it, he's just becoming a stranger in my eyes. My brother would never do the things he does. My brother is a good kid. He's a wonderful, funny, and very admirable ( Read more... )

Does anyone else feel a bit lost at the present moment? What to do now... I don't know ( Read more... )

Malibu last night was awesome. Even though a certain #$%^!@ crashed my go kart in the middle of the race, it was fun. I feel sorry for Cesar though. We were kinda racing back to Karena's house when he got pulled over. He was the only one of us to get pulled over, and it was only for about 10 over. If you ask me, that's good news considering we ( Read more... )